Rutt Ro Raggy! Is Your Drepression Bad Wight Now? Don't Worry, Some Days It Dooby Dooby Doo Be Like That!

Rutt ro raggy! Is your drepression bad wight now? Don't worry, some days it dooby dooby doo be like that!

Dude imagine how freaking crazy static electricity must have been to a peasent living in 1200 england. Like sometimes magic pain shot through you when you touched some people.

Just puttin' this into the universe, ask yoself:

Is this why you can't or is this why you won't.

I think almost 3 years later I finally understand how to interpret my own art.

For my highschool art portfolio you had to submit a concentration. A number of peices all with a theme or at least all in the same medium. I went with ink pen. Specifically, all of my peices were done as a single line drawing, with the pen never leaving the paper, and sometimes dabbling with watercolor as well.

I was in highschool and in pain. I knew I was depressed, diagnosed and medicated. But I didn't understand why. Part of it was purely physical brain chemistry. But another was my perspective.

One single unbroken line. I believe I have firmly overcome my depression. I am still dependent on medication and have come to terms that I probably will be for the rest of this life. But I am now happy, and brimming with hope. And with that has come hightened understanding.

I had come to resent my highschool art. I saw it as proof of my pain and failures. And I thought it perfectly represents my selfishness. In highschool I was looking forward to better days wanting better things, but I wanted them for myself.

I believe I have a pretty good imagination. I seem to have always been good at looking down the road to the future. Knowing whether or not an action will hurt me. But my focus was on my timeline, not others. I was only looking at a single line.

I knew I wanted to be good. But with only the perspective of a single line there was no urgency, no reason. If I was doing this only for me? Well than I'd rather just be lazy.

There are a thousand selfish reasons to never change.

I know that no matter what I do or don't do, I am loved; I know very well my agency, that I am free to subject myself to things that will hurt me. But I do not want anyone to hurt longer than they have to. I want to, am axious and excited to change, to be better for others. I take care of myself, practice self-love, so I can stay longer to help others.

Beware of myopic, singular, or narrow-minded thinking. Look to love others.

Choose your own adventure style video game but it becomes the player vs the main character. So as the player chooses things the character thinks are wrong they start to resist the players choices.

Or maybe the player has super powers and it's like a superhero game or a high fantasy game and the player is a demon inside of the protag that can choose whether or not to let the protag use magic.

Oo oo! What if at the beginning of the game the protag is a blank slate and the player shapes their personality. So if you choose a bunch of good choices the protag becomes a good person, so when you suddenly throw in a "eat a kitten" the protag would resist and say no. And near the mid game if you switch from goodie goodie to full bady suddenly the protag recognizes the player as some kind of force inside of them. Trying to control and tell them what to do.

But if you control all their magic or superpowers the protag will be forced to make deals with the player. Negotiating the players help to complete their goal.

And think of the replay value? Like at the beginning of the game to setup the end game the replayer makes the protag do a bunch of random and seemingly stupid things; and eventually the protag recognizes the player as some kind of omniscient spirit and starts to trust it.

There could also be real gameplay beyond choices and quicktime events. The protag would have powers so you could make fun gameplay. Idk what kind though, maybe fighting game?

Maybe it becomes almost more of a movie as by the end of the game your protag is basically all grown up now. Maybe the gameplay wouldn't be fighting because your not actually directly controlling the player? Unless we go full superpowered evil side, where the protag gives up his agency to the player when fights come.

Lots of fun stuff. I'd probably play it. Especially if there were a lot of different diverging paths.