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What are your Rejanis headcannons?

I got two request for this so I’ll write twice the headcanons

Rejanis Headcanons!

Competitive as shit. Will fight over who loves who more which everyone in their friend group finds sickeningly sweet and extremely annoying at the same time

Both big on PDA, Janis being affectionate in general and Regina being pretty much only affectionate with Regina.

Janis eyes her hair tips pink for Regina at one point as a surprise, she got lots of kisses for it (and maybe more)

Janis likes to show off to Regina whenever she can and Regina fine it extremely cute. It also boost Janis pride (something she cherishes)

Janis gets her way very quickly, bat those doe eyes of her and Regina will cave. (Regina will never admit that she has the biggest soft stop for the brunette)

Janis I’ll shamelessly use Regina as a pillow whenever she feelings like it. Regina will use her as a head rest, which annoys the shit out of Janis but she’s hot so it’s fine.

They listen to Sapphic music together and often end up making out. (By often I mean every single time)

Also Regina tops.

Janis likes to style Regina hair, Regina actually adores it.

SO SILLY SO CUTE 🥰

Regina Janis

Silly

Some biting

Silly, sleepy, little goose.

Summary: Rejanis cuddles. Warning: fluff, some swearing. Pairings: Regina + Janis

Janis was watching a movie with hooded eyes, starting at the screen trying not to fall asleep. She hadn’t slept much the last few days and was hanging on by a string, buts he wanted to finish this movie with her girl.

Curled up at Regina’s side while she played with Janis’s hair mindlessly.

She let out a yawn, rubbed her head on the blondes shoulder in a nuzzling movement.

“You’re so cute when you’re tired.” Regina said teasingly. Janis never liked being called cute, found it embarrassing. She wasn’t cute she was dangerous,

“Ah, shut up.” She muttered, looking back at the screen with tired eyes.

“So cute.” She went to tap Janis nose but she snapped her teeth and she pulled it away.

“Don’t try and bite me, weirdo!” Regina laughed, going to tap her nose again. Janis did the same exact thing, smirking.

“You’re annoying.” Regina scoffed, pulling down the beanie Janis had on over her eyes, Janis pushed it back up.

“Thanks, I strive to be.” She batted her eyes at her and laid her head back on her shoulder, Regina wrapped her arm around her tight.

Janis pretended to be interest in whatever the fuck they were watching, her foggy mind hadn’t really been following the plot line.

They were quiet for a moment longer till Regina pulled out her phone and shifted, removing her arm form around Janis.

“No,” Janis whined, pushing it away, “put it away, I was comfy.” “One seconded, geez!” Regina rolled her eyes, and continued typing. Janis pouted.

Regina side-eyed her, “Go to sleep, I know you’re tired.” She looked back at her screen, tapping away.

“Blah blah blah!” Janis mocked and turned the other way, scooting away from her, pretending to be upset and grabbing her own phone.

“Dramatic ass,” Regina laughed and set down her phone, throwing the couch pillow at the other girl. Janis gasped, setting her own phone down and throwing it right back.

“Go back on your phone, in fact, you should marry it! Cutest couple around, a blondie and her phone.” Janis said, holding back a laugh at the blondes expression.

“Oh, stop,” she pulled Janis back to her, wrapping both arm around the smaller girl. Janis allowed it, relaxing in her touch.

“I can love you both.” The blonde added. The brunette gasped once again, pushing Regina off her and rolling off the couch.

Regina burst out laughing at the girls reaction.

“You actually cheated on me? With a phone? I’m repulsed!” Janis joked from the floor, pointing an accusing finger at her.

“Get up, I’ll stop,” Regina drawled after she stopped laughing.

Janis did just that, curling up with Regina comfortably, “No more phone.” She added once more, flipping off the inanimate objects.

“You’re dumb.” Regina said affectionately. “You’re dumber.” Janis muttered sleepily, closing her eyes and feeling the tension in her head leave as she did so.

“Power couple.” Regina joked as the brunette rested her eyes, making them both giggle. Scratching her head soothingly.

Janis peeked open one eyes, peering up at her briefly, sticking out her tongue, “Silly, sleepy, little goose.” Regina muttered warmly, rolling her eyes.

She closed her eyes again, “Absolutely.” Was the last thing Janis mumbled before she drifted to sleep.

Lil Drabble because I got bored. Enjoy this shitty little thing.

4th of July hangout with the gang

*everyone at Regina’s house*

Cady: THIS IS AWESOME *eating a hotdog*

Janis: *feet in the pool, eating a bag of chips and a hotdog*

Regina: my mom said we can go on the roof and watch fireworks if you guys want

Karen: omg I love your roof

Regina: just please stay away from the edge this time

Gretchen: oh my gosh yeah Karen almost fell off last year

Karen: *remembers then giggles* oh yeah

Aaron: *grilling more hotdogs and hamburgers*

Damian: Gretchen did you hear about *gossiping*

Gretchen: *listening intently*

Janis: cads, you gonna be ok with the fireworks? They’re pretty loud

Cady: oh um I think I’ll be ok

Janis: alright but remember you can always go sit inside if it gets to much

Cady: *nods* I brought my headphones just in case like you told me

Regina: who’s spending the night? I have room for all of you but I like a headcount

*everyone raises their hands*

Regina: D you can take the downstairs guest room, Aaron you can take the pull out bed in the living room, Karen and Gretch you can take the upstairs guest room, Cads you can stay with me and Janis in my room of course

Cady: *ketchup on her face* okie dokie *thumbs up*

Janis: *hugs Cady from behind*

Cady: hi *giggles*

Janis: hey, wanna go back in the pool?

Cady: ooo yes please

*cady and Janis go back in the pool, Damian and Gretchen continue to gossip, Aaron is eating and listening to Karen talk about random things, and Regina is just watching it all*

*this sun begins to set, Regina cleans up a little*

Aaron: should we start heading up to the roof?

Regina: yeah can you help everyone get up there? It’s through the attic

Aaron: yeah of course

*Aaron, Gretchen, Karen, and Damian head up to the roof*

Regina: Cady baby, you gonna be ok?

Cady: *mouth full of chips* mhm

Janis: I’m gonna stay inside, take some videos for me

Regina: of course babe, I know you don’t like the noise, kiss?

Janis: *smiles and kisses Regina* you’re so soft sometimes

Regina: oh shut up *blushing lightly*

Cady: I wanna kiss too please

Janis: aw come here honey *kiss*

Cady: *smiles* I love you

Janis: I love you too, and Regina

Regina: I love you both now let’s head to the roof baby

*regina and Cady get on the roof with the rest of the group while Janis gets out her headphones and her weighted blanket in Regina’s room*

*janis changes into one of Cady’s hoodies and Regina’s sweatpants, sits quietly, eating chips, watching her comfort movie, and sketching*

*the fireworks start*

Cady: *small yelp* woah

Regina: you ok baby? *concerned, wraps her arms around Cady*

Cady: *nods* mhm is it all going to be that loud?

Regina: yeah, do you want me to get your noise canceling headphones? do you wanna go inside?

Cady: headphones please *fidgeting a little*

Regina: ok I’m gonna text J to bring them

-Reggie- hey J can you bring cads headphones up

-J babe- 👍

Janis: *goes to the attic* here *hands Regina Cady’s headphones and comfort weighted lion plush*

Regina: thank you babe *half smiles, quickly going to the slightly panicked Cady*

Cady: *face lights up seeing the plush* Leo! *grabs the lion* thanks

Regina: *puts the headphones on Cady, kissing her forehead and holding her hand*

Cady: *more calmed down, enjoying the colors of the fireworks with out the overstimulation of the noise*

Regina: *recording the fireworks and a little bit of Cady and the group*

*as the fireworks come to an end for the most part, everyone decides to head back inside*

*they all exchange good nights and hugs*

Regina: *opens the door to her room*

Janis: *takes off her headphones* all done?

Regina: *nods*

Janis: *looks over at a very sleepy cady* hi

Cady: *waves* hi

Regina: we’re gonna get changed

Cady: then cuddle?

Regina: yeah baby then cuddle *chuckles lightly*

Janis: I’ll put on a movie for us

Cady: can it be a kids movie?

Janis: lion king?

Cady: *gasps excitedly* yes please

Regina: *laughs a little* get changed out of those outside clothes so we can lay down dork

*Cady and Regina get changed into pajamas, Regina wears a silk pajama set, Cady wears an over sized lion king t-shirt she keeps at Regina’s and some shorts*

*puts on the movie*

Cady: *happy stims* lion king lion king lion king *hugs her lion plush*

Janis: *eating sour gummy worms*

Regina: j babe I don’t like when you eat in my bed

Janis: but the fireworks are scary and I wanna sit with my girlfriends while I eat my gummies *pout*

Regina: ugh fine whatever just share them at least

Janis: yay *shares the gummy worms*

*the three of them enjoy the large bag of sour gummy worms and Lion King, Cady is the first to fall asleep*

Janis: pssst I thinks cads is asleep

Regina: mhm we should go to sleep too

Janis: *yawns* ok

Regina: good night babe

Janis: night night *yawns*

A/N: this writing style was the only way I could motivate myself to write and this took longer than I wanted to write especially given how short it is but I hope you enjoy and I’m really trying to get back into writing lol

Oh no im crying oh my god :( this, as sad as it was, was honestly quite beautifully written

Free

Jos Cleary-Lopez x fem! reader

Warnings: MDNI, mature themes— mentions to miscarriage, coarse language, angst, descriptions to self-harm, mentions to blood & bodily fluids, death

Part 2 for A part of me

Fourteen days since you’ve been home at Jos’, fourteen days since you’ve been at the hospital, fourteen days since you’ve left the house. Two whole weeks since that nightmare of a situation happened to you. Not much has changed since, other than the obvious. Margot and Rob looked at you with pity-filled eyes…you hated that. You didn’t need the pity. Though yes, what you were going through currently was extremely painfully since you were constantly bleeding and cramping— pity was the last thing you needed. It made you feel like a helpless little baby. You hated being treated that way. Jos knew you way better, so there was none of that with her. But there was no denying she was very…careful. In just about everything she did since then.

On the plus side, you were spared a long and torturous trial because they found evidence from him in the kit they had to do on you. But even with him out of the house, you were still where it happened, even though it was actually the safest place for you to be. You couldn’t go home, and it wasn’t like you were home a lot anyway…seeing that neither of your parents have even texted to ask where you were. But there was no way you could function the way you were now, at home. You could barely do anything on your own— that would prompt them to ask about what was going on and you did not want more people to know.

“Hi, baby.” Jos greets you with a smile as she walks into her room holding a bed tray. “Just in time.”

“You don’t have to do this, you know?” You asked flatly, pushing the blanket off of yourself. She only smiles at you again, gaze soft as she places that tray near the bottom of the bed while you went to wash up and stretch.

“No, it’s fine.” She leans against the wall, taking to you, “Got to spend some time with my mom to make bread so that was nice. She already left for work and Izzy’s off at school too— so, it’s just us.”

“Oh. Okay.” You answered, shutting the door so you could do your business. You sat there staring down at the juncture between your thighs, sick of what you were seeing and what you had to do. The bleeding has lessened gradually over the last two weeks, which was approximately the amount of time the hospital had told you it would take for it to come to an end.

This morning was the least gory it’s looked to you, but still, it’s been two weeks too long. You sigh, changing out the sanitary napkin before you washed your hands and exited the bathroom. Jos stretches out her arm, pulling you close gently and pressing a kiss to your cheek. “Sit down, have some food then we’ll go for a little walk?”

“Okay, that sounds pretty nice.” You reached for the mug of green tea first then dug into the egg muffins Jos and Margot had made.

“I’m gonna go grab some food for myself. Be right back.”

After breakfast, you left the house with Jos for the first time in four days. Like last time, it was a walk around the same park just right by her house. But, Margot and Rob were both pretty against either of you leaving the house for too long— because of Matt’s actions that have brought on a lot of attention from the media. You were definitely feeling the stress of it hearing phones ringing off the hook, the news channels on TV talking all about Matt getting arrested. It was only a matter of time before the reason got exposed. Along with your identity.

As you walked along the path in the quiet park, hand in hand with Jos, that was all you could think about. And it has easily caused your anxiety to skyrocket and you to freeze in your tracks. Jos similarly stops, looking at you, concerned. “I think we should go home.” You managed to tell her.

She doesn’t even question it and agreed, immediately walking back home with you. And there you were, sitting on the couch with another mug of tea. Jos sits right beside you but you scooted a little bit away from her. She notices but chose not to say anything. Her hand finds its way to your thigh and you so quickly got up and excused yourself to go use the restroom. Typically, she wouldn’t say anything but it was the fact that you seemed so startled by it even though she’s always does this— even back at the hospital, that had her worried.

————

The skin beneath your fingertips turn white as you gripped at it, your breath progressively gets ragged, heart slamming against your chest. Your whole body goes stiff while your mind starts racing about a bunch of what-ifs that could happen in relation to the whole situation with Matt. With each passing day, your fear only grew. You could already see those headlines or hear them— all in your head. It’s been all you could think about the past three days. You weren’t sure what started it, but the lack of anything to do lately has definitely caused this, in a way.

As the warm water repeated hit your back, you take in deep breaths inhaling the steam. The loofah gripped in your hand scrubs your skin raw. It stings after some time but you just couldn’t stop. Of course it stung, you’ve been doing the same thing for the past week. Events from that goddamn night started to flood your mind, you needed to get out. Gasping for air, you blindly reached forward and shut the water off, scurrying to grab your towel off the counter. A string of knocks pull you out of your bubble, you gasped aloud, thoroughly shocked. “Baby?”

It was Jos.

“Are you alright? You’ve been in there awhile, y/n.”

“Y-yeah, yeah. I’ll be right out, Jos.” You exhaled forcefully, drying yourself off and getting dressed as fast as your limbs allowed you to in the moment.

You exit the bathroom as if nothing has happened, but you were still anxious. So fucking anxious, and terrified. Walking past her, you headed upstairs to Jos’ room. But, as expected she stops you before you even made it halfway up the stairs.

“What?” You snapped, your voice shaky.

With her hand on your wrist, she was quick to spot the redness on your arms. She almost nearly let it go immediately out of shock. You yank your arm away from her grip, trying not to burst into tears.

“What—”

“You know what.” You spat, pushing past her as tears slipped down your cheeks.

‘I probably should’ve waited until she was sitting down and could properly talk to her.’ Jos thinks, catching up with you swiftly.

Right before she steps into her room, she stops herself, watching what you were doing. You were sat on the floor by her bed, backpack in front of you as you took a pouch out of it. Your actions were frazzled, breathing growing erratic. The contents got dumped on the hardwood floors, landing with a clatter. Papers, no— photos. Ultrasound photos and pieces of plastic which Jos had yet to make out as pregnancy tests. Seeing all of them sprawled out on the floor before your eyes, you lost it— you bawled. Jos was shocked, she didn’t know what to do now. Nothing was processing in her mind. It wasn’t until a scream snaps her out of her racing thoughts, her eyes watched you grab the items by the handful and crushed them.

Fuck.

She let you release all of those emotions before she stepped in. You needed that. “y/n.” She calls your name, walking closer to you.

“What—” You panted, hands letting go of the items as your body shook, overwhelmed. You were still in tears. “What— I— fuck!”

“You’re okay, baby.” She kneels down before you, holding your face in her hands

“No.” You kept babbling over and over, “No, no I feel so dirty.”

“Baby, you’re not…you—”

You cut her off, “It’s my fault. I tempted him. I gave him the chance to do whatever he did to me. I deserved it. I shouldn’t have gotten together with you. He’s right…I don’t deserve you.”

Jos held it together as best as she could, painfully swallowing the tears. Her heart sank, getting smashed into pieces hearing your words. “It’s not your fault.” She says, “It’s not your fault, y/n. He should’ve never laid his hands on you. Nothing could make what he did justifiable.”

“Now every time I try to go to sleep, all I can think about is what kind of headlines would come up overnight.” You wept, “I’m terrified to do anything. Go anywhere. I—”

Jos engulfs you in a tight hug, putting physical pressure on you to calm you down some. “We’ll get through this, okay? I love you, I care about you. That’s never going to change. He’s gone now, he can’t hurt you anymore.”

“Can’t he? What he did is still haunting me. I wake up screaming and crying and then you get dragged into it.”

“I love you.” She repeated herself, “No matter what. I couldn’t care less about him— he can go to hell right now, and he should.”

“I’m tired, Jos.” You said to her and inside, she was worried. This…reckless behaviour. She understood why because you’d obviously went through something that was as good as being put through hell. But you hurting yourself over it, after everything? She wished you didn’t do that. Oh how she wishes that you’d just release your emotions with her instead of taking them out on yourself.

“Let me be strong for you then. You don’t have to worry about that right now. Focus on healing your body, your mind…going to those appointments with your therapist. Anything that can help, not what happens in bad moments. If you want to cry, you go right ahead and cry. Scream? I’ll be here. If you want to hit something, please do. Not yourself, though, please. Tell me. I’ll be right here to help you. You’re not alone, baby. I’m right here with you.”

“What do I do with all these stuff? I don’t want them— but it also feels wrong to throw it all away. Is it even right to keep a photo of the scan? I— it’s like I don’t know anything anymore.” You rambled, eyes slowly going back onto the mess on the floor.

“Keep one if you feel like that’s what you need to do. Then toss the rest. Keep whichever one’s the one that your eyes look at first. Don’t overthink it.”

You heeded her advice, keeping one and very swiftly getting rid of the rest. Somehow, you were still in tears. But the urge of the self-destructive behaviour had completely died away in that moment. You felt calmer after all of that, and hearing what she had to say to you contributed to it. You appreciated it, and her. But sometimes, the memories got the best of you. This was not easy to forget, to process…having taken a huge toll on your mind and body alike.

————

That evening, hell broke loose again. News outlet dug through social media and started spreading photos of you, and plastered them all over their shows to speculate who you were. Granted the photos were publicly posted on Margot’s page, they were ones taken at events the family would be at. Your identity has never been revealed by anyone. People just assumed you were another daughter of theirs. They neither confirmed, nor deny it— to maintain your privacy.

The police revealed to you and the family that the attack was premeditated. There were deleted messages to his friends to confirm it. After that you zoned out, failing to properly hear and process the fact that your identity was exposed to the media by him. Along with the fact that you were dating Jos— the eldest daughter of such an influential couple.

“What the fuck?!” Rob screeched at the TV screen, startling you, “We told them not to say anything about her identity. Fucking rats.”

“We didn’t talk about any of the things they’re saying. At all.” Margot was speechless, “How—”

“Matt. He planned all of it.” Jos guesses, “The police recovered texts he sent to his friends about it.”

“We know that, but not the fact that—”

“Well, I guess it didn’t matter, did it? Whoever they were found out anyway. Now her business is all over the news. Every little detail.” Jos huffs, “I didn’t post anything about her. So whatever they found out, was probably through your page.”

You ran out of the living room and onto the deck. Jos was right on your tail. “My life is over.” You broke down, “Nobody wants someone like me at their company, at their school, anywhere. Because of that fucking— I mean what the fuck? My life is a joke right now, Jos. How did I even get here? We’ve been working so hard to keep things about us private then he just spills it all to the world? I’d be fine if it was just that but he— he took away everything, Jos. My life as I knew it was gone the second he touched me. I pushed him away, but fought back, pinning me down. I couldn’t move after that. I was terrified, Izzy was a few doors down. I didn’t dare to make any noise because I didn’t want to scare her. He knew that, he was smiling through all of it. He was happy. I can never spend a minute in silence without thinking about him, going out in public without thinking I’m being followed. Spend a minute in this house without being pitied by your parents. They mean well, they care but after awhile I just feel worse because I’m making them so worried and upset. He made me out to be a slut, that it was my fault that he raped me. That I am nothing but an object for his pleasure. I appreciate what you’ve been doing for me, what your parents have done for me. But we are never going to come back from this mess. It will always be stuck with us. With me. It’s on me, this mess. Your family’s reputation is ruined because of me. If I wasn’t here, he wouldn’t have done it.”

“I will never be normal again. I can go to as much therapy as I can but who recovers from something like that, Jos? It stays. And I don’t want that, Jos. I don’t want to drag you along with me.”

Her face falls, becoming an indistinguishable expression. But her eyes, they showed that she was heartbroken. Just like they’ve been showing the same for the last couple weeks. You couldn’t bear to see it anymore. She didn’t deserve a life like this because of you. No.

“I’m sorry, Jos.” You apologised, pressing a kiss to her cheek, “I have to let you go. I can’t do this to you, I love you. I don’t want you to be responsible for the consequences of your brother’s actions. Goodbye.”

Jos lets you leave without a fight, you hear her tearing up as you walked away from her. You fought the urge to look back and just walked ahead, towards the door. Her family didn’t stop you either— they heard it all. They must’ve.

That night, Jos was wide awake. She couldn’t allow herself to sleep. She was terrified she’d get a call from the hospital about you. Several hours later, she receives a voice memo from you. She immediately picks her phone off the nightstand to listen to it. “Jos, I’m sorry, I can’t do this anymore. Please forgive me. I’m so sorry, baby.”

“Shit.” Jos was instantly drove into panic, rushing into Margot and Rob’s room without knocking. Words failed her, she couldn’t say anything. She plays the message for them, hands shaking.

And then, Rob and Margot’s phones got messages as well. One after another. “Honey?” Margot stumbles out of bed and steadied Jos before she crashed onto the floor. Rob plays the message he receives. Jos barely heard anything after hearing the message she got, all of it sounded muffled from that point on.

“Where the hell did she go?”

Margot says doesn’t know. Rob scrambles to grab Jos’ phone to check your location, knowing she has it. But your phone was no longer on. All three of them, helpless. But Jos knew there was no stopping you. You’ve had enough. You wanted the pain to end. Margot held Jos in a hug while she wailed, Rob was calling everyone he knew at hospitals to ask for you. No idea what Izzy was doing, but hopefully, she was asleep by this time of the night.

They finally located you about an hour later, and they all rushed to the hospital. “Jos, you— you go inside first.” Margot gives her shoulders a squeeze, “She’s your— oh, God. Rob, I—” Margit buries her head in Rob’s chest, sobbing. He held her head, another arm wrapped around her. Jos steps closer to the door, pushing it open. It creaks.

Jos hadn’t stopped crying, walking into the sterile hospital room and sitting down in the plastic chair next to your pale, lifeless body. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you. I promised I would always protect you but I couldn’t do it. I love you so very much, baby. Please don’t ever forget that. I know you were in a lot of pain, I know you were hurting, baby. But now, all of that’s gone. All of that. I get it. You’re free now. You never would’ve left if you didn’t need to. You didn’t need to say sorry. But God, I don’t know how to tell Izzy. But— Please just know and remember that I love you, I always will. Rest easy, sweet girl. I’ll see you again. Okay? Can you promise me that?” Holding onto your freezing cold hand, she presses a kiss to the back of it and placed it back down gently after giving it a squeeze, “See you later, hm? I’ll miss you.”

Jos didn’t look back, she couldn’t bear to see you in that state again. Falling limp in the safety of her parents’ embrace, she continues crying. Even when her parents have stopped. “She loves you so much, sweetheart. I just— I wish I could turn back the clock.”

“I know, Mom. But she—” Jos hiccups, Margot rubs her back, “At least she’s not suffering anymore. She deserves that at least.”

Rob walks in next, “It pains me that you had to resort to this, mija. I’m very sorry we couldn’t do more for you. I just want you know how proud we have all been of you, you’re such a smart girl. Such a bright future ahead of you. I hate myself for not seeing any signs of what could’ve led to that night. But Jos, she’s right. At least you’re free to do whatever you want now, you’re not in pain anymore. You deserve that after all you’ve been fighting through. It just got too much and I…I get that. Don’t worry about us, okay? We’ll see you again in some years. Probably me first, though. Because I’m old.” He chuckles, sitting down on the same plastic chair, “Rest easy, we love you. Would you just promise to give us a sign that you’re okay whenever you’re ready? I— mija, I, goddamn, I don’t even what to say anymore. You’ve been such a joy and blessing to our family. I just know we’ll miss you so much. Okay, I’ll let you and Margot talk now, alright? See you around, mija.”

Rob and Margot switched places, allowing her to talk to you finally. “I remember when Jos first brought you home to meet us. I just knew you would be the one. I’ve never seen her so happy…the way she looked at you was the cutest thing ever. So it kills me that life has taken such a turn and forced you to do this. We say we’re hurting now, and we are. But nothing compares to what you had to endure. You— my goodness, sweetie. I’m so sorry you had to go through finding out and the miscarriage alone. I can’t even imagine how scared you must’ve felt. But you pushed through and that’s so badass, honey. Thank you for making my girls so happy, thank you for treating us like your own family. All the memories — the laughter, the late night chats, baking together, cooking together, playing games, singing in the car. Everything— you have been such a blessing and I hope you know that. Please don’t forget that. Please don’t blame yourself anymore because none of this is your fault. We don’t blame you for any of it. You just…rest now and just do whatever you wanna do, because baby girl, you…you’re free. No one’s going to hurt you anymore.”

Margot leaves the room, trying not to cry again. Jos walks back inside for one last goodbye. “I just want to sit with you for a minute.” She sniffles, watching you through her blurred vision. Jos profusely blinked her tears away to get a good look at you, wanting to take it all in.

Leaning forward, she continues, “I wish you didn’t leave my house the way you did tonight. I wish I could’ve held you one last time, gave you a proper kiss. Tell you it was okay. But no, you left upset. And I— I can’t let that go, baby. I’m so sorry I didn’t just hug you and didn’t let you go just yet. Because god, I need that so bad right now, my love. And I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry I let you leave without saying I love you back. I need you, baby. Please come and visit me, okay? Please?”

Taking in a shaky breath that she lets out slowly, she got closer and stroked your cheek, biting the inside of her own as tears poured from her eyes, obstructing her vision. “I love you, too.”

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Awwwww

Computer: [Choose a password]

Regina, typing: [Janis]

Computer: [The password is too short]

Regina, out loud: I know, just don’t mention it to her. She gets mad about it

AWWWW I love her 💞 this was so cute

Koa

Janis ‘Imi’ike x fem! reader

Warnings: angst, fluff, coarse language, mentions / some descriptions to reader’s messy home life me, ends in smut(reader receiving)

“Dream big, princess.”

You’ve spent an entire day at school with an uneasy feeling in the pit of your stomach. You weren’t sure what was going on, you just felt really weird and tired and there was a voice in your head telling you not to head home. You didn’t want to bother Janis, so you headed home anyway. Not that you could spot her anywhere anyway…so off you went. She probably was at the other end of the campus for one of her lectures that you weren’t in.

The second you set foot in the house, something just didn’t feel right. The feeling in your stomach got worse, then you heard the distant yelling that got louder and louder. A door gets slammed, someone comes running down the hallway, and when your father appeared before your eyes with a red face, fuming— along with a can of beer in hand, you stumbled backwards.

“Happy fucking birthday— I hope you’re happy we got into a fight because of you, deciding what to cook for—” He slurs, you clutched onto the strap of your backpack, turned around and ran out the front door.

“Hey!” You heard him yell and you sprinted away.

Thankfully, no one ran after you so you slowed down after a few minutes on your way to Janis’ place. Well, you did take a different route than usual, but it wasn’t like your family didn’t know where your best friend — that’s who they know Janis to be, you were never going to tell them you and Janis were in a relationship.

Hurriedly pressing on the doorbell, someone answers the door: Janis’ dad. He looked at you with wide eyes briefly, telling you to get inside the house. “Janis!” He yells, “y/n’s here.”

Janis walks into the living area from the kitchen, happy to see you but her face immediately fell, worried. “Dad, could you put it in the fridge for me, please?”

“No problem, ipo.” Her Dad answers knowingly. Janis quickly led you into her garage, taking your backpack from you.

“It’s okay, baby.” Janis says softly. You shook your head no, blinking furiously to keep the tears away. “Are you injured?” She asks, hoping for a no.

“I ran before he— before he did anything.” You hiccuped, taking in a quick breath. Janis cautiously wraps her arms around you, holding you close. “That’s good, baby. You’re safe here, okay? You’re safe here.” You burst into tears seconds later, unable to contain it any longer. Janis rubs your back, quietly holding you securely in her embrace as you let your tears go. “‘m sorry.” You babbled. “Baby…don’t ever apologise for that. You feel whatever you need to feel.” Her grip around you tightens for a moment, “I told you, you never have to hide it from me. Any of it.”

Let’s just say Janis was once in your position some years ago at 13. Except the roles of your parents and hers, were reversed.

Usually, you did a great fucking job at swallowing your tears but today, you just couldn’t do it— they kept seeping into her shirt, she keeps rubbing your back and whispering words of assurance into your ear. You hated that you had to feel this way on a supposedly happy occasion. You were so bloody hurt, you couldn’t take faking it today.

When your crying stops, Janis breaks away slowly from the hug when you did so. She holds your face in her hands, brushing the tears away with her thumbs. “I’m gonna need you to breathe, okay?” She coaxed, “Slow, deep breaths, y/n. Alright?”

You followed her instructions, evening out your breathing. “That’s my girl.” She smiles, “You’re okay, hm? I’m gonna go grab you a change of clothes, alright?”

You nodded, she allows herself to get up and go to her dresser. She hands you your favourite sweater of hers along with a pair of sweatpants. You changed into them without a word, she took your old clothes and tossed them into her laundry hamper. “Want me to do your hair?”

“No.” You muttered.

“Okay.” Janis presses a kiss to your temple.

“What were you making?” You sniffled.

“A cake.” She answered honestly.

“What?” You mumbled unclearly.

“It’s for you.” Janis smiles a little, “I’m celebrating you no matter what other people think. Who cares about them?”

A tiny smile tugs at your lips, Janis caresses your cheek and gives you another loving kiss on your lips. “Damian, Regina, Cady, Gretchen and Karen are coming over but I can call them to cancel if that’s what you want.” She informs you.

“That’s okay.” You decided.

“Okay, baby.”

“What time are they—”

“About an hour.” Janis said back.

You nodded, laying your head in her lap with a second thought. She happily let you, giving you a smile as she stroked your hair. “Do you want to watch a movie? Or Full House? I’ve got the DVDs.”

“No.” You swallowed harshly.

“Alright.” She replies, her fingers continuing the soothing gestures of combing through your hair. You dozed off for a bit, and when you woke up, you’ve made a decision. “Janis?” You said while opening your eyes back up. “Yeah?”

“I changed my mind.” You exhaled harshly, “Can it be just us?”

“Of course, baby.” She agrees, locating her phone to text your friends.

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You fell asleep for some time, and when you woke up, you heard the creaking of the stairs in the garage: Janis was walking inside from the house. “You’re up.” Janis’ face lit up. You gave her a sleepy smile in response, still lazing on the couch. “You ready to get up?” She chuckles over her words. You shook your head, still looking at her. She couldn’t help it but still be smiling at you adoringly. It makes you blush.

“I’ll give you a few more minutes.” She plops down on the floor beside the couch, face to face with you. She cups your cheek and says, “Everything’s ready inside the house. It’s just us, I promise. The gang dropped off their gifts and went home.”

“Okay.” You replied, voice barely above a whisper.

“Head hurts?” She asks expectedly.

You groaned, taking a deep breath while you confirmed her guess with a nod. “Sit up, I’ll go get the pill and some water.” Janis says and helped you up. Before you could say anything, she disappeared. But, she came back pretty quickly. “Here you go, baby.”

You took it without a fuss, looking up at her face as she stood looking down at you. “Hi.” She grins, a finger under your chin. “Let’s go?”

“Mhm.” You took her hand and she pulls you up. Janis snakes an arm around your waist as you two entered the house. Janis’ Dad was placing a cake on the dining table— that was the first thing you saw. Then you looked everywhere, the living room was decorated. Subtly, but on theme. Something they both knew you liked and wanted.

“Hey, there’s the birthday girl.” He beams, pulling out a chair for you right in front of the wall with the birthday banner. “Sit right here.”

You complied, Janis took out something from her pocket— a plumeria hair-clip. She smoothly puts it on for you on the left side. You were a little startled by the sudden gesture but quickly composed yourself, only to get another shock when you saw the cake. “Oh, my God… Janis, this is adorable. You drew this?”

Your favourite Disney princess and her animal sidekick stared back at you, along with the words: ‘Dream big, princess’.

“Hey, what my girl wants, my girl gets.” She shrugs, phone in hand— already snapping photos of you, “So pretty.” You turned your head to hide the forming blush but they both saw it anyway. Her dad laughs at the interaction, “Janis, why don’t you sit down with her? Let me get a photo with the two of you together.”

“Great idea.” Janis gleefully got to your side. You got up from the chair and she sat down, pulling you onto her lap.

“Okay, 1, 2, 3. There we go.”

“Thanks, Dad.” Janis says, handing you a plastic knife, “We’re not gonna sing you happy birthday because I know you hate it, but cut the cake, baby.”

And you did, you cut the cake, glancing between the both of them while they looked at you excitedly. “Oh— wow.” You remarked, gasping when sprinkles fell out of the centre of the chocolate cake. Janis laughs, “I remember that you wanted something like this.”

Anyway, the three of you enjoyed some cake together after you handed the first slice to her Dad, then Janis herself, and lastly you got one for yourself. This was the smallest party you’ve ever had but the calmest you’ve felt. You’ve never felt this way before when celebrating your birthday and you didn’t want to have it any other way.

“Thank you for doing all of this for me.” You looked at them, stabbing the fork into the slice to get more.

“Oh, this is nothing, honey. I’m just happy to do it. A birthday’s always worth celebrating.” Her Dad gives you a smile. “Like I said, you’re like my second daughter.”

“Oh, absolutely.” Janis agreed, “You are his second daughter. You have a room here.”

“And you always will have a home here with us.” Her Dad reminds you, “You hear me?”

You nodded your head, giving them a tight-lipped smile. The rest of the evening went by quietly— after you had the cake, you opened up your presents then you went back into the garage with Janis after brushing your teeth. “Good night, girls.”

“G’night, Dad.”

“Good night.”

“I’m giving those earrings back to Regina— I know those cost a fortune.”

“Babe, she will not take them back.” Janis stifles a laugh.

“I honestly feel like she’s playing a prank on me with it.”

“The girl can afford it. If she gives you something like that, don’t even worry about it.” Janis says, pulling you by the hand onto the bed with her, “It looked really nice on you. You must admit, she knows her stuff when it comes to accessorising.”

“That is true— she keeps up with the trends. I do not give a shit.”

Janis guffaws, “You and me both, baby.”

“Did you get photos of the cake?” You asked, “It was the best cake I’ve ever gotten and I didn’t take any pictures.”

“Aw, I’m flattered, baby. It was nothing.”

“They looked exactly like the characters.” You said.

“Come here.” She held out her arms, hands gesturing for you to get into her lap, “I’m glad I could make you smile. Never lose that smile of yours, my love.”

“Thank you for turning this day around for me.”

Janis tilts your head to face hers, a finger underneath your chin, “Anything for you. I love you, y/n.” You feel the tears welling up in your eyes again, so you moved your face away from hers. “It’s okay.” She assured, “I do have one last thing for you.”

“What…?” You croaked, clearing your throat.

“I left it on my dresser. Can I go get it?”

“Okay…” You got off her lap with a little bit of a frown.

“I’ll just be a sec.”

She say down next to you holding onto a bracelet. “My Dad and I we got this for you. It’s a koa wood bracelet with a fluorite crystal. We thought it was fitting because koa means—”

You let out a quiet gasp, a tear falls from your eye, “Fighter, in Hawaiian.”

Janis nods, helping you to put it on, “And that’s you. You’ve been through a whole lot of what someone should never have to go through. Never once have you given up…and I am so proud of you for that. Keeping yourself safe, standing up for yourself. Being here.”

“I…” Your breath hitches, “I was going to say something, shit!”

For the lack of better words, you did what you thought was best: you gave her a big hug. “Thank you. This means— so much to me.” Janis hugs you even tighter, knowing you needed it, also rubbing your back as per usual.

“I love you so much, baby. So, so much.” She says while breaking away from the hug, foreheads leaning together. You weren’t sure what it was, but you crashed your lips onto hers. And no, it wasn’t just a sweet little peck. It quickly got heated. Janis detaches her lips from yours, “Baby. Are you sure?”

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You hummed, nodding your head and eagerly reconnecting your lips.

“Okay.” She agrees, hand cupping your cheek as she kisses you passionately, slowly getting into position to straddle you.

Both of you end up on your sides, lips still connected several minutes later. Janis shifts herself, hands now on either side of you as she moves lower, leaving a trail of kisses along your jaw, then your neck. Then…your shirt was off. And she keeps going lower and lower, then moving back up to attack the sensitive spots on your neck that she knows, to draw out the noises of pleasure she loves to hear.

Your head tilts back, allowing her more ease in access to the area— nothing more than soft whines and whimpers fall from your lips, but Janis was a happy camper. Each gesture from her came with just the right amount of pressure, allowing the sensations to build up slowly. You were giddy with desire pretty easily because of this approach of hers tonight. When she hooks her finger through the hem of your underwear, your breath gets caught in your throat. Janis looks at you to ask silently, you could only nod but judging by the way your hand helped her out, that piece of fabric was slid off no more than a few seconds.

Janis slides down south further, now lying on her stomach, face to face with the juncture between your legs. You feel her thumb rubbing slow circles on that bundle of nerves, coaxing more and more of your arousal to leak out of you as she watches intently. You whined breathily, the attention causing your face to heat up. Her hand smoothly slides up your core and groped your breast. The most high-pitched noise of the night flies out of your mouth and you clamped it shut with your hand. Janis moves it out of the way, not breaking her flow. “Don’t be shy, baby. It’s alright. Just me and you here, y/n.”

It probably wasn’t her intention, but the way she talked to you made you throb. She notices, chuckling lowly as she ran a finger up your folds. “Oh, my God.” You muttered, she was thrilled to hear those words from you finally. Well, not just those words. But just the fact that you said something.

Her finger teases your entrance, you couldn’t take it anymore and told her to go for it, you whined as she pushes her middle finger into you easily. Her thumb works at the same time as her finger, it rubs your clit while her finger pumped in and out of you steadily. Before long, your hips lifted off the mattress, wanting more pressure and going in tandem with her movements. With a hand on your hip, Janis eases you back onto the soft mattress then her lips wrapped around the hood of your clit, starting to gently suck at it as you grew wetter beneath her. As if on reflex, you fingers tangled in her hair as you let out a laboured breath in an attempt to keep those needy noises from being heard.

With each flick of her tongue and push and you her finger, your sensitivity grew and so did your pleasure. “Fuck…” You panted, whining eventually, “Fuck— so good.”

You feel her smile against your cunt, tongue swirling around the pulsating nub in reply. Janis then presses her tongue flat against it, sending a shock through your body and you cried out. She chuckles, her breath fans against your heat causing you to squirm. Next, she hooked her finger up to tackle your g-spot. She successfully elicits a moan, so she kept doing it until you couldn’t control yourself and got noisy as hell under her ministrations.

As you start to feel the fluttering in your core, her finger leaves you, so did her mouth. You breathed heavily, the frustration bubbling within you. You squirmed, unhappy about it as her fingertips glided along your soaking wet cunt. Then came a light smack and you gasped, cursing under your breath and your grip in her hair tightens for a moment. You began clenching around nothing as she carries on caressing your cunt so casually.

“More please…” You begged, surprising yourself, “I— fuck!” Before you even finish complaining, two fingers get pushed into you, consistently finding your g-spot and stimulating it. “Fuck, I’m so close— I’m so close.” You cursed, the noises coming from your mouth without an end.

“Keep going, my love. Keep making those noises for me.” Janis coos, “Keep going…so pretty. You’re so fucking pretty, aren’t you sweet girl?”

Well, fuck. She’s made you cry— again. It was a completely different situation this time, but tears nonetheless. Like a needy little girl beneath her, you were getting pushed until you could no longer take it…on the brink of letting it all go.

“Shit, oh— my—” You babbled, ending with a shrill whine, pushing up against her face. Your fingers securely tangled in her hair, nails digging slightly into her scalp as the pleasure surged to its peak. “Fuck, fuck, fuck—” You mumbled through tears, Janis was still keeping at her pace and techniques. Your hand lets go of her hair, falling to your side as you rode through each wave of your high. Breathing heavy, chest heaving as you teared up a little from just how good it felt. “Oh, God!” You moaned, “Keep going. Keep going— keep— ah, shit—”

“As you wish, princess.” She smirks, continuing to lap up your slick. You were feeling a relentless swarm of butterflies at that nickname that’s taken a dirty, dirty turn. Janis was going slower and slower, more and more gentle too. She knew what it took to make you overstimulated and she didn’t want that— she wants it to just feel good for you. Maybe let you get a good night’s sleep afterwards, but definitely none of that ‘a little too much it’s making you back away from her’ nonsense going on.

Your second climax came unexpectedly, but she absolutely cleaned you off, allowing you to calm down pretty soon. She clambers back up to your side, brushing the hair out of your eyes, “Hi, baby.” Janis smooches you on the lips and stroked your cheek, “Hey, breathe…I’ve got you. Don’t want you getting an asthma attack tonight.”

You nodded, falling flat onto your back, doing as she told you to. Janis still laid on her side, fingertips tracing squiggles on your bare chest briefly before her palm lays flat in your chest feeling it go up and down with each breath you took, “That’s it...that’s it.”

You moved a little closer to her and she naturally just held you without even thinking about it. “Wanna sleep?”

You nodded, head nuzzled against her chest while you clung onto her. “I figured.” She chuckles, stroking your hair and pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head, “Good night, lovey. Sweet dreams, I love you.”

“…I love you more.” You said with a smile on your face that goes unnoticed by her, but she smiles too, “Happy fucking birthday indeed.”

She seems to get what you meant, more than happy that you turned that insult into something relatively…good. “Go to sleep, y/n.” She says with a laugh.

You mumbled incoherently and snuggled closer, allowing yourself to drift off to sleep in the safety of her embrace.

“Oh, I love you so much.”

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Okay, break’s over😁 I know I said I’ll post a Jos fic when I come back but well, I got this idea completed first🤐 jk, I needed to get my feelings out