Do You Ever Get This Gut Wrenching Feeling Of Longing That Just Hits You Out Of Nowhere? It Most Commonly

Do you ever get this gut wrenching feeling of longing that just hits you out of nowhere? It most commonly hits late at night, or when you've been alone for a while, but sometimes it hits you when you're surrounded by your friends at a party, or in the middle of a test at school. And it's this powerful feeling of longing for someone you might not even know yet, like the feeling you get at the pinnacle of a crush but with no warning or lead up. You just want someone to love you and to love them and do all the stupid romantic things with them you've ever wanted to do. It's like you're in love with someone you haven't met, like you're body gives you these jolts to prepare you for the feeling one day. But it's so hard to handle in the moment and you have to do anything you can to make the ache go away but sometimes you just don't know how, and sometimes everything you do makes the ache worse.

Anyway, I'm just a hopeless romantic although I refuse to admit it to the people I know in real life because no one likes me like that anyway.

I hope that everyone who reads this finds the love they need to help the ache fade. Because I don't think the point is to get rid of it, but rather to make it bearable, by sharing it with someone else.

Do you ever get that feeling, where you're thinking about love, and you know you want it eventually, but you don't really care when or how, because you know it'll come, and you have bigger things to worry about right now, but it's still fun to dream?

For example, some days, all I want is to meet a beautiful butch girl, who looks at me with soft eyes, and holds me close, not just in the dark of night, but in the broad daylight. And we meet pretty simply, and we start out friends, and nothing much happens. Until one day, we're at her house, and she's staring at me, so I look up at her, and neither of us can turn away. And we keep getting closer, and closer, until we can't get any closer without touching. So we stay like that, till someone makes a move, and we both make a move, leaning in softly. We live together in a little apartment, and we explore until our feet fall off, just taking in everything that we see.

Then other days, I want to meet a stunning femme girl. She holds her phone close, she's not really shy, and she likes showing off her small world, to the bigger world around her. She takes photos and videos, because she loves the memories, not just the views. She grabs my hand whenever she can, and she takes me to do things I never would have done. I'm her photographer, and she's mine, but I prefer being behind the camera, because I love watching her shine. And she introduces me into her videos, as we grow closer, and pulls me in closer to paint my face with those beauty tools I'll never understand and she'll never need. And she asks me if I like her lipstick, if I want to try it on. Of course I'll say yes, and I'll kiss her, or maybe she'll kiss me. And I'll help and I'll watch as she captures the worlds beauty, resting in those aesethic apartments, I only thought lived on tv.

Or maybe, it'll be my best friend and it'll sneak up on me. And we'll be laughing, and I'll look at him and he'll look at me, because we're both so happy. It never really seems like much more than friendship, until he's one his knees, dramatically serenading me, and we both know it's a joke, but for the first time, I realise I'm falling. And I don't know if he'll catch me. But if he does, then nothing much will change, most everything will stay the same, except the way he says my name, and the way I hold him closer. The way he kisses my lips, or the impromptu midnight trips that I turn into dates.

And I just think that love so important and wonderful. And I know everyone doesn't feel love in the same way, and I know some don't feel romantic or sexual love at all, and that is okay or completely valid. Because I feel like you can get so much out of just romantic love, or just platonic love, because love has no limits and neither do our hearts.

But yeah, sometimes, I just love to dream.

Are they implying acting black is dumb??

You know what I fucking love about the world we live in? Catradora. Okay, so not the only thing I love but hear me out. I absolutely love Shera and that's not an opinion anyone else has to agree with. But I love it because for me personally, that was the first time I saw two characters who I thought were gay for each other, actually end up gay for each other!!! And they were main characters too!!!!!!!!!

I love that despite how shitty the world is and how much we act like we hate it because of all the shitty things, there is still good in it. Like the fact that when I watch a tv show, and I see too characters who I think might both be gay and in love, there is now a chance that they are gay and in love! I no longer resign myself to the fact that they'll be forced into separate straight romances and reduced to 'best buds' (supernatural fans, looking at you lot, I'm so sorry).

Anyway, I'm just trying to find the good in the world because it is there, and while we're here we should try and enjoy it.

I wanna be the main character but realistically I know that I am, at best, the weird love interest and/or best friend that only queer kids identify with.

Or I'm the one red shirt that you could see was gonna die from a mile away and when it happens you're not even sad about it.

That something valuable was common sense.

Millennia ago, aliens pillaged the Earth of something valuable, robbing humanity of it.