Ah. That....... Suddenly Makes Much More Sense.....

Ah. That....... Suddenly makes much more sense.....

finding out people dont usually add numbers by first adding something to make a ten (for example 7+6= 7 plus 3 is 10 plus another 3 is 13) & that its actually an adhd thing is the WILDEST shit literally ive lived like 10 years (or however old i was when i learned to add and stuff) thinking thats how everyone does it. what the fuck

Listen to kids talk about what they’re interested in. I’m 21 years of age, and I’m just now realising that I’m repressing myself due to childhood trauma. That was this EXACT thing.

It really says something about how society treats children that today I told a 13 year old I was proud of her hard work and she nearly cried into my shoulder.

-Being unable to process verbal lessons, but doing better when given a book or packet to work off of with the teacher.

the joys of adhd

-”do this please” okay **fifteen minutes later** “did you do it??” what?

-*picks up phone to look at time* hm let’s unlock it to look at the time even tho its on the lock screen *unlocks phone and starts opening and closing random apps* *puts down phone* what time is it?

-i have three days to do this essay, gonna get it done on time! *spends two free days scrolling through social media and chatrooms* oh sht oh sht oh sht oh sht

-”CAN YOU STOP CRACKING YOUR KNUCKLES??????”

-”why are you picking at your lips/fingers/scabs?” i dont know “why not” i just dont okay?? “why dont you know??” and so on

-WHY AM I NOT UNDERSTANDING THIS OMG IM SO DUMB AND I CANT ASK FOR HELP BC THEY’LL EXPLAIN IT SEVENTY MILLION TIMES AND I STILL WONT GET IT I DONT WANNA BE A BURDEN 

-*wakes up at 3 am* GOTTA GET MY wHOLE FCKIN LIFE TOGETHER LETS DO THIS THING!!!!!! *aggressively cleans room/house*

-*internally, sometimes out loud if alone* okay hon, let’s stop procrastinating, we need to do this this and this if you want to keep your grades up/it’s alright, stop freaking out, it’s all gonna be fine, okay?/you need to make sure to do this before bed bc you’re not gonna want to do it tomorrow. “okay, i’ll do it later.” no, let’s do it now, trust me it’s better. “okay…”

-”TURN YOUR MUSIC DOWN, YOU’RE GONNA GO DEAF!!”

-I WANT TO DO ALL THE THINGS !!!

-I dont want to do anything…

-Am i being annoying? “no” are you sure? 

-BRAIN ISTG IF YOU DONT SHUT UP

-*thinking about event that happened weeks, months, or even years ago* oh my god i was such an idiot/why did i do that???/oh my god they probably hate me for that

-omg i hurt you didnt i?? “no, how would you have hurt me?” i dont know, i just know i did!! 

-apologizing too much

-leg bouncing

-hyperfixation/moments of intense passion followed by a period of disinterest

feel free to add, i want ppl to know what it’s like living with this little demon in the back of your mind

7 most adhd moods

–the Only Mood everyone else knows about: i  wanna do THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and–SQUIRREL

–galaxy brain: i was listening to the lecture but the prof said something that reminded me of something else and now i’m not sure how much time i was lost in thought

–the tutorial only comes in video format: i’m sorry, but you’ve thrown off the emperor’s groove *hurls product & its tutorial video into the sun*

–damn you hyperfocus: i went to bed intending to wake up and write but this morning i was possessed by a cleanliness spirit and spent the next 14 hours organizing the apartment

–i dont think u tried at all.jpg: did i seriously spend an entire free day refreshing twitter b/c i didn’t want to spend 10 minutes finishing my hw but wouldn’t let myself do anything else until i finished it???? (yes)

–patrick star: *unlocks phone* time to check the weather. *opens twitter* the weather. *opens messenger* the weather. *opens mobage game* the weather. *opens facebook* the weather. *opens twitter again* THE WEA–

–smells like depression: literally everything is too boring. i’m going back to sleep

ADHD Gothic

You have instructions written down. You don’t need them, but you check them anyway. Somehow they’re different from what you remember. Have they changed since you tucked the paper in your pocket? 

You realize that you’ve lost your train of thought. You can’t remember what you were thinking before. There is only your present thought, now a loop of panic at your lost memory. 

You stop in the middle of a room. Why are you here? Which room did you come from? You leave the room and remember what you were going to do. You walk back into the room. Why are you here? 

You bring up an inside joke with a friend. They look at you blankly. They do not remember this joke. But you were there when I made it, you argue. They were not. They are not the friend you are thinking of. You realize it was your other friend, from work instead of high school, with blond hair instead of brown, tall instead of short. You do not know how these two friends are so similar in your mind. 

You refer to every experience as happening “the other day.” Was it three years ago or yesterday? You try to remember context clues. Time is not real. 

Someone asks you for an important piece of information. You have not thought about it since you saved it on your computer, labelled very clearly. You search through your files. It is not there. You find it days later by accident, labelled with a cryptic set of codes. You don’t know why you would label it this way. No one else uses this computer but you. 

You are running late. You are always running late. 

You have lost something. You check everywhere. You check everywhere again. Someone tells you to think of when you last had it. You don’t tell them that is the problem. 

You reach the end of the page. You can’t remember what you just read. 

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