During Another Heated Argument...

During another heated argument...

Bastila: There is no emotion, there is peace...

Amnesiac Revan: Are you saying that to me or to yourself?

Revan: If you don't remember who you really are or don't want to admit it, how can you fix your mistakes made in the past properly, hmmm?

I devote it to one episode in the game. After crashing on Lehon there's a conversation with all the crew members. Jolee namess the main character Revan while talking about Bastila, and there are two possible options in reply:

1) Don't call me that! I'm not Revan anymore.

2) If Bastila joined Malak, then she'll suffer the same fate he does.

They are both absolutely wrong for my Revan. At this stage, she admits she is Revan, not that false identity. But she has no intention to talk about Bastila (and Malak too, I guess) like that either! Personally, I think it would be a little bit unhealthy for Revan to deny her true identity at that time.

P.S. Despite that, this is literally my favourite computer game. I find it inspirational, fascinating, exciting and almost ideal! Funny fact: I was inspired to write fics and learn English thanks to that game! 20th anniversary... OMG! Yeah, I'm rather old, can't believe it!:D Ha, my favourite moment from the game is still Revelation. I've recently played the game and somehow was shocked when Darth Malak appeared in front of you on the Leviathan at the time when freedom became to seem real (and the whole discussion is something)!

Carth: ...Blast if you're not the most frustrating woman I've ever met!

Amnesiac Revan: We've come through plenty of things, it's kind of natural you feel something for me!

Carth: Damn it, if you keep haunting me, i'm going to put you over my knee and and teach me lesson!

Amnesiac Revan: ...Is it a promise?

I Shall Move Hell

angry self-righteous jedi about to take a trip downhill. In this house we support unhinged women.

process gif under the cut :)

i had to stop this piece for three weeks until i had the courage to stare at armor pics and do studies to make the metal not look like actual shit. Goal accomplishment is questionable but at least is Done.

very proud of the mask tho

Bastila: Don't worry, you won't have to fight agaist Darth Malak, your task is only to help me find Star Maps. I will defeat Darth Malak myself.

Amnesiac Revan: Yourself? I'm sorry, but you couldn't beat Revan without the help of Malak... so technically Malak defeated Revan... And you lose to a mere newcomer like me in 3 out of 5 duels each time. Are you sure you haven't lost the logical links somewhere along the way?

Part of my Revan playlist

Game Rules: Choose one of your characters and list songs that fit them.

There's been a while since I got an idea to make a list of the songs I associate female with Revan. Unfortunately, I was pretty lazy to realise the idea, but luckily, I was tagged by @marythegizka and did it eventually. Thank you, @marythegizka , so much!:)

So I’ve chosen female Revan from different periods of time in her life for this game (and sometimes the songs are also connected with her relationship with Malak or male Exile - Peter Brookman in my headcanon). Probably, later I’ll add up more songs to the list. The order is spontaneous. Let’s go!

1. Fire by The Score (Mostly, it’s connected with amnesiac Revan and her entangled emotions she can’t comprehend. It also may be considered as the anthem of her life starting from the Mandalorian Wars at least)

«In my head I hear a million conversations

I'm spinning out, don't wake me up until the end

The rivers flowing in denial I can't fake it

I'm paranoid that all my thoughts are all my friends…»

2. Paint It Black by Ciara or Beatrice Piacentini (It mostly deals with vibes and some lines only in the period of Revan turning into a complete Dark Lady).

«I look inside myself and see my heart is black

I see my red door and it has been painted black

Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts

It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black».

3. Tightrope by Michelle Williams (This song and especially these lines below are associated with Revan/Malak relationship during and after the Mandalorian War. No more words 😊 )

«Hand in my hand

And you promised to never let go

We're walkin' a tightrope

High in the sky

We can see the whole world down below

We're walkin' a tightrope

Never sure, will you catch me if I should fall?

Well, it's all an adventure

That comes with a breathtakin' view

Walkin' a tightrope

With you…»

4. O, Children by Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

(Frankly speaking, I was inspired by the scene of Hermione and Harry's friendly dance to this song from Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I imagine the Exile and Revan dancing to it together and trying to collect their thoughts, while Malak is missing, everything is falling apart, the war is already underway, and the two of them begin to agitate knights and padawans to join the Republic in the war against the Mandalorians and also intend to find out what happened to Malak. The song contains hints on what lies ahead for them - … «…I was held in chains, but now I'm free…» and not only…)

«We have the answer to all your fears

It's short, it's simple, it's crystal clear

It's round about and it's somewhere here

Lost amongst our winnings

O Children

Lift up your voice, lift up your voice

Children

Rejoice, rejoice

…

Poor old Jim's white as a ghost

He's found the answer that we lost

We're all weeping now, weeping because

There ain't nothing we can do to protect you

…

Hey little train, wait for me!

I was held in chains, but now I'm free

I'm hanging in there, don't you see?

In this process of elimination…»

That scene!:)

5. No Time to Die by Billie Eilish (These lines are about that time when Revan finally finds out her true self and her real past and a little bit after that. Without a doubt, Revan is rather offended by Malak’s betrayal, that’s why ‘You were never on my side’. In my view, she doesn’t really think so).

«…I let it burn You're no longer my concern, mmm Faces from my past return Another lesson yet to learn

That I'd fallen for a lie

You were never on my side

Fool me once, fool me twice

Are you death or paradise?

Now you'll never see me cry

There's just no time to die».

6. Who You Are by Lunatica (The whole song is about amnesiac Revan and you’ll figure out why if you listen to it). Here are my favourite lines:

«Frozen and broken Don't know where you're going Losing your identity You're so caught up in hiding But everybody sees

You're never gonna feel You're never gonna heal You're never gonna know what's fake or real 'Til you know who you are You're lying to your face And running in a race You're never gonna win 'til you find your place And you know who you are».

7. Never Tear Us Apart by Bishop Briggs (Revan/Malak song before, during and after the War because then the Jedi Order “could never ever tear us apart”)

«I told you that we could fly

'Cause we all have wings,

but some of us don't know why

I was standing, you were there

Two worlds collided and they could never ever tear us apart».

8. Rewrite the Stars by Zac Efron and Zendaya (Revan/Malak romantic relationship for some time before the war – forbidden and supposed to be sort of impossible… Unresolved romantic tension I’d say).

«You know I want you

It's not a secret I try to hide

But I can't have you

We're bound to break and

My hands are tied

How do we rewrite the stars?

Say you were made to be mine?

Nothing can keep us apart

Cause you are the one I was meant to find

It's up to you

And it's up to me

No one can say what we get to be

And why don't we rewrite the stars?

Changing the world to be ours…»

9. Everybody Wants to Rule the World by Lorde (I associate this song with Revan and Malak after the War and till the battle on the Star Forge).

«There's a room where the light won't find you

Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down

When they do, I'll be right behind you

So glad we've almost made it

So sad we had to fade it

Everybody wants to rule the world

Everybody wants to rule the world

Everybody wants to rule the world…»

10. Who I Am by The Score (A hero and a villain… Any comments necessary?)

«…I'm a hero and a villain

I'm a myth, and I'm a legend

Without strength and a contender

I am real and the pretender

Take me as I am, or don't 'Cause I don't give a damn, no…»

11. End of Evangelion: Komm, süßer Tod  =)

I know, I know I've let you down I've been a fool to myself I thought I could Live for no one else But not through all the hurt and pain It's time for me to respect The ones you love Mean more than anything So with sadness in my heart I feel the best thing I could do Is end it all And leave forever What's done is done, it feels so bad What once was happy now is sad I'll never love again My world is ending I wish that I could turn back time 'Cause now the guilt is all mine Can't live without the trust from the ones you love. I know we can't forget the past You can't forget love and pride Because of that it's killing me inside It all returns to nothing, it all comes Tumbling down...

Tagging:@for-the-love-of-starwars , @kick-girl , @storageofdust (only if you like to join in =) )

If you are here, please, feel free to share your thoughts on these songs or share the songs you associate with Revan (Malak or the Exile). :)