HOLYFUCKINGSHITWILBUR (MCC Island)

HOLYFUCKINGSHITWILBUR (MCC Island)

hi so

i dont think i ever said this

so i have access to MCC Island and like

NO ONE TOLD ME THERE WERE YOUTUBERS HOLY FUCK-- so like a few days ago i was on this huge game grind playing for hours and I've seen Jojosolos, Olivesleepy, Fruitberries, Seepeakay, Martyn, i think there was someone else too in one of the lobbies but I cant remember them in various different games like TGTTOS, Sky Battle (a lot of sky battle for a quest), and some in a lobby ? i dont think any were in hole in the wall or battle box. if they were, i didnt notice lmao

aAAaa

no but today i saw Wilbur?? holy fuck man, but we were in TGTTOS and it wouldve been awkward trying to ask for a screenshot mid-game but then I think he left after it ended D:

wilburs like the only youtuber out of that list of youtubers ive seen that i actually watch lmAo--

i think he was wearing the lmanburg skin aAaa

sorry im fanboying a lot? i dont know man it doesnt feel real because theyre just THERE, and its always in and out ?? like they dont really pay attention to anyone else lol (well theyre focusing on the game i mean- i wouldnt be surprised if they turned off chat or something) but you just dont really expect to actually meet them, and be in the same lobbies and stuff aAaa

bro please tell me someone has mcc island, i kinda wanna play it with someone so we can share input lol

Maniacal Double Life [Group 2-Session 1]

so.

I didn't record the Double Life session and havent really talked about it outside of the discord server for it and i kinda talked about this a little bit and stuff?

so let me fill you in on what happened (except its a little old now)

(there were some other problems besides just my power going out lmao??? so i couldnt join for awhile because it just.. wouldnt let me? and then i realized it was telling me i had an outdated client and apparently it was 1.19.1 and not 1.19??? bRO even the admin didnt know lOl-- rip optifine though, the zoom man sobs??? also i dont know where the fuck the enchanting table went- i think i saw it like once and that was for a split second because i was moving my attention to a tree.)

basically while waiting (because you dont get your soulmates immediately ofc) and there were people waiting for everyone to join i think? (my power literally went out when it hit 6 PM, which was when the session was starting sobs), I just kinda gathered materials LMAO I got really lucky and I got myself into a ravine with a LOT of iron and made tools, and a water bucket w/ a shield?? i dont remember if i had armor or not and then the server had to be put on hold for a moment and kicked everyone??? i dont remember why but i think there were some difficulties- and when i rejoined i just FORGOT i had mobs surrounding me and proceeded to die and i didnt have the coords?? (and the f3 screen got so confusing wtf idk where shit is) so i just lost all my stuff LOL luckily that part wasnt canon though? the deaths dont count until you actually get your soulmate

so then sOULMATE TIME

i kinda found my soulmate after some time and uhh.. -i mean we did kinda okay? we didnt get as lucky and uh.. there were a lot of near death experiences LMAO ALSO ALSO ALSO so when we put down our beds on like this little mountain we're rooming on,

a creeper just came by and fucking blew it up SO WE DIDNT HAVE SPAWN ANYMORE---

and then the SECOND time we put our beds down there was ANOTHER creeper that blew it up and i think my partner was afk or something and i just PANICKED and punched my partner CLOSER TO THE CREEPER AS I SCREAMED????

bro im so fucking glad my partner didnt die sobs that wouldve been a stupid way to go and i dont even remember the way back to the mountain lmAO though theres like only one other pair besides us so its kinda.. a little awkward? i mean if you do something its clear who did it but like i think other people will be joining by session 2 or something? not to mention school happening meaning a lot of more people might be switched to group 2 or something, i dunno how it works but if it does happen, then well-- theyd probably be from group 1?? cause so group 1 for session 1 had ran from 2-4 pm, and group 2 ran from 6-8 pm

but with school happening the time theyre free might be different now??

i dont know its weird

but uh, the other soulmate pair i dont even know where they are? (we're like fuckin isolated id think? but theres this person from that other soulmate pair that kept coming over and giving gifts [they gave us wool when our beds fuckin blew up lmao- fOR FREE???])

AND THEY HAVE DIAMONDS? or someone has diamonds i dont know i just remember seeing a diamond achievement sobs i dont think we even have iron armor ??? we just have fuckin leather boots or something

Accessory/Hybrid Features drawing practice

I think that’s the only decent wings ive ever done except I am shit at symmetrical stuff

I tried drawing a person but I can never get it right lol

Honestly I was just drawing stuff to see which is pens I had still worked and then tried to shade w/ color pencils since I have a LOT of those

I don’t really shade honestly and it was. Something? Idk it’s easier than digital art but digital art has convenience, I just struggle more doing digital art then traditional ngl

I also can’t do hair nor eyes

The point is committing to your mistakes

Unless you don’t

I’ve seen way too many Grian stuff tho cause I kinda wanted to draw avian Grian sobs ???? I don’t even remember how his hair looks, remind me to never draw without references except I’ll prob forget

It's Not Arson, It's Team-building / DSMP Camp AU [TNT Duo-centric] / Thoughts

first of all, yes this is a ship fic, its TNT Duo ofc

second, CAMP AUU AAHAHID-

so Quackity and Wilbur are camp counselors and are assigned to camps next to each other

They kinda have like this rivalry thing...?????? its enemies to lovers man, it was a long 30 chapters waiting for them to just finally make a fucking move istg lMao?????

its really funny, though there are a lot of lows and dark stuff because of reasons you'll find out when reading but other then that its a lot of acceptance, closure, and COMEDYY HAHAHa (okay so like almost the whole of l'manburg are campers, like Tommy, Tubbo, Ranboo, Jack, and then theres Slime and I can't remember anyone else??)

The fic JUST finished anyway so it is still pretty fresh. I've never read a camp AU anyways so I couldn't mistake the events. It's just cute as fuck towards the end aGHHh

I .. did cry at one point ? for Wilbur but like mm mental health go brrr. thats another for the dark time lOl- but i cry for a lot of things so its not like sad as fuck

GO GIVE IT A READ [if youre into quackbur i mean ?? i dont wanna force you but i really like it and i dont usually read romance stuff books]

dead to me / DSMP Fic [Hero AU - Tommy-centric] / Thoughts

The fic is now finished, I just read the last chapter.

HOly fucking shit ?????

And theres so many little details thatd probably make so much more sense by the second read- it catches you off guard (but excuse me holy shit that ending???) But then by the second read you just probably notice all these little details that make so much more sense and actually mean so much more then what it first seemed as

ALSO the first letters of every chapter spelling out the quote 'The Universal Language Is Violence' ????

holy shit

i just

theres so much going on here

and yes there are a LOT of likely triggering stuff in this fic (but there are TW warnings in the notes!)

its just

so Tommy used to be a hero. he.. 'quit'

he wants to take down the hero association.

im keeping it vague as fuck because i dont want to spoil your experience and i really think you should give it a read blind instead of me spoiling it sobs

all i have to say i 'holy shit'

youll understand what i mean when youre done

hi so i just remembered this minigame thing that happened too

okay so before the trials and shit

THERE WAS THAT GUN GAME that was i think russian roulette? Dont remember the name but you had to choose where to put your bullets and then choose between shooting dummies and people- and like basically you can only shoot a dummy and person once ofc so you have to be careful with the placement so you shoot the dummies and not the people? and i fucked that up so many times i swear

no cause i think it played this audio everytime you did and it was.. unsettling and i just kept thinking 'oh shit' and i think that was when i realized how truly fucked this was? and i was losing my mind because i kept fucking messing up and i think a lot of it happened because i kinda just messed up with how i loaded the bullets? so then i actually technically cheated because so i loaded the bullets and then took a screenshot

i found my msgs from when i was fuckin panicking and before that was just 'I DID IT ALMOST PERFECTLY AND THEN THE LAST ONE I FAILED' sobs

OH OH and then loud noise if failing and then it just goes 'aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa' so that wasnt fun for my mental health [apparently i was boutta hyperventilate, who knew?]

bro it was stressful as fuck and im SO glad we dont have to do that again but its shitty that it had to be done and that really did wonders and got me into that mindset of not wanting to kill anyone and panicking and shit except I think Sara handled it a lot better then I wouldve with a gun ..until she shot someone but hAHA thats not canon!

YTTD Thoughts

i cant even try to think of every trigger. YTTD is a death game. There are children. I'm warning you there, be fuckin careful, and if you don't think you can handle it please skip this post.

So- Honestly I forgot about this for awhile because I don't actually interact in the YTTD fandom (I wouldn't even be surprised if I ended up missing some update for like the next chapter part thingy)

but then I was scrolling on my tumblr and saw a YTTD crack post and realized 'oh yeah'

and now I'm here

Honestly??? That game was all sorts of fucked, and not in the mean and offensive way. I mean..

So I'm not gonna lie and say I remember everyone's name, because I don't, BUT WHAT THE FUCK-

okay, yes, hi, death game- I liked Danganronpa, I liked this too- EXCEPT EVERYONE WAS AT DIFFERENT AGES???? Well not everyone everyone, BUT THERE WERE CHILDREN- Children, Adults, Elders, HOLY FUCK

And then remember professor whats his name? THAT FIRST VOTE WAS SO FUCKING FUCKED

it gives me shivers just thinking about how the metal of the collar burned at him until his head gave way and he became decapitated, head falling into his student's arms

sobbing

i didnt really think about it though because i was in focus mode, meaning i dont realize how triggering shit is until i go back to think about it (also because not much actually triggers me, ive become desensitized to this shit)

but holy shit.

AND THEN DONT GET ME STARTED ON JOE DYING

WHAT THE FUCK

JOE?

okay i think i was dumb because -- okay so i think his card made it so he had to be voted out to win and i dont think he got voted out ?

but i was dumb and i didnt realize who had which card until joe said something about how i didnt vote for him and realized ..

IM SORRY JOE I DIDNT PAY ATTENTION SOBS

and then just GIVING US THE STUPID CHANCE OF BEING ABLE TO KEEP HIM ALIVE? bro you dont know how fucking hard i pressed that mouse button, AND IT WAS FOR NOTHING AND THEN THE STUPID DOLL THING SAID THAT I WAS JUST PROLONGING HIS PAIN AND I CANT IT WAS AWFUL

jesus fuck

and then i think in the next part where we got to the next floor or something ? ?? so .. i kind of liked it, with the minigames, though it was hard as fuck and only served to make me even more nervous? (THAT DANCE GAME WAS NOT POSSIBLE WITHOUT RECORDING IT ISTG- WHAT THE FUCK ??? i even tried writing it down but i couldnt do it so i googled it and people were literally just recording it and going back to see what it was ???)

but so the coin thing

with the hallucination thing- i think there was a sanity bar? something like that. I actually didn't wanna go to the other doll person who I think set the bar back down or something- and honestly, I don't actually like horror, well playing horror, and theres very few horror games that I can deal with, but like.. I liked the hallucinations. Also I think I got a bad ending because it was too high and looking at the wiki I did ? I think Gin found me or something but I was gone.

So then I went back to my save and went to the person thingy and got rid of it and then i found out i kinda liked that ? i dont know, i have very messed up and unhealthy intentions when i play games and when my character is unstable and shit i make it worse

i really liked the bad ending i got when i think i did the thing three times ?

i like angsty stuff no matter how much it makes me cry

i actually dont remember which chapter and part had what in it but so

one of the things where we were in trial

okay so many things happened the fuck ? okay wait no i think.. so the one with the least and the one with the most points were fuckin put on this wheel thing ? (GIN SOBS) Because so Gin didn't want to take anyones tokens like the fuckin sweetheart he is

but i

HE WAS BEING POISONED

that was awful because i was actually attached to gin hard and i just.. NOOOOO

there was so much shit happening there i just cant (I ALMOST TOOK TOO LONG?? IM SORRY)

and then, okay so so later wtiht e h

i dont remember where but in a trial we had to vote either Kanna or Sou. (there was another option but that led to a bad ending according to the wiki)

KANNA IM SORRY

YOU WERE JUST A KID

and so i

im a sucker for villains i voted kanna off BUT IT WAS SO HARD- AND WE COULDNT VOTE ANYONE ELSE?? SOBBING

AND IT SAID THAT I STILL VOTED WITH LOGIC INSTEAD OF MY HEART AND LIKE TECHNICALLY I DID WITH MY HEART but in another way i technically did vote with logic

i just.

im so fucking sorry kanna

it was awful i cant

but then theres more and like

okay so there was Midori in this thing and we were in this game I think it was named like some food thingy- banquet or some shit i dont remember but we were preparing with the other dolls of i think of people who used to be alive that were connected to us then

uhm. i fucked up the minigame lol so my counterpart kinda died (I DIDNT REALIZE HOW TO PLAY????? sobs i missed something and so i think i overcharged someone)

but so then there were these coffins (before that I think Keiji was fuckin trapped in the coffin? AND BURNING OR SOMETHING? I DONT REMEMBER I THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD AND I THINK HE SURVIVED SOMEHOW LIKE HOLY SHIT)

but so there weere teh coffins and another game

where you had to guess and had to try to get midori- i dont.. so there was i think a light hint thing that told you whether there was a doll or a human inside, but i dont remember what midoris was.. i think both midori and gin (YES BECAUSE I THINK GIN WAS IN THERE AND WE COULDVE KILLED HIM)

and i just

ITS RANDOMIZED TOO

no cheats buds

uh,..

bro i think i got almost literally every other doll besides midori and gin

and then i think.. maybe eventually I got midori? i think gin survived thankfully, i dont think i could forgive myself if i killed gin (I dont actually remember- i did record my gameplay and I might have to go back and shit but like i dont even want to know, man)

and

okay so there was so much more shit with this whole sibling thing with Alice and Reko (I think either both of them died or one of the other did i dont fucking remember what happened- which i know is possible but i just dont remember what i got unlucky with. I think Alice died.. ?)

and theres other stuff

like the fucking MAGNETIC CEILING IN THAT ONE ROOM AND THERE WAS I THINK REKO OR SOMETHING WHO WAS TRAPPED- oh wait i think reko died (because the metal collar that everyone has remember)

wait...

???????????????????????????????????????

theres so many fucking choices that you could do that its just

holy fucking shit man sobs

yttd was a bumpy ass rollercoaster of twists and turns