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I hate myself so much! I just realized I have let myself go so far from what I want to be! I have to stop eating ice cream, chocolate and junk food and only eat fruits for snacks now.. I hate feeling like this.. I want to be thin so bad.. I have to stop caring about my feelings and just do this or else I'm going to find myself so fat in future... bc of work and life I always compensate it by comforting myself with food but I just realized nothing really matters so I don't care If I feel sad or anxious and don't get the food I want... I have to get comfortable with my bad thoughts so I don't eat so fucking much!!!!

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Also my birthday is in a month and I don't want to feel like shit when I have my birthday!!

Made a check list for everyday life:

wash teeth twice a day ✓

do face/hair care ✓

no alcohol ✓

only fruits for snack (no junk food) ✓

green juice (I have those ready packs that you mix with water and get your daily veggie portion) ✓

Drink a lot of water ✓

Weighed myself today

48.9 kg

Yeah I'll keep eating only fruits as a snack and no junk food, it's hard to not drink alcohol but as I made myself the checklist it feels better to check that and be like yeah didn't drink today either... I also have been at work almost everyday this week so that helps with not drinking but still...

When you can't eat comfort foods you want to drink then but I try not to do either...