Yall

Y’all

Watch me juggle four hyperfixations at once. I’ll do it, you cowards!

The fixations mentioned? Oh! They’re Invader Zim, My Hero Academia, Dear Evan Hansen, and Undertale.

Hahahahaha! I’m in trouble....

if i had ADHD i would simply stop being hyperactive and inattentive

It’s times like this when I put on a playlist of orchestrated music (Rush Garcia’s Undertale playlist is a favourite go-to!) and get out my sketchbook. More often than not, I never end up using it. BUT! I do find it does help me decide what I DO want to do! That, or going for a drive.

That autistic / ADHD feel when you want to do… something.

Hi! Feel free to ignore this if you don't have the spoons, it's a question about ADHD. I'm tempted to get tested for both ADHD and austism bc I feel like I have a lot of those symptoms. But how do I tell the difference? There seems to be a lot of overlap and I have no idea if I have one or the other or both? Every time I see those "this is an ADHD experience" or "this is a ASD experience" I seem to relate. Some friends think I have both, others say because I can drive I can't have ADHD? thanks

Apologies if this is a messy ramble, I’m a bit out of it right now, but let me just start with this:

“others say because I can drive I can’t have ADHD”.

That is just an inherently untrue statement. There are plenty of people with ADHD who drive, my husband is one of them, as is my best friend, and several other people I can think of right now. Some folks with ADHD might not feel able to drive, but that is not the blanket “norm”, because no one person with ADHD has the exact same life experience and capabilities. Statements like that come from a place of ignorance, and lets be honest here, a little bit of ableism.

I also get people telling me all the time that I can’t actually have ADHD cause I’m an editor, and editing requires detail orientated work and “hyper just means you’re a scatter brain right? it’s not like you have the attention span for that”, to which I reply: have you ever met anyone with a hyper fixation? Some of us can channel that shit.

Of course that’s not true for everyone with ADHD, cause ADHD as we are coming to realize, is also a spectrum disorder.

Some people will swing clearly to one “side” of hyper, while some people will struggle with inattentiveness. Some others, like myself, have a combination of both, because although the sliding scale analogy can be helpful, it’s not entirely accurate. My exact diagnosis is combination ADHD with emphasis toward hyperactivity and rapid cycling thoughts combined with inattentiveness. Physically I’m not hyper, but mentally my brain is always “on”, which y’know, if you follow my blog it’s pretty evident I’m always going a mile a minute inside my own head, but outwardly? I’d pass for neurotypical because I’m not what ADHD “looks like”.

You are also right in that there is a lot of overlap between ADHD and ASD, and it is entirely possible to have either one or the other or both, and chances are if you are relating to those posts? There’s something there worth looking into.

I always used to find ADHD posts relatable, but just assumed everyone did on some level. Turns out not so much… turns out some people don’t have executive dysfunction problems… turns out some people can go to sleep at a regular hour and fall asleep within minutes, or finish a thought through without jumping onto a next one, or don’t find boredom so excruciatingly painful it can hurt like a physical ache or make you want to scream… seems fake I know, but apparently it’s a thing.

For the longest time I beat myself up for not being smart enough, for being lazy, for not being able to do such basic every day things. I hated myself for it. I despised what I perceived as personal and moral failings on my part, because I could not do supposedly easy things in the way people said I ought. Turns out there was a reason for that. And I am smart, I’m not lazy, and I can do things. I just needed a better level of support than I was getting.

If you want to get tested for both, get tested for both. I did on the advice of my therapist. It was enlightening and really helped me realize how much my ADHD actually affects my every day life, which in turn has helped me start to make it a lot, lot better.

I hope some of that was helpful to you, and I hope you find the help you need

what if i … were to infodump… about a hyperfixation… ahaha… just kidding….  …..unless?

Perfect to keep your brain occupied while studying!

Let's talk about mynoise.net

Have you ever been listening to Rainymood and thought, “Yeah, this is good … but it would be nice if I could customize the sound more, or if there was a little more choice.

Let me introduce you to MyNoise.

MyNoise is a customizable sounscape looper with so many options, even within each soundscape.  So say, for instance, you really love rain sounds when you write or study or relax.  Anything.  I know I’m a big fan of rain sounds.  They have a page for that.

But say you like really high, pattery rain, and LOTS of low thunder.  Here’s where MyNoise really stands out: you can customize that.  See those sliders with all the cute colors?  That is your equalizer. You can adjust the levels based on what you want to hear more and less of.  Here’s how it looks when you want high, pattery rain and low, rumbly thunder:

But say rain isn’t really your jam.  Say you want something a little more ambient, a little more background noise-y.  Something with people.  Well, they have customizable coffee house chatter that even has the levels listed for things like “kitchen,” “babble,” and “table”:

Or say you miss the ocean.

Or say you miss your cat.

Or say you miss your spaceship.

Or say you miss the dungeon where you and your team of scalawag adventurers used to explore and face off against, say, dragons.  In the dungeon.

This site is seriously so helpful, and those are just a fraction of every kind of sounscape the site has to offer.  The best part is that if you want to layer it with music (for instance, I’ll layer a playlist + rain + coffee shop if the scene I’m writing takes place in a coffee shop), you can adjust the master volume, meaning all of your layers stay at their respective volumes, just louder or quieter.

Enjoy!