God The "reid Goes To Check On Gideon At His Cabin" Scene Still Makes Me Feel So Nauseous Even Though

god the "reid goes to check on gideon at his cabin" scene still makes me feel so nauseous even though i know he doesn't actually find gideon's body like the viewer is made to expect.* but like. watch this clip. it really looks like he's just found his body until it cuts to show what he's really looking at. even now it makes me nervous

anyway. call me fucked up but i wish there were more fics that looked at what would have happened if that really was the situation. i like to put my blorbos in blenders and turn them on, okay? sorry. sorry. my demons

*i think this fakeout is missed by some people simply because gideon leaving the team is spoiled a lot—which is fair, because the episode where it happens aired sixteen years ago. but the clip above, the letter reading like a suicide note, the last episode ending with gideon holding his gun...they really want you to think he's killed himself. and reid is probably worried about that the whole drive, too.

thinking about this line from gideon's letter:

yes, he's speaking broadly here—immediately after we see this woman walking, it cuts to zoomed in images of bodies. that's obvious.

but i think he's also talking about reid, especially because the letter is addressed to him. reid, whose death he literally did see. he means "i cant look at strangers without picturing their death and that's why i cant do this job anymore" but he also means "i cant look at you without picturing you seizing on a filthy floor and thats why i cant work with you anymore"

hey do you ever think that the reason reid knocks "shave and a haircut" on elle's door is because post-fisher king elle gets nervous when someone knocks on her door because she doesn't know who it is, so reid (or even the whole team) start knocking a pattern. do you ever think about elle checking the peephole anyway. i do.

oh.

haha. another throwaway line that means nothing <3

Gold in the Summertime [E] [8424 words]

In which instead of the Fisher King, the BAU gets their two weeks vacation, and Reid goes to Jamaica with Elle and Morgan. For the kink bingo prompt "friends with benefits".

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“You gonna be alright in the sun, pretty boy?” Morgan teases, as he leans on the door jamb of their adjacent hotel rooms and watches Reid rubbing sunscreen on his face.

“I’m from the desert,” Reid says. “I can handle heat. I still turn red as a lobster though.”

Elle appears from the balcony, already in a bikini with a sarong wrapped around her waist and a cocktail in hand.

“Aw chulo,” she coos at him, and makes eye contact with Morgan across the room. “You could have waited until we’re on the beach, Morgan would have volunteered to lotion you up.”

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ough this interaction. also the fact that morgan is the one who calls hotch a drill sergeant in revelations and it's what hotch repeats to him here,,the implication that at least part of him was genuinely hurt by the team all naming what they thought was his worst quality. any reminder that hotch is human hits me in the gut. also hotch and morgan's dynamic... the begrudging respect that becomes admiration that becomes friendship. hhh.