@sinnabonka Are.. Are Those Tags Song Lyrics? Because Theyre Beautiful And Everything I Feel Rn And Please

@sinnabonka Are.. are those tags song lyrics? Because they’re beautiful and everything I feel rn and please just tell me this is a song I can listen to on repeat!

Some hater : Dean doesn’t care about Ca… Me : How about you watch this video and then you shut the hell up forever. … ….

Every. Fucking. Day.

its so shiddy when u have to convince yourself to do your hobbies. like, its fun, you like it, why cant you just do it. do it. do it. but what if…. mindless media consumption instead….

Oookay, I‘ll just read that over and over again until I‘ve memorized every single word😭😭😭

Why didn’t I follow you already? Your writing gives me life and kills me at the same time.. How is this so relatable and beautiful and just..everything?!

something went wrong, you know this, something always goes wrong.

why does that something always seem to be you? 

i die slowly, drowning in despair with a rock at my foot pulling down, down, down till i reach the bottom of the well. and this is how i die, not by your hand, but by the cold of steel in your eyes, by your aching silence.

i don’t think there’s anything left to say.

breathe in, breathe out, lungs full of murky water, of mud, of pine jello; the ribcage too tight to contain my pain and anger, but you make some room inside me for both, ripping away my racing heart and taking it with you.

i think it’s time for me to move on.

i’m stuck in this moment like some prehistoric bug in the gold of amber, like a little fish in the nets of an old man. you walk away, it doesn’t last long, but it keeps happening for eternity. i’m stuck in a loop of you leaving me behind in the coldness of the room, in the emptiness of the place we called home once.

‘stay’, i should say. ‘please, don’t leave me’, i should beg, but the stubborn silence won’t tremble.

footsteps fade away, the thud of the door puts a full stop to the scene.

you don’t look back. 

for the first time, you don’t look back.

‘cas’, i whisper, when the curtain falls. 

this is how i die. with your name, a cold smooth pebble in my mouth. with your name, a hot and sharp knife at my throat. with your name, slipping from the tip of my tongue a little too late, when it doesn’t matter anymore.

i die with your name on my lips, as the last ‘i love you’, as the last ‘forgive me’ and the last ‘goodbye’. 

x

Just watched this scene for the first time and dang, it really feels like it’s about spn..

Oh my god, this really is what it must be like to read the morning newspaper, isn’t it?

can’t wait to log into this hellsite tomorrow and read the summary of everything that happened/was said at denvercon today like its the morning newspaper

The fact that I see this post just now, go on Insta and see Misha‘s story WHERE HE SAYS TI AMO!!!!

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?!?!

SORRY. AND THANK YOU. 

I want to thank you all for making this fandom fun, crazy, intense and full of amazing and talented people.

Since all the chaos i put you all through i feel like a behind the scenes is the least i can do or you can call it my classic villain long ass annoying explanation.

And yeah, I, because i’m one (1) stupid ass bitch.

What started this?

Well, i was obviously angry for everything.

Then Misha posted a video where he threw the “rogue translator” under the bus and said “But I’m confident you guys can sort that part out as your writing, art, and imaginations play the story out past the last frames we filmed.“

And so i did.

That one line fueled so much anger in me, because after everything, we really do need to fix it ourselves? Then watch me do it. In this moment i got basically possessed by revenge, anger and inspiration. Many of you figured out how i did it but let me walk you through it! I downloaded the first confession video i could find on youtube, decided the part i wanted to dub and started digging. I looked up all supernatural scripts, then i had to go to Vampire diaries and whatever the frick that legions spinoff was, then all the Twilight movies, then One Tree Hill, Marley & I and so on. It was pure suffering. Each time i found a matching word i had to check the episode to find out if the intonation was right, if there was music, or if the dubber even had the same tone of voice so i went to a lot of youtube clips and streamings that i absolutely didnt want to watch. After 24 hours i had heard so many “ti amo” and “castiel” i started to hear them when editing the background. In the end, of all the stuff i found most of it was trash and not worth to be on this leak, so i had to dig again. And i found it, the “i love you”, it comes from The Office, the PDA episode. I still feel bad about putting that one there but it was the only one that somehow worked wit the lipsync (Yeah, i also looked at that, what the fuck is wrong with me?). While as for the “anch’io” that dean says it comes from the 2x20 and the so much loved and apreciated “Castiel" and “i’m sorry” is from the 8x17. So yeah i worked so much for nothing, but i was still proud of what i had.   (you can now imagine a montage of me trying to edit out the background music for hours from random voice clips just to throw them all away in the end) As for the background music i zoomed in as much as possible and basically hand stitched the music to make it sound seamless, and GOD Yes i even went through the whole original soundtrack to see if there was anything i could use to just slap and replace but obvs not, so back to hand stitching and hearing voices for like 2-3 hours. it was now 8 am and i heard that clip so many times it didnt make sense anymore, so i slept for like, three hours before waking up with the worst idea i ever had. I was running on like, a total of 5 hours of sleep in two days because i also had a fever and ANYWAY. I thought “what if i make this real, like, real real” Thats when the LEAK idea was born, that same morning of the 27. I did some googling, i looked up a in studio picture and saw the counter, that i couldnt recreate with any program i had (btw, i only used imovie for this disaster) i tried them all and at that point i just wanted it to end so i was  FUCK THIS. FUCK. And went to youtube, and, well. I found what i was sure was gonna get me busted. This. When i put this in the video i knew someone was gonna get me, and i was 70% sure it would have been this. Then, i slapped everything together and decided what to do with the logo. So i did the most logical thing and googled “remove watermark from video“ and this is the 30% of the other thing that would have gotten me busted, because it was crap and obvious but i was running on zero sleep and my brain was on fire and i was not thinking anymore at that point. The video was done, and now i just had to put it on my tv (AND I WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR, I READ ALL OF YOUR POSTS AND COMMENTS AND CALLING MY POOR TV OLD AND ANCIENT HURT ME WAY MORE THAN ALL THE OTHER THINGS YOU GUYS CALLED ME, but i guess its fair) i turned on my ps4 and went on this cursed blog where i already posted the hd version of the video, i made a recording of the tv and then deleted the hd one and posted the phone recorded one. Spammed it at random people that were online at the time (according to tumblr) and waited. I want also to say that after watching this clip an infinite number of times that the ORIGINAL editing si absolute trash, there are music skips and cgi bugs, then the camera cuts are absolutely random and they 100& cut a shit ton of video, and took away some random lines says when thrown on the gorund. And in this moment i was thinking about the CW, about how they buried our gays again. But that grave is big enough for everyone working on that network spreading hate, homophobia, racism ableism and so on. Your time will come too.  Anyway, when i started to come to my sense and wonder if what i did was right or wrong. I still don’t know if i would do it again. I feel like i was giving hope, i really did, because if this lie could hold a bit longer, then it would be real for a moment more. I’m sorry for making anyone feel bad about this, i really am, if its of any consolation i went through hell and i will never blame anyone for hating me. I just couldn’t make this fandom end on such a bittersweet note, not like that. I hope that whoever tried to debunk this had some fun, and maybe made some good memories with friends over this.

Thank you everyone for debunking this, you were all amazing.  I will miss this fandom.