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Today is my third year anniversary. Shoutout to my wonderful boyfriend! I wouldn’t be alive without him!

I already had my first hair based panic attack of the school year and school hasn’t even started. I’m so done with everything 😭

I’ve been doing Bio homework all week because I have a huge packet of stuff I’m expected to know before school starts. Ughhhhh

I’ve realized that I’m most likely paraboy!

I’m like 90% male but 10% xenogender. I’m still trying to see what xenogenders sound right to me, but I’m happy to be exploring myself and figuring out who I am!!!

I hate it when my mom asks what I’m writing in the car

like I clearly can’t say “Oh yeah I’m writing about a gay stripper” because I’d probably be disowned immediately

I realized I’m probably boyflux. I’m like 95% boy. No idea what the other 5% is but it always comes out when I have a crush on a girl so idk

COGSWORTH COSTUME

My Cogsworth costume has an actual working clock that ticks. The only problem is that it was glued in a way that I had to wear the thing it was attached to completely backwards. It was also upside down 😭

Bro I have to improvise the tour scene in Beauty and the Beast and Lumiere’s responses were so fucking funny

Me: “This stained glass window was from a church”

Lumiere, in a slightly traumatized voice: “I went to that church once”

Me: “And this tapestry was made in Rome!

Lumiere: “Have you ever been to Rome?”

I’m pretty sure my British accent is making me lose my voice. Any suggestions on how to fix that?

I’ve played so many old men in my theatre

I’m starting to gain their traits and I DONT LIKE IT

I hope I try on my costume today! It’s really cool and has a huge winder thing on the back of the jacket!!! I’ll post it if I can!

I’m reading The Great Gatsby for my summer reading. Apparently it’s super gay but my homophobic teacher will def ignore that and violently argue against the gayness

I can’t tell if I kin Alex, Aaron, or Henry. Kind of all three ig

There is one person I know that calls me and other people 'friend' fairly frequently. Being called friend, especially when not asked if it's okay makes me sick. I'm fairly repulsed by platonic relationships. I still like hanging out with people if we share similar interests but this I can't deal with. Idk what to do at this point. It feels like everyone I meet wants more out of platonic relationships than I do. Idk how to talk about this with people without it coming off as rude or people taking it personally.

Ayooo I introduced myself to the new people in theatre with my chosen name and no one questioned it!!!

Finished The Unwanteds and I loveeee Thatcher and Henry. They’re so gayyyyy

I just successfully came out to my directors! They’re so sweet and supportive and I love them so much!!!

I lost my voice 😭

The wonderful lesbian who taught me how to use the spotlight told me that my two directors are very supportive! One of them even has a trans sibling!

I’m coming out as trans to them tomorrow unless I get cold feet. Wish me luck!!!

I did spotlight for a practice run of Sister Act! Apparently I did amazingly well for my first time ever doing lights!

Guess who’s running lights for an adult performance!!!

shoutout to that one cockroach that repeatedly crossed the stage while we were dancing!

I get to punch Lumiere and then get my ass set on fire 😭