I Hate Myself So Much! I Just Realized I Have Let Myself Go So Far From What I Want To Be! I Have To

I hate myself so much! I just realized I have let myself go so far from what I want to be! I have to stop eating ice cream, chocolate and junk food and only eat fruits for snacks now.. I hate feeling like this.. I want to be thin so bad.. I have to stop caring about my feelings and just do this or else I'm going to find myself so fat in future... bc of work and life I always compensate it by comforting myself with food but I just realized nothing really matters so I don't care If I feel sad or anxious and don't get the food I want... I have to get comfortable with my bad thoughts so I don't eat so fucking much!!!!

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Also my birthday is in a month and I don't want to feel like shit when I have my birthday!!

me posting every thought on tumblr cause i have nobody to talk to!

one of my favorite things is going to bed hungry.

Tumblr is not a social media, it's an online psych ward.