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Frozen and broken Don't know where you're going Losing your identity You're so caught up in hiding But everybody sees You're never gonna feel You're never gonna heal You're never gonna know What's fake or real 'Til you know who you are You're lying to your face And running in a race You're never gonna win 'til you find your place And you know who you are You're crawling and falling But no one hears you calling When you're in a world of glass 'Til your bubble bursts And the true you's first You're always coming last You're never gonna feel You're never gonna heal

Who You Are by Lunatica

This could be a song about “amnesiac” Revan... I guess. :D

No worse hell I hoped there would be The worst day for mankind is near All that I have loved is fading All I have embraced As the traitors threat humanity How can we avoid a tragedy We should overcome this misery We must unite Enemies that should have all been drawn away Watch the world go down as they are leading us astray Will we find a way to decimate the devil's lies I shall spare no life nor souls this time around Use your anger in this battle, free us from the pain now Now come to save us Turn your anger into hate and save us So that in the end we all be free The Promised Land, our mighty land Our future has an open end We dedicate to life's debate All that's vanished in this moment The Promised Land, our mighty land Try to feel it, not to understand We dedicate and tolerate A war that's imminent for all

Dedicate Your Heart! by Epica

I believe these lines fit the pre-kotor story of the Mandalorian Wars perfectly well. I love both Japanese version of the song by Linked Horizon and Epica’s one. Like many others, I think it fits Star Wars in general as well, so there’s a video of Star Wars anime opening too. (I would definitely watch that anime if it existed! I would definitely draw a pre-kotor comic or even make a video like that... if I could.XD)

Darth Malak: Tell me, why did the Jedi spare you? Is it vengeance you seek at this reunion?

Revan: You ask me questions, but you do it without respect. You betrayed my trust, you betrayed our friendship and tried to kill me... You don't even think to call me Master!

It waits for the day I will let it out. To give it a reason, To give its might. I fear who I am becoming, I feel that I am losing the struggle within. I can no longer restrain it, My strength it is fading, I have to give in. It's the fear Fear of the dark It's growing inside of me, That one day will come to life. Have to save To save my beloved, There is no escape, Because my faith is horror and doom. Hold down your head now, Just let me pass by. Don't feed my fear, If you don't want it out. I fear who I am becoming, I feel that I am losing all beauty within. I can no longer restrain it, My strength is fading. I have to give in...

It’s the Fear by Within Temptation

There is no escape, Because my faith is horror and doom...

I've been left out alone Like a damn criminal I've been praying for help 'Cause I can't take it all I'm not done, It's not over. Now I'm fighting this war Since the day of the fall And I'm desperately Holding on to it all But I'm lost, I'm so damn lost. Oh I wish it was over, And I wish you were here Still I'm hoping that somehow 'Cause your soul is on fire A shot in the dark What did they aim for When they missed your heart? I breathe underwater It's all in my hands What can I do? Don't let it fall apart A shot in the dark...

Shot In the Dark by Within Temptation

Who I Am by The Score

I'm a saint, and I'm a sinner I'm a loser and a winner Without faith and a believer I am true and the deceiver I'm a hero and a villian I'm a myth, and I'm a legend Without strength and a contender I am real and the pretender Take me as I am, or don't Cause I don't give a damn, no Take me as I am, or don't Cause I don't give a damn, no I have my flaws I make mistakes But I'm myself I'm not ashamed That's who I am, That's who I am, That's who I am, I have my doubts I lose my strength Sometimes I fall, but I don't break That's who I am, That's who I am, That's who I am,

...

I don't want to be someone else I don't ever want to lose this hunger Never gonna try to change myself, oh When everybody's got their soul on sale I don't want to be just a number Never gonna try to change myself.

I adore this video of one of the Old Republic trailers going with that song. I think, it could be a perfect Revan song or even Revan-Malak-the Exile one. It suits Revan and amnesiac Revan a bit better though. Especially “I'm a hero and a villian, I'm a myth, and I'm a legend” lines, they remind me of Darth Malak’s last words - “Savior, conqueror, hero, villain. You are all things, Revan... and yet you are nothing...” 

Alek/Malak: Why are you friends with me, actually?

Revan: Somebody's got to realize my weird ideas. Why not you?

Part of my Revan playlist

Game Rules: Choose one of your characters and list songs that fit them.

There's been a while since I got an idea to make a list of the songs I associate female with Revan. Unfortunately, I was pretty lazy to realise the idea, but luckily, I was tagged by @marythegizka and did it eventually. Thank you, @marythegizka , so much!:)

So I’ve chosen female Revan from different periods of time in her life for this game (and sometimes the songs are also connected with her relationship with Malak or male Exile - Peter Brookman in my headcanon). Probably, later I’ll add up more songs to the list. The order is spontaneous. Let’s go!

1. Fire by The Score (Mostly, it’s connected with amnesiac Revan and her entangled emotions she can’t comprehend. It also may be considered as the anthem of her life starting from the Mandalorian Wars at least)

«In my head I hear a million conversations

I'm spinning out, don't wake me up until the end

The rivers flowing in denial I can't fake it

I'm paranoid that all my thoughts are all my friends…»

2. Paint It Black by Ciara or Beatrice Piacentini (It mostly deals with vibes and some lines only in the period of Revan turning into a complete Dark Lady).

«I look inside myself and see my heart is black

I see my red door and it has been painted black

Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts

It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black».

3. Tightrope by Michelle Williams (This song and especially these lines below are associated with Revan/Malak relationship during and after the Mandalorian War. No more words 😊 )

«Hand in my hand

And you promised to never let go

We're walkin' a tightrope

High in the sky

We can see the whole world down below

We're walkin' a tightrope

Never sure, will you catch me if I should fall?

Well, it's all an adventure

That comes with a breathtakin' view

Walkin' a tightrope

With you…»

4. O, Children by Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

(Frankly speaking, I was inspired by the scene of Hermione and Harry's friendly dance to this song from Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I imagine the Exile and Revan dancing to it together and trying to collect their thoughts, while Malak is missing, everything is falling apart, the war is already underway, and the two of them begin to agitate knights and padawans to join the Republic in the war against the Mandalorians and also intend to find out what happened to Malak. The song contains hints on what lies ahead for them - … «…I was held in chains, but now I'm free…» and not only…)

«We have the answer to all your fears

It's short, it's simple, it's crystal clear

It's round about and it's somewhere here

Lost amongst our winnings

O Children

Lift up your voice, lift up your voice

Children

Rejoice, rejoice

…

Poor old Jim's white as a ghost

He's found the answer that we lost

We're all weeping now, weeping because

There ain't nothing we can do to protect you

…

Hey little train, wait for me!

I was held in chains, but now I'm free

I'm hanging in there, don't you see?

In this process of elimination…»

That scene!:)

5. No Time to Die by Billie Eilish (These lines are about that time when Revan finally finds out her true self and her real past and a little bit after that. Without a doubt, Revan is rather offended by Malak’s betrayal, that’s why ‘You were never on my side’. In my view, she doesn’t really think so).

«…I let it burn You're no longer my concern, mmm Faces from my past return Another lesson yet to learn

That I'd fallen for a lie

You were never on my side

Fool me once, fool me twice

Are you death or paradise?

Now you'll never see me cry

There's just no time to die».

6. Who You Are by Lunatica (The whole song is about amnesiac Revan and you’ll figure out why if you listen to it). Here are my favourite lines:

«Frozen and broken Don't know where you're going Losing your identity You're so caught up in hiding But everybody sees

You're never gonna feel You're never gonna heal You're never gonna know what's fake or real 'Til you know who you are You're lying to your face And running in a race You're never gonna win 'til you find your place And you know who you are».

7. Never Tear Us Apart by Bishop Briggs (Revan/Malak song before, during and after the War because then the Jedi Order “could never ever tear us apart”)

«I told you that we could fly

'Cause we all have wings,

but some of us don't know why

I was standing, you were there

Two worlds collided and they could never ever tear us apart».

8. Rewrite the Stars by Zac Efron and Zendaya (Revan/Malak romantic relationship for some time before the war – forbidden and supposed to be sort of impossible… Unresolved romantic tension I’d say).

«You know I want you

It's not a secret I try to hide

But I can't have you

We're bound to break and

My hands are tied

How do we rewrite the stars?

Say you were made to be mine?

Nothing can keep us apart

Cause you are the one I was meant to find

It's up to you

And it's up to me

No one can say what we get to be

And why don't we rewrite the stars?

Changing the world to be ours…»

9. Everybody Wants to Rule the World by Lorde (I associate this song with Revan and Malak after the War and till the battle on the Star Forge).

«There's a room where the light won't find you

Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down

When they do, I'll be right behind you

So glad we've almost made it

So sad we had to fade it

Everybody wants to rule the world

Everybody wants to rule the world

Everybody wants to rule the world…»

10. Who I Am by The Score (A hero and a villain… Any comments necessary?)

«…I'm a hero and a villain

I'm a myth, and I'm a legend

Without strength and a contender

I am real and the pretender

Take me as I am, or don't 'Cause I don't give a damn, no…»

11. End of Evangelion: Komm, süßer Tod  =)

I know, I know I've let you down I've been a fool to myself I thought I could Live for no one else But not through all the hurt and pain It's time for me to respect The ones you love Mean more than anything So with sadness in my heart I feel the best thing I could do Is end it all And leave forever What's done is done, it feels so bad What once was happy now is sad I'll never love again My world is ending I wish that I could turn back time 'Cause now the guilt is all mine Can't live without the trust from the ones you love. I know we can't forget the past You can't forget love and pride Because of that it's killing me inside It all returns to nothing, it all comes Tumbling down...

Tagging:@for-the-love-of-starwars , @kick-girl , @storageofdust (only if you like to join in =) )

If you are here, please, feel free to share your thoughts on these songs or share the songs you associate with Revan (Malak or the Exile). :)

'I love you, I love me a lot, wait Which one I love better? Better off not saying...' Revan