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So, I was having my yearly "am I actually a lesbian?" mental breakdown and I was like "okay, well, I mean I love women but I also love my boyfriend...so idk." But I remembered the Sapphic label exists but I thought it was another word for lesbian and I didn't want to use that as a label if I couldn't use it. So I did research on it and um-

Long story short I'm using the sapphic label.

I swear every other year I'm having a sexuality/identity crisis😭

Ik a lot of book fans don't like the movies, but I adore them. They aren't book accurate in the slightest, and some of the acting is...less than great, but the movies have a special place in my heart. The writing isn't the best either, but it's so terrible it's good (if that makes sense)

Yes this is about the Percy Jackson movies

The person that played Luke tho was PERFECT 10/10 casting tbh

Alexandra was an amazing Annabeth too

Also the design for riptide?? I fucking love swords man

Y'wanna know my Roman empire? This is back in around 2008 or so when Caylee Anthony was still missing, but me and my granny were at winn-dixie in my hometown and this older lady had yelled at my mimi because she thought *I* was Caylee.

The only reason my mimi didn't get arrested for "kidnapping" was because one of the workers knew us by name.

If he didn't know us, there probably would have been a universe where I would have been sent to Orlando as a scared and confused little girl.

It was so much worse because Caylee looked exactly like me. Nearly identical. She was born a year after me as well. Now that I'm almost 20, I think about this so much more than when I was little. This has been my Roman empire for a few years now.

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So for those who don't know, I joined the dsmp Fandom because of...a certain British musician who shall not be named, and I saw on TT like-just now that someone isn't going to support him or lovejoy anymore.

For himself I can understand, but lovejoy as a whole? I really don't understand.

In no way shape or form am I here to defend him, I'm just...genuinely confused.

Need I say also that people still listen to MSI, mother mother, FIR, and MANY other bands that have allegations (and proof) against them? Why is it whenever it's someone in the mc community (d*eam, skydoesminecraft, many others) all of a sudden its an issue to like their music or whatever?

Props to shubble/shelbie for speaking up, please continue to give her your full support. It takes a lot to say something.

This is Shubbles situation, not his. She's the one who was abused, not him. Don't make this all about him. Thank you ❤️

Hello! So I'm in the PJO Fandom (have been for a couple of years) and I wanna talk about some of the characters that get hate or aren't understood. Starting with Bianca Di Angelo. There ARE spoilers to HoO and TOA, proceed with caution.

Bianca and Nico grew up in WWII era Italy and were brought to DC when Bianca was...10?? I think?? Whatever that's not the point, when they were brought to DC with their mom, Zeus had tried to kill them (because hades, Zeus, and poseidon kids were too powerful and Bianca was a hades kid) but he only killed their mom because hades had a barrier around the two kids. Fast forward to when we meet them, Bianca is 12 and Nico is either 9 or 10 (can't remember but that's not the point) and Bianca leaves Nico to join the hunters of Artemis. On the surface level, you might think that's a pretty shitty thing to do but let me put this into perspective for you: their dad is a God, meaning he can't associate with his kids directly and their mother died. Bianca had to become the sole caretaker to a hyperactive 9 or 10 year old boy for 70+ years. The ONLY reason she left was because she KNEW Nico would be safe at CHB (or as safe as you could be) she wanted to do something for HERSELF for once. It's not her being a bad sister, it's her wanting to finally do something for HERSELF. As an older sibling, I can understand her more than anything.

Next, Reyna. She grew up in Puerto Rico with her older sister and father, she was the first person in her family to be a decendant of Bellona, but her father became manic and she killed him. In doing so, all of her ancestors had gathered and called her a murderer-punishable by death at camp Jupiter. She and her sister fled Puerto Rico. Fast forward to current times, she's 16 years old and a commander of camp Jupiter. She's the one that brought peace between the Greek and Roman demigod camps. 16 and a commander. Why is she disliked so much? I think she's a badass person who shouldn't be treated like filth-from ANYONE, fictional or not. She's been through so much and yet you don't like her? Grow up.

Next is...well Jason AND Thalia Grace. Thalia and Jason were born a couple years apart (I not sure how many) to the Greek and Roman forms of Zeus. Their mother was a beloved actress who turned to the bottle because Zeus wouldn't notice her anymore. Jason was kidnapped by Hera when he was 2 and brought to Lupa. Thalia ran away from home. Fast forward to current time, she finally finds her brother again, but his memories are...well, they aren't in tact. Thalia is a hunter of Artemis and Jason is a child soilder. Thalia is forever 15 and Jason just turned 16 while on a quest to defeat Gaia. In which he nearly died. He hadn't seen his sister in YEARS and he couldn't even remember her because Hera had wiped his memories, can you imagine how they both felt? Thalia was so relieved to see him alive and he didn't even remember her face. They're both so complex and I WISH we saw them together more...instead Thalia will never see her brother again because he's dead.

Next, funshine bear personified: Will Solace. Okay, where to start with him...his mother traveled all over as a country singer bringing him along. When he was 9, monsters disguised as pigeons attacked him. He was brought to camp half blood, claimed by Apollo and then...well..hell broke loose. In the first war, he lost so many of his siblings it-hurts. The ONLY reason he's head of the Apollo cabin, is because the one before him died. He was only about maybe 11 or 12 when he was leading the main healing legion in the war with Kronos. He's lost so many people in his life, yet when people think of him they only think about him being Nico's boyfriend.

There's so much more and I could do a whole essay on this. ESPECIALLY Bianca and Rachel, but for now: please read their backstories before you say someone is selfish.

omg okay so:

One of the accounts I follow on twt, and someone on here made a theory about Crowley and I just wanna...add my own interpretation. Okay so the theory went that "piece of my world" might have spoilers involved with the full song, which you don't think about sounding like Crowley, right? Wrong. Well sorta at least. I noticed it recently but the way the first part of pomw is written kinda sounds like how we've heard some people's UM be written/said. Getting into the actual theory however, they had theorized that Crowley is doing rare faerie magic called "realm dominance" which is how the dormitories are made. Now at first I was kinda like "mmm???" But the more it's thought of, the more it makes sense. I'm not sure about on here, but my friend and I were always just-pissed when Crowley handed his responsibilities over to students during overblots. However, what would STYX want with Crowley, because the ONLY way they'd ever be involved with him is if he overblotted or if he has information about overblots for them. The thing IS though, we can infer that if you overblot once, you can overblot again. But why would Crowley overblot? Even though he's a fae, he's still susceptible to overusing his magic, and we know NOTHING about Crowley's past so for all we know, he could have fought in the war against humans after Lilia was exiled from the capital and thus the fae army. The tutorial had us fight what looks like Grim (I think the whole Fandom agrees on that, right?) And you notice how the background just looks-god awful? What if Crowley had created a new dimension of where NRC wasn't burnt and broken? What if he had made us have the visions before someone overblots so we know what we're getting ourselves into? What if Crowley brought us there for a reason, not just to be a beast tamer? What if we are the key to undoing what has already been done so that way they know how to destroy grim JUST ENOUGH to where he has his humanity back? The first few verses of "piece of my world" roughly translates to "will you look beyond the door? I'm waiting for you let's go to wonderland." (According to one posted lyric video ofc, it's just a rough translation do please do correct me) which I think means that Crowley already knew we were there. He's not looking for a way to get us home because there's something we bring to the school which makes killing overblots and phantoms easier. If you think about it, the manga protags all are almost the opposite of the dorm wardens: yu? Tall and sure of himself, he's a kind leader that makes sure you know when your wrong but actively helps you work on what you need helped with. Yuuka? She's strong and independent, active and an all around great leader as well-I'm not caught up with the Savanaclaw manga so PLEASE correct me if I'm wrong. Finally yuuta, he's another kind person who is what Azul used to be and look like. So we already mirror the housewardens in that department, which goes back to the first part of the song being a spell.

I feel like this went off the rails-way too many times, but to make a long story short: Crowley knew that we would be able to help in some way so he brought us into twisted wonderland via magic and the first lines of the opening song are the spell he used to get us there.

I drew this malleus because of book 7

BUT IT LOOKS NOTHING LIKE HIM AND MY FRIEND AND BOYFRIEND ARE CLOWNING IT SO HARD

I think I have severe commitment issues-

So, I've had MANY different partners but I'm just going to talk about the last three. Sophomore year of HS, I was dating this boy and he was the first person in my freshman/Sophomore year that I count but that relationship was...mostly kept a secret from his dad (no mom, I think she died or something....) and he was just...kinda a shitty person. He treated me like shit when we split off, and I don't even know HOW or WHEN we split it off because the night before we were joking around then the next day: nothing. Fast forward to junior year, I come back from being in online school and at the time, t*ump was saying things about LGBTQIA+ rights and I thought as a form of protest-ig-i wore my pride flag to school for a week straight. A group of people came up to me and I felt INSTANT panic, but the person who talked for the small little group is who I ended up falling for-as ironic as it is- we both liked similar things and we exchanged jackets but...I was ghosted once school ended (they were a senior) and then school started again and I saw them. They had credits they needed to make up so that's why they were there, but they had asked me on our first and last date and that Saturday, we went roller skating. I ended up spraining my wrist about midway through the date (I'm usually a good blader I promise, I just stumbled 😭) then after that we didn't talk again. So, my last year rolls around and there's no one. Yes there are crushes but that's all there were. Presently, I'm dating someone who I've known since my sophomore year who used to be friends with both of my ex's. He's wonderful and everything but he talks about marriage and stuff...constantly. he's Christian and we both have been treated badly at some point in our relationship histories. But the thing is, I DON'T WANT TO GET MARRIED. I never really have, I've seen it as a waste of time since I was a kid. He also is going into the reserves and today he had a meeting with the recruiter about the jobs he would do and he refused to do something that departed on our anniversary (Feb. 14th) and to me, an anniversary is just another day but he's been treating it as a big thing since our one month. But the thing is, I don't want to say like "Hey btw I may have commitment issues so can you please tone it down?" BECAUSE THATS RUDE??? AND I DONT WANNA BE A BITCH BUT IM ABOUT TO DISAPPEAR OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH AND START OVER IF IT CONTINUES, I DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH IT 😭😭

............nvm safe to say I DO have commitment issues. HOW TF DO I GO ABOUT SAYING IT-LIKE WHAT?? WHAT IF HE TAKES IT THE WRONG WAY?? Why can't we just be a situationship. I'd be WAY more comfortable then-

So, when I was making an oc for twisted wonderland, I decided to make them based off of a snowflake moray eel. While I was doing research, I learned that eels (specifically the moray species) have...HORRENDOUS eyesight and that got me thinking about the fact only azul has glasses. Different sources list that an octopuses eyesight is good and others say it's bad, some also list them as being....nearsighted I think it was (if any marine biologists want to share any knowledge on octopuses that would be GREAT) but all sources seem to say moray eels and the subspecies snowflake moray eels have terrible/remarkably poor eyesight. So why didn't the tweels get glasses and only Azul? Do they wear contacts? That doesn't make sense in the entirety though, because if they go back into the water wouldn't the contact just...fall out?? I dunno I'm just really interested in marine life but I refuse to use natgeo since they support genocide ✌️

(This is a snowflake moray eel btw :3 look at it, it's so fucking majestic)

reblog if the first musical you listened to was not Hamilton

Riddle: "aww he's so cute...OH MY GOD WE'RE CLOSE IN HEIGHT :D"

Floyd: "he just like me fr."

Ace (begrudgingly): "bro why is it always the gingers dragging me into games. What the fuck. WHY DO WE ACT THE SAME-DUDE YOURE A GOD OR SOMETHING LIKE-"

Idia: "bro he reminds me of my boyfriend except a lot more pathetic and wet cat like..." *proceedes to cosplay him for Halloween.*

Epel: "SOUTHERN BUDDIESSSS" *starts calling my grandma meemaw because of his ass*

Malleus: "......I need this man so viscerally you DONT UNDERSTAND PLEASE-"

The Ace one was because my friend had compared me to ace and I was kinda iffy about it till he punched riddle then it just hit like "yea that's a mood"

What was your first impression of your favorite twst characters?

Finding out Idia is actually a REALLY good singer and belts out game/anime OP's because of glomas just makes my friends' kin assignment of him to me SO much funnier

So before I became a fan of TWST, my friend talked about it all the time and I asked her what characters I remind her of and she said Ace, Deuce, and Idia. Then I got into the game and realized: fuck she's right. Especially about Ace ngl (epel got added soon and damn he just like me fr)

Now, I was a choir/theatre kid in high school (as if it wasn't obvious) and now I don't have perfect pitch (in fact I tend to go flat or sharp depending on the song) but I would use ANY opportunity to bust out my favorite anime/game OP. So when I got to see the glomas event for myself and get to read the lil stories and all for myself; seeing ortho basically tell malleus and diasomnia Idia's big secret that he's actually a REALLY good singer??? He's so much like me. Fr.

I'm not the same online as I am IRL at all, I'm basically the exact opposite. And I really love it. I really love that they gave the silly guy that dislikes people a sort of thing that gives him some semblance of being like everyone else and human. Because I dislike people and I'm asocial but ADORE singing anime/game/ normie music.

Anyway I love Idia Shroud your honor

V-vampire doppio

KWBSKXBDKNBEIDBD

I need him so badly

I hope the outfit doppi put on is supposed to be like-a sexy priest or something because God DAMN am I feeling things rn

The sea one is so me coded

358 - its so funny that nagisa will pretend kaoru doesnt exist if he tries to talk to him but will talk shus ear off unprompted (much to shus displeasure)

Without fan fiction I'd legitimately be so fucking bored in school so THANK YOU FAN FIC WRITERS

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What a man 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️

⌕ sk8 the infinity • cherry blossom.

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It's been 11days since 🧡 graduated from nijisanji and it's been a month and some change since I've gotten my thoughts about him together...so; like every other mystake, the news hit like a freight train. I had gotten into the Fandom a little after ILUNA debuted but didn't actively watch 🧡 until may. I started out as a kyomie, but fell in love with Mysta's humor from clips of him in collabs and such. He was the first one I had a membership to despite the fact he streamed incredibly early in the morning and I worked weird hours. But that's besides the point. Mysta was someone that no matter how my day went before seeing his streams/vods, it would be better in the end because of him. When Nina graduated, I was sad yes, but this one...it hit HARD. Even before the fated day, I was preparing to cry. But when it happened...I couldn't cry. I didn't cry even. Not until his letter to us mystakes. I remember the first vod of his I saw; the little misfortune one, it was my "getting ready for the day" video, a little thing to get me ready to deal with assholes and dumbasses. Mysta was the reason I got my first luxiem fanmerch for my birthday and he was the very first streamer I had a channel membership to. To 🧡, if you ever see this: thank you for being you. I want you to know, that I will never forget you, I love you non-parasociqlly...take care hun. 🧡🧡

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What if I cried.

i’m thinking about kaveh first dropping off his kid in ghandarva ville. he did a good job explaining to them that he’ll be back before they know it and that he’ll alway be there for them. before he leaves he feels little hands clutching onto his leg as they just whisper “you promise you’re gonna come back? you won’t leave me, right? you promise you won’t leave me?”

i'll be back.

summary. kaveh finds the strength to leave his child in gandharva ville.

trigger & content warnings. fear of abandonment, references to kaveh's backstory.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. comfort, soft angst. adoptive dad!kaveh x child!reader. 0.9k words. they/them pronouns for reader.

author's thoughts. wow you just woke up today and chose gentle violence huh anon /LH i love soft angst. hard angst? yeah, it definitely hurts, but soft angst like this? idk. it hits different sometimes!!!

kaveh did not want to resort to this. he didn't.

the architect truly, sincerely had tried his very best to think of any alternate solutions—maybe he could convince alhaitham to give [name] a chance? no, caring for a child he impulsively decided to pick up off the streets isn't his roommate's responsibility and it really never would be unless the scribe himself decided to take it on, but some people have spontaneous changes of heart! why would alhaitham be any different?

(unfortunately, said man was not going to budge anytime soon. a child would disrupt the comfortable life he had put so much effort into building. kaveh had no choice but to accept that fact. well, really, he knew from the beginning! he was just hoping alhaitham might change.)

in the end, he managed to come up with nothing. he could not think of a single good or attainable option that would allow him to keep them. as much as he hated to admit it, only alhaitham's solution was a viable and reasonable one.

so, here he is, standing in front of tighnari's home in gandharva ville motionlessly with his child held securely in his arms. there were no words in any language that kaveh knew of that could describe what he was feeling. he wordlessly rubs soothing circles on their back.

the silence is impossibly loud.

tighnari does not rush him. he does not so much as even think of complaining. he simply waits quietly with collei at his side, the girl bouncing on her heels slightly in a nervous fidget. she wants to be a good caretaker to [name]; tighnari knows the prospect alone of having to care for them is making her nervous.

kaveh's slightly wavering voice finally breaks the silence:

"you know why i have to leave you here, right?"

they nod quietly, little hands clenched in fists raising up to rub at their watery eyes with their palms—they hope it looks like they're tired and not like they're about to cry, which they are. they hope he doesn't know they're about to cry. they hope he just thinks they're tired from the long journey. they hope he doesn't know the truth.

kaveh knows, of course.

he doesn't say anything about it, though, and only tries to swallow back his own emotions. he tries his best to repress the nauseous feeling stirring in his gut. he tries his best to repress the crawling of his skin. he tries his best to repress the thoughts that this is so impossibly wrong, so impossibly cruel of him.

he hasn't known this child for long, but...

he felt like he was abandoning them.

he felt like he was abandoning his flesh and blood.

absentmindedly, kaveh wondered if this was how his mother felt when she left to fontaine. he hopes not. this feeling is vile. he wouldn't wish it upon his worst enemy.

"and you also know that i'm going to come back all the time to see you, right? and i'm always going to be here if you need me?"

their voice cracks slightly. "yeah."

it's not at all that kaveh doesn't trust tighnari and collei; he does, and he knows they'll take good care of [name], but... still. he wants to be the one taking care of them. he wants to keep them.

he can't.

kaveh then kneels down, and their heart sinks in to the pit of their stomach, despite the fact that they already knew this was inevitably going to happen. just as they dreaded, he sets them down onto their own two feet.

they're reluctant to release their tiny grip from his shirt, but they do so regardless of their hesitance. a slight whimper rises in their throat when kaveh's warmth is gone from them.

kaveh hasn't ever really had to comfort children before.

he's... not sure what to do from here, quite frankly, so he does the first thing that comes to mind.

he leans forward, pressing the smallest, most hesitant of kisses to the crown of their head.

then, he stands up.

he doesn't get very far before one of their little hands is clutching his pant leg, and he inhales sharply, turning back to face them. "[name]..."

kaveh cuts himself off.

their eyes are wide, glittering with the sheen of unshed tears, and their bottom lip is split and cracked—they've either been picking at it or biting it, kaveh notes. how did he not notice before?

in their moment of sadness and stress, their accent peeks through a bit more heavily. it's in a shaky voice on the brink of breaking that they ask, "you promise you're gonna come back, right? you won't leave me, will you?"

...

kaveh earnestly believes he might cry about this when he gets home. oh well. alhaitham will simply have to deal with it.

for now, though, he doesn't cry. he can't.

the architect kneels back down to their height, wiping away the single tear that slid down their cheek with his calloused fingertips. "of course."

"you— you're not gonna leave me, right? you're not leaving me?"

"no. never. i promise, okay?" he whispers. "i'm here, okay? i'm always here if you need me. you just need to tell tighnari. he'll tell me you asked for me and i'll come back here. anytime."

kaveh briefly wonders if he'll regret making such a promise—his clients may suffer if they ask for him at a bad time—but then again...

he can't really say he ever will, not with the way they look at him with such vulnerable trust.

he can't regret it when they're putting their damaged trust into his hands.

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