I'm Asexual And Mostly Sex-repulsed But I Can't Be The Only Ace Who Is Confounded By Some Of The Shit

I'm Asexual and mostly sex-repulsed but I can't be the only ace who is confounded by some of the shit that people find sexy. I don't really understand the mechanics of hornyness, but like, where is your self respect?? Did your dignity just leave??? Is your rational brain gone, did hornyness kill it?? Like what the actual fuck dude

Unpopular opinion: I love the asexual community, but often I feel really alone because I'm sex repulsed.

I remember this moment when I saw this romance book about a sex-repulsed ace girl and wanted to read it. But when I told my friend (also asexual but likes sex) about that, and how I felt really represented and happy to see a repulsed person in a loving relationship, they went 'oh there are plenty of books like that, I've yet to see a book talking about aces who like sex tho' and I remember feeling really hurt about that statement.

Yeah sure, that is probably true, and I'm sorry that there is no representation of that.

But that was the first time I had ever seen a book where one of the main characters was stated to be ace. And that too, repulsed by sex. Everywhere I looked, it was allosexual people in those books.

That too, I always thought (still do, tbh) that I would probably never find a romantic partner because a lot of people like sex or want that in their relationship. There's a lot of people who like that within the asexual community as well. As much as I would love being in a qpr, the thought of never finding a romantic partner always made me feel bad about myself. So I felt really hopeful when I heard that the repulsed girl found a healthy romance.

Another time I was watching another video about asexuality today. It covered everything about asexuality, but it never mentioned sex-repulsed aces. It made me feel kind of mad, actually. We're a solid part of the community as much as aces who like sex. Or aces whose sexual attraction fluctuates. Why is it that so many other repulsed aces feel so underrepresented?

It feels like no one understands how I feel about it. Most people in my friend group are allosexual. A lot of kids at my school are allosexual. The few asexual people I've met like sex. They wouldn't understand why I have to cover my eyes everytime a sex scene comes. I do make sex jokes, and I don't mind when other people talk about sex. But I still feel like an oddity.

aesthetic - witchy academia

spiderweb lace, handmade ink, locked diaries, herbal tea, old sepia photographs, the theban alphabet, black velvet and long silver necklaces, thunderstorms at night, taper candles, yew trees in graveyards, the sound of an old building settling, poison rings, studying ancient legends of witches

are there any ways, using magic, to help pass a test/exam or to study?

Sure! It all depends on how you want to do that. Sigils to help your memory. Enchanting spot where you study often. A calming spell so you are cool and collected for a test. natural-magics has a really great spell index and there are several spells in the section of Concentration, Clarity, and Study that you might find useful.

That Barbie meme but it's actually just Barbie and Ken in my weird style (；・∀・)

Do you have a favorite poem or any piece of poetry you like?

Hi!

Yes, well for now this is my current favourite poem/rhyme:

I have a deadly nightshade

So twisted does it grow

With berries black as midnight

And skull as white as snow.

The vicar's cocky young son

Came to drink my tea

He touched me without asking

Now he's buried 'neath the tree.

-This is "Girls Skipping Rhyme" from Chokely in Wynterset

Thank you so much for asking!!

-Asena Rawlin