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447 <3 i hope this ask arrives on time

Hi Ana!!

Where to start with you...

Ana is possibly my sweetest friend that I have. Like this girl is made up of like... 99% cotton candy. She is so nice, so sweet, so kind, and so, SO very soft spoken. She is one of the few people who the way they text actually reflects the way they talk irl.

Also, and this came to my attention only after she tagged me in the musical meme ask thing, WE ARE SUCH POLAR OPPOSITES THAT WE ARE QUALIFIED TO BE PROTAGONISTS OF A GHIBLI MOVIE. She is the most sweetest flower-wearing 19th century vibes person and then you have me, the punk edgy asshole raccoon friend. And I wouldn't have it any other way!

I want all of you to know that none of you will have vibes as immaculate as Ana. Like that is just not possible. She s aw vibes and was like "yeah I can do that!" and MASTERED IT PERFECTLY.

IMPORTANT INTERMISSION: WHEN YOU TALK POSITIVELY ABOUT ANA, YOU'RE GIVEN FOOD, AND IF NOT TALKING POSITIVELY ABOUT PEOPLE ISN'T INCENTIVE ENOUGH, FOOD IS.

Back to some semblance of normalcy, I need to read more classics purely so I can discuss them with her. Like she is one of the correct people.

ALSO HER WRITING? FUCKING IMMACULATE. I have never met ONE person who can emulate classic lit from the 19th century writing and make it actually DIGESTIBLE. It's flowery, it's prosey, BUT IT'S DIGESTIBLE, AND I LOVE IT. However, I need all of you to know, she types not only with just one hand, but with one finger, and I am forever afraid of that power.

I can't wait to meet up with her more, preferably when I'm not exhausted after concerts (which was a personal oversight), but also, Ana is just one of those friends whom I witness experiecing life through a window and sigh wistfully because she is happy and god dadmmit that's all I want.

I love my friends vol. 2

hi person I definitely do not know, choose the number 22 now let's see what you got

*cracks knuckles and neck*

everyone, meet my arch fucking nemesis.

one day, while we were in a literature workshop i think, we promised each other we'd write a character analysis of each other. we're both too scared to do it, but i will make a stand and this will be like... a hint of that. a teaser of what could be. an idea.

I don't exactly know where to start so I'll just pick a random point: I said previously that I visit Rei's house the most. That's because I practically live at Dee's house. It became so bad we eventually started going to uni together. It became a meme. and for good reason.

Dee is the most terrifying person you will ever see, but then you'll talk with them for 15 minutes and if you do end up clicking, you'll discover that there's nothing to be afraid of. They're very sweet, but so extremely introverted. Im an archeologist and they're ancient ruins which I KNOW exist and i WILL be digging them up.

but this person. this specimen. this creature. this eldritch entity. honestly man, i dunno what to say, other than this guy (gnc) is one of my best fucking friends and i am so happy about that. this BRAIN. they are genuinely the most fun to discuss shit about. like theyre one of the few people where i will rave about my special interests and they will rave about theirs and we will be having Fun.

speaking of raving about special interests, theyre one of the few neurotypical people with whom i genuinely feel heard and properly taken care of with. like so many of my acquiantances will just not understand the mental illness cocktail inside my brain, and dee doesn't either because they just don't experience it, but theyre one of the few people who will make accomodations for me without me even having asked and that is so noble of them.

also sorry for constantly talking about how hArD my life is. except when i say im dying or wanna kill myself. then im not sorry. i am a dramatic son of a bitch and you befriended me on PURPOSE.

also the ones that get it, get it, but creating an au with you has been one of the most fun experiences ever in my life. not only was it such a fun writing exercise (WRITERS CLUB WHO?) but i loved thinking with you and it was an excuse to spend time with you and no joke i would do it all over again and i WILL do it all over again you are extremely unsafe. and while our love languages clash, once we synced up and did parallel play perfectly, it was such... a safe environment. talking and planning an theorizing with them is fun as fuck. but chilling on their couch (aka my bed) while they play some strategy war game and i play breath of the wild and i listen to them rage at egyptians, mongolians, british, scottish, or whoever attacks their faction and theyre panicking about not having enough resources while i rapidly back away from an approaching lynel is so comforting.

drawing in the same room as them and explaining fashion trends while they explained the latest criminal minds episode to me was so fun. it was so safe. i will genuinely cherish every moment with them, and i massively appreciate them. I wont get into what the situation was, but i once had to run to their house at 12.30 am while carrying groceries in my pajamas, and i wouldd do that again, for any reason.

but also they BULLY me and i am being ABUSED. >:(

no bullying from me in this post tho, i already do a lot of that irl and i will not be stopping.

also i know you will never make your own post like this about me, dee, unless you're not a coward :)

This is very important research so I can figure out how to arrange my books

reblogging this cuz i realize i havent talked about this thing on my blog and i, as mentioned previously, am a cowriter - this is fucking huge!!

things are working, things are rolling along! stuff is being written and plans are being planned! this is turning out to be something... SO much bigger than i OR dee had anticipated and AAA

also this is misrepresenting my goals, i wanna write men kissing but i also wanna write men being stabbed and. no man has been stabbed on paper YET. BUT!! im gonna stab a lot of men.

also,, this fic is my entire child and then some, and i discovered what zirtek is (through how i need zirtek now) but also this has made me think a lot of thoughts about fix-it fics and world building and...rest assured i will be talking about it one day, a certain author will not escape my wrath.

BUT. things are rolling along smooth-ish-ly! and that's !!!!!! im SO excited!!!

firmly aware that this is extremely niche but.

hey there grishaverse fandom, would anyone be interested in reading an au in which the darkling got less villainous and more properly morally ambiguous (and not crazy) some time pre-alina and actually became the person some of us thought he was in book 1? ft. reworked merzost, different ending for the alina trilogy and admittedly a lot of OCs (none of which date the darkling, he's aroace in this which means there's no romantic darklina)

(and in case you are interested, it's not ready yet but it is being written👀👀)

YIPPEEE

once you start saying “yippee!” you will never stop

yeah but what would the number mean tho?

Oh look, a victim!

So. This wonderful specimen of a person is someone who I consider to be one of my best friends.

They are my co conspirator when it comes to all things tumblr. We're in not a LOT of the same fandoms, but enough that is kinda friendship defining. They also proved to me that neither of us are immune to propaganda. They got me into the owl house (thank you forever carter that is quite possibly one of the biggest favors you have done me thus far) and I got them into critical role as a whole (you're WELCOME). I think the biggest "offender" fandom that we were both in together at the same time was Sk8 the infinity? Maybe? Idk, but tumblr had a big ass play in that.

Also do you know that meme of "writers, make sure you have a doctor friend"? Carter is the doctor friend. The amount of medical questions I have asked this man (gender neutral) in order to torture my ocs is enough to get them a medical degree. And they answer! So if any of you get mad at me for hurting my ocs, they're giving me the ammo :)

Also both of us share the emo/punk experience (tm) which... shows. Irl.

Also we are both so gay and mentally ill that neither of us understand the few straight people we converse with, so now our conversations have divulged into different flavors of "straight people are weird".

I won't get into a lot of the personal stuff but I fucking miss talking at the stairs of our highschool with this guy about ocs, that shit was super fun. We still talk about ocs and fandoms, just not at the staircase of our highschool. We do it irl at a park or sth or dms.

I think that's all I have to say? Anywho I love my friends vol 1.

... The number means nothing btw.

SUCH AN EXTREMELY IMPORTANT EDIT BTW: I would take a bullet for this guy. This is like true for all of my friends but I need all of you to know that we live 5 hours away from each other and if anything happened to them I would spend absurd amounts of money to be there ASAP. Also I'm currently trying to get them to play Deltarune with me and they're trying to get me to watch OFMD and Good Omens. Both of us are failing.