To: Izzy

to: izzy

it's going to be alright 🥹 you put in all the genres/warnings to the best of your abilities!

from: izzy

https://www.tumblr.com/from-izzy/741244952356519936/0321-tbz-kim-sunwoo?source=share

you wrote here how hard work didnt betry you. Do you mind telling me your side of the story. i love your stories btw! life has been pretty hard and not a lot of writers write smth thats reltable like yours!

hello hello!! thank you for telling me your thoughts about my stories, i appreciate this so much 🥰 ahhhh...i hope things will get better for you soon 🫂 keep pushing on!!

warnings: mentions of academic struggles, anxiety, panic (sorry this became a rant (and a self-reflection) more than anything tbh...)

so for my uni degree, the first three years is guaranteed in a way that there is no competition. anyone can do the first three years. however, fourth year is the hardest part. a lot of people say to get into fourth year, you basically need to score about 80% to even be considered for fourth year and even then, there's no guarantee. so, this bummed me out so bad. i remember going to uni thinking if this is right for me because if it isn't, then wouldn't i have just spent my first three years for nothing? i just didn't know how i would feel like if i reached the end of third year and then realised that i didn't get into fourth year. i also remember looking for other postgraduate courses i could apply to because my confidence was so low and in my head, i just had to prepare for everything.

i had a backup plan for my backup plan that was a backup plan for my first backup plan.

but the thing that changed me were: am i giving up when nothing has started? even when this has been my dream job for the past four years (at the time)? i even moved high schools so that my chances to get into university was higher, and now that i'm here, i'm going to give up now? after all the things i've been through, am i going to stop just because i'm scared of something that i can somewhat control?

i kept going then. then i heard about this degree that guarantees students to get into fourth year as long as i reach their minimum mark. i only knew about this degree mid year and i asked how i could move and they said i have to be invited 😭 the requirements was high. the lecturer said to aim for a 90-95% average in all my units. now, i want to dream big but at the time, i was sitting on an 86% and i knew i wouldn't get 90% (or at least not easily and i was not prepared to sacrifice my mental health for this) 😭 i remember accepting that i was just meant to compete for fourth year and i just kept going. kept studying as i did before.

and then at the end of first year, i got an offer to move. and i thought "...oh." AND I REMEMBER I WAS ABOUT TO REJECT IT 😭 BECAUSE THE 'TRADEOFF' WAS BIG (ie. compulsory units, study abroad (as mentioned in the fic!!) etc.) and like i mentioned before, i had backup plans and i think admist my panicking and anxiety, i fell in love with the jobs that the backup plans could offer me. but then my friends and family reminded the past me that would love this more than anything and with their support, even if maybe i don't want to go to this specific fourth year in this major, the title of my new bachelor degree is really good as it mixes theory, research and job experiences in the real world in an undergraduate degree.

so, i ended up accepting it and...i don't want this to seem like "yay! my life is great now! woohoo!!" because these compulsory units are hard 😭 and i honestly have moments when i just want to contact the office and be like "hey! respectfully and kindly, transfer me back please!!"

another thing about this is that, now that i'm accepted in this, i'm scared of failing even more now. i think it'll hurt me a lot and it'll take a big hit on me if i do considering that i feel like i sacrificed a lot.

but hey...if i do my best, what else can i do at that point? what regrets will i have if i tried my very hardest? i don't know what the future holds for me. i could fail. i could pass. but what i DO know is that i don't know. and because of that, i'll keep doing my best.

but this is my story 🫂 it seems kind of made up now that i read it and people can believe that if they want to 😅 but this is me and my story!! i hope you're doing well anon! you can do this!! 🥹

I feel like it's normal to look at friendships and want to have what you see. Of course from the outside and what it showcased is not all that it seems but sometimes I do look at my friend's dynamics with others or even people that I know or even my own friends and I do get jealous of the bond. I think that's the very human side of me. I do feel like I slip because of that thought but at the same time, I'm learning to love myself as I am and not change myself so that I can fit in to the people that my friends fit in perfectly to. That's their bonds and their personalities. The bond that I have with my friends will always be unique to me and only me 🫂

That is what makes friendship so dynamic and precious 💕

about my writing and works!!

Even though I am planning to write all my stories in 'x reader' form, please keep in mind that most of my writings are very self-indulgent (as I mentioned before here, I write for myself)—especially when it comes to the 'especially to you...' series!

Because of this, unconsciously, I may add attributes that mirror me as a person in real life. I understand that this may not be suitable for everyone and I'm trying my very best to add these attributes in the warnings/genre sections in all of my stories. I haven't been the best at this and I apologise for that.

As it is reader-inserted stories, I will try my best to reduce (and find other words to convey the same meaning) the use of the attributes and add appropriate warnings/genres either way as I continue to write what's best for me. There are actions that I dearly love to write about so please let me indulge in this. I would like to apologise if anyone has been made uncomfortable, that was never my intention.

I ask for your understanding as I keep improving and learning with my creative writing, especially with my reader-inserted stories!

Thank you for bringing these subjects to my attention, reading my stories and for your support!!

(post is based on this ask)

currently me as i need to watch 3 hours and 15 mins of lectures and two chapters for cognitive neuroscience

me avoiding all responsibilities and problems.

hey! i don’t know if you know this or not but could you tag any physical descriptions of the reader in your fic in the content warnings at the top of your fic? i love your writing but i find that it’s kind of not inclusive to darker skinned poc because of how much physical description you put in 😅 you mention a lot of things that allude to paler-skinned people like red cheeks and straight hair (which is fine! it’s your blog you can write whatever you want 😅) but a little warning would be nice! the same thing applies to any other physical descriptions like size comparison (e.g. the reader being smaller than the idol/the idol’s clothes being really baggy on the reader/height difference/etc) i know it doesn’t really seem like a big deal but as a bipoc reader when i find a reader fic i really like but the reader is described with features that are so clearly not a physical description of me without any warnings it pulls me out of the fic and feels almost intentionally exclusive 🥲

again, it’s fine that you write these things but notifying the reader at the beginning of the fic would be really appreciated! thank you for reading this 😭 i hope you have a good day!

hey anon! first of all, thank you so much for supporting my work, it means a ton to me. second of all, thank you for acknowledging that this is my space and letting me have the creative freedom. i really appreciate and am thankful for this thought.

in terms of your concerns, i am taking this and others ones on board 🫂 and i'm trying my best to put in the appropriate warnings/notes/genres that are needed for my stories.

i'm sorry that i haven't been quite great with the topic and putting it in. i'll most definitely be more careful about it from now on. i apologise that i made you feel excluded in my stories, that was never my intention.

once again, thank you and have a great day!