I Feel So Attacked Right Now

i feel so attacked right now

Ah. That....... Suddenly makes much more sense.....

finding out people dont usually add numbers by first adding something to make a ten (for example 7+6= 7 plus 3 is 10 plus another 3 is 13) & that its actually an adhd thing is the WILDEST shit literally ive lived like 10 years (or however old i was when i learned to add and stuff) thinking thats how everyone does it. what the fuck

Everyone needs their own signature look. Even if it’s ripped off from your favourite character from a film you like, maybe it’s just wearing the same coat you love till you wear it out completely, a favourite repetitive colour or a style from another era, perhaps a person you’ve read about, fiction or non-fiction, real or not has inspired you. The point is, we all need to find that special way of dressing ourselves that makes us feel like the main character of our own private novel.

-Being unable to process verbal lessons, but doing better when given a book or packet to work off of with the teacher.

the joys of adhd

-”do this please” okay **fifteen minutes later** “did you do it??” what?

-*picks up phone to look at time* hm let’s unlock it to look at the time even tho its on the lock screen *unlocks phone and starts opening and closing random apps* *puts down phone* what time is it?

-i have three days to do this essay, gonna get it done on time! *spends two free days scrolling through social media and chatrooms* oh sht oh sht oh sht oh sht

-”CAN YOU STOP CRACKING YOUR KNUCKLES??????”

-”why are you picking at your lips/fingers/scabs?” i dont know “why not” i just dont okay?? “why dont you know??” and so on

-WHY AM I NOT UNDERSTANDING THIS OMG IM SO DUMB AND I CANT ASK FOR HELP BC THEY’LL EXPLAIN IT SEVENTY MILLION TIMES AND I STILL WONT GET IT I DONT WANNA BE A BURDEN 

-*wakes up at 3 am* GOTTA GET MY wHOLE FCKIN LIFE TOGETHER LETS DO THIS THING!!!!!! *aggressively cleans room/house*

-*internally, sometimes out loud if alone* okay hon, let’s stop procrastinating, we need to do this this and this if you want to keep your grades up/it’s alright, stop freaking out, it’s all gonna be fine, okay?/you need to make sure to do this before bed bc you’re not gonna want to do it tomorrow. “okay, i’ll do it later.” no, let’s do it now, trust me it’s better. “okay…”

-”TURN YOUR MUSIC DOWN, YOU’RE GONNA GO DEAF!!”

-I WANT TO DO ALL THE THINGS !!!

-I dont want to do anything…

-Am i being annoying? “no” are you sure? 

-BRAIN ISTG IF YOU DONT SHUT UP

-*thinking about event that happened weeks, months, or even years ago* oh my god i was such an idiot/why did i do that???/oh my god they probably hate me for that

-omg i hurt you didnt i?? “no, how would you have hurt me?” i dont know, i just know i did!! 

-apologizing too much

-leg bouncing

-hyperfixation/moments of intense passion followed by a period of disinterest

feel free to add, i want ppl to know what it’s like living with this little demon in the back of your mind

[IMAGE ID: tweet from ‘freetofic’ reading:

“ADHD culture is not knowing:

-when to ask for help b/c ‘overwhelmed w/things to do’ is your normal, default state

-how to ask for help b/c you don’t even know how to describe what needs doing, so organizing the help would be more work than just doing it yourself”

Posted 9:49 AM on 1st December 2019]

going back to an old hyperfixation like