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I think it's important to keep trying

If it's not increasing the odds for me

Maybe it's helping another

For life to exist on a floating rock in a vacuum following a ball of gas following a mystery

The dice roll happened more times than mortals can comprehend

1/10

Out of 100 or 1000?

No a billion

A trillion?

1 out of infinity

That's my love for you

This was one of the last things I've wrote.it turned out to be multiple ideas I wanted to get out.It's been weeks now but the significant result of this was the conversation that sparked with a friend. He asked if I write for enjoyment. The thing is I don't feel happy to write most of the time. But maybe it's about getting rid of sadness to become happy.

My first lover Loneliness

She never spoke but she sounded like the wind blowing through the trees

Or the creak when the bench swings

And she would never leave

As I float here in silence

You see peace but I'm submerged in violence

As my mind will riot

Setting blaze to any hope

Leads me to the rope

My lends to myself Is always bias

And only I hold myself to the highest

Of standards that taunt me

That are daunting

You wish for me to stop

Playing hide and seek with the demons

Can't you see I'm more than enough

To haunt my own dreams

As I carry myself

With out purpose for unknown reasons

As I fade in and out

Only to be captured by the moon beams

You wanted me to vanquish my darkness

Saying I could still be alive

But living with out it could be the hardest

Would enough of me survive

And. .

The only the only thing worse than this

Is the projection of shame from your eyes

Which becomes my reflection

And rejection is black and white

I don't know if this was clever, but albata lining is a play on words for silver lining. Albata is fake silver, so what I was trying to imply was it's bad in more bad.

Prisoner

What a lonely way to live a life

And pretend you're alright

Start believing the lie

" I'm fine"

You wanted to be swaddle by the truth but now you're hiding

Trying to find the good but it's albata lining

A self promise to stay hidden

Regret became your prison

Locked shut and the key is forgiveness

At which point do your loved ones become inseparable from you?

I've had these limbs my whole life, yet I'd trade a limb for any of them

Finding hope in the light is no different than finding your shadow in the dark

Puzzle pieces

All this time you've wandered

All the love you let go

Has it once made you whole

Always stuck with two puzzle pieces

The beginning and end

Trying to make the in-between fit

Worlds away

I was never here to stay

And that's okay

Don't ever be afraid

I'll still find you world's away