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I have a love hate relationship with my arms and hands. I never feel like they are skinny enough. I had waaay better hands before “recovering” at the start of the year. ‎ (•᷄ࡇ•᷅)

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manifesting & working for it 🤍.

my body goals:

-get rid of lower stomach fat

-have a thigh gap

-have skinny arms

-collarbones that pop out

-visible cheekbones

-lose face fat

Update: lunch. 🍽️   ⊹ ᨘ໑.

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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.

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I skipped breakfast and did some cardio, I felt very lightheaded and dizzy so, I haven’t done much: Some stairs and a lot of walking. I’ve burnt 330 calories in total. I feel nauseous after eating so much, even if I ate very slowly.

LUNCH~ 220-255°calories

-two pieces of cottage cheese, not measured but not more than four bites. Very good.

-cherry tomatoes

-one rice cake (extra low calorie version)

water drank until now: 1.5 L

🩰  ּ   ﹗ ˖  ་ 💭 !! I tried calculating them accurately but, I’m still pretty much training my eye at the moment. The food description wasn’t so clear, especially the cheese since it was very fresh and organic. The only thing with a clear description was the rice cake, 35 calories each.

Coffee and cigarettes taste better after a fast🧸🎀

     ༘      ྀ Update + struggles༣

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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.

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VENT! ⋆ ࣪. . ` YOU DON’T HAVE TO READ!: My mom is forcing me to eat. They are eating pasta with tomato sauce and tuna, (popular pasta in Italy, I am living in Italy). I just cannot. I had a strong panic attack and now I’m struggling not to cry (I’m very sensitive when it comes to food, rehab made me hate food even more). I asked her if I could take it slowly and have just some tuna and a rice cake.

TW: I will have to pûk€ everything. I hate eating and then doing that. I prefer not eating at all. I feel so unlady like when I force myself to puke. ʚ(T T)ɞ I am so motivated nothing can stand in my way anyway, no matter the situation. If I have to do it, I will.

BRIGHT SIDE › ◟⊹ ˚˖

- for the sake of my optimism and motivation I will add a good side. I’ve worked out after lunch, burning 500 calories at least. woohoo 🥳 (trying not to have another meltdown LMAO).

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(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) edit from the foture: Tried pǔking everything but I couldn’t. Just a little 🗣️🗣️