This Was One Of The Last Things I've Wrote.it Turned Out To Be Multiple Ideas I Wanted To Get Out.It's

This was one of the last things I've wrote.it turned out to be multiple ideas I wanted to get out.It's been weeks now but the significant result of this was the conversation that sparked with a friend. He asked if I write for enjoyment. The thing is I don't feel happy to write most of the time. But maybe it's about getting rid of sadness to become happy.

My first lover Loneliness

She never spoke but she sounded like the wind blowing through the trees

Or the creak when the bench swings

And she would never leave

As I float here in silence

You see peace but I'm submerged in violence

As my mind will riot

Setting blaze to any hope

Leads me to the rope

My lends to myself Is always bias

And only I hold myself to the highest

Of standards that taunt me

That are daunting

You wish for me to stop

Playing hide and seek with the demons

Can't you see I'm more than enough

To haunt my own dreams

As I carry myself

With out purpose for unknown reasons

As I fade in and out

Only to be captured by the moon beams

You wanted me to vanquish my darkness

Saying I could still be alive

But living with out it could be the hardest

Would enough of me survive

And. .

The only the only thing worse than this

Is the projection of shame from your eyes

Which becomes my reflection

And rejection is black and white

12 years ago I wrote this

How can you tell me what the truth is when truth is only a matter of perspective and each persons have their perspective

So does that mean that nothing is true because so many point of view on the truth or is it all true?

Clouds drifting slowly

Do they follow the wind or

Does the wind push them

Mountain to pebble

Time is against us all

Mortal reminder

Do flightless birds dream

Flying high above the world

Unaware to care

I was trying to do a few haiku

Syllables are tricky at times

Soft waves are calming

Blue ocean, true World's mirror

Warm sun rays rejoice

Pale moonlight walker

Gentle breeze, one breath away

My soul is anew

1/∞

I think it's important to keep trying

If it's not increasing the odds for me

Maybe it's helping another

For life to exist on a floating rock in a vacuum following a ball of gas following a mystery

The dice roll happened more times than mortals can comprehend

1/10

Out of 100 or 1000?

No a billion

A trillion?

1 out of infinity

That's my love for you

“when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool!) 🌟”

I like my curiosity. Good thing I'm not a cat

I like my indomitable spirit. It causes me more aches than I care for at times

I like my heart. I always try to good even when it doesn't seem like it. A good conscious is a good pillow

I like not having fear stop me from living life. I'll face anything with a smile

I like my imagination. You can call me a fool, but I've been to places you will never find