I Was Really Pushing Myself For A Couple Weeks Doing Like Everything All Day And Definitely Felt It But

I was really pushing myself for a couple weeks doing like everything all day and definitely felt it but I’ve reached a point that I can’t really do more than 1 or 2 big things a day now because I’ve pushed myself into a flare that if I want to shower that’s my activity for the day (yeah a shower is a big thing and I hate that that’s the case)

i think some of the least helpful medical advice is when you ask how you would know if what you're experiencing is [thing] and they say "you'd know it if you felt it." i guarantee i would not that's why i'm asking

Why are abled people so OBSESSED with telling us to go out and exercise!!! I have been in a flare-up for 2 weeks, I can barely move, I am dizzy as fuck, standing is fucking excruciating, GOING FOR A MOTHER FUCKING WALK WILL NOT FIX THAT!!!

I hate the look on able-bodied people's faces when you can't do a thing that you could do the day before. The look of disappointment, confusion, the "Oh but you could do it before. Are you SURE you can't do it?" Like yes, Brenda, I'm sure that I am in too much pain to function/move from my bed right now so going for a walk when I could move 50 feet yesterday without my cane IS too much.

HOLY SHIT MY FUCKING LEGS HELP ME

You may wonder, why do some disabled people not shower often? Well, you see, showers are actually quite intense trials designed to kill us. The steam? Makes the blood in our bodies go wild, fucks up our balance and tries to make us pass out. You have to be standing or sitting. Standing is hell and sitting is a peculiar purgatory. Reaching for bottles and soap and shit requires moving The Body, which is in constant pain that will only get worse the more we move and so will the fog that envelopes our brains and impairs our thinking.

Don't even get me started on drying off. "Why don't some of you shower often" I don't know, why don't you run marathons regularly? Because it sucks and you can't, that's why.