(emetophobia Warning)

(emetophobia warning)

So I just cried so hard I threw up (into the toilet thankfully, I tend to cry while sitting on the bathroom floor bc it's weirdly comforting to me)

It wasn't a lot so I'm contemplating whether I should tell my mum or not?

Like if I do she'd probably let me stay home from school which is good bc I do not like going to school (it's exhausting and makes me feel shitty), but also today I've started crying every time I've been left alone (a total of 5 times) and I think if I'm not having the constant stimulation of school I'll probably be crying all day

Plus I'd have to go wake her up, I'll probably start crying as soon as I tell her (feeling absolutely pathetic today can't you tell) and ik she really doesn't want me to miss this year (I've been sick a lot throughout my time at secondary school and this is my most important school year)

But like I really want my mum right now yk

yo for the record if you put something in my inbox and i never respond it’s not that i didn’t like it or read it it’s that i very very often see messages and go ‘oh i should respond to that’ and then i fucking forget until it’s like. been enough time to be weird

*grabbing mlm shippers by the shoulders* guys nobody needs to be the twink. nobody needs to be the sub. nobody needs to be the femboy. they can both be big fat hairy men who bask in each others masculinity or they can both be unspeakable monstrous creatures with inhuman genitalia it’s okay I’m holding your hand. Let me show you the way

Or the character is intentionally androgynous and the fans wrongly assume it's a self insert

"this character is meant to be a self insert for the player to project onto"

> the character is a man

I've cried 4 times today over the same thing and like every single time I am alone in a room I start sobbing

I'm tired so I put my phone down but istg the second I put it down I started thinking ab it and nearly started crying again and had to get it back on

So I'm rewatching twilight again and Carlisle Cullen and Charlie Swan are so Jekyll and Utterson in a different universe. They even look like the mazm Jekyll and Utterson??

Respected doctor, loves his friends despite having to isolate himself sometimes due to keeping huge secret (is some kind of "monster"), like 90% in control (of becoming Hyde/making others vampires) but very calm about it because he believes he is fully in control

Knows practically nothing that's going on but is trying to find out how to protect his loved ones. Detectives (one paid, one self-proclaimed). Quite emotionally restricted (if that makes sense), cares a lot but struggles to show it over than in emergency situations