I Still Remember Third Of December

I still remember third of December

but really I just want to forget her

why did I feel anything for you

and why is it that i still do?

i feel so scared of losing you

but i still wish I could let you go

just trust me when i tell you

if I did let you go, you would know

I wrote a song😨

I have the lyrics, just not the BGM.

“Pitiful Waste” - Lapis

TW

Lyrics:

If you or someone else is struggling, ask for help.

To all the people who are suffering or considering harming themselves, this is for you.

He’ll never be a real guy.

He knows it.

He always asks himself ‘why,’

‘Why was I born like this?’

It hurts too much.

The world is full of hate.

His life sucks,

A pitiful waste.

The cuts increased on his left arm

He used anything he could to harm himself

From broken chargers to plastic stars

Or the mint ribbon on the shelf

It hurts too much.

The world is full of hate.

His life sucks,

A pitiful waste.

The pain escalates and hurts

It stays season to season

He’s getting worse and worse

He hasn’t told anyone

It hurts too much.

The world is full of hate.

His life sucks,

A pitiful waste.

When he ends it,

It’ll all be gone.

No more Lapis,

Just this dumb song.

I never knew how much I needed her

until i lost her, now left alone and left a mess

living without her is like trying to live without water

drowning deep into a pool of my own loneliness

seeing you like this

it's made me feel pain I've never felt before

a world devoid of good things and bliss

but how can I help, how can i do more?

sometimes I wonder why love is so hard

but i guess that's because it's to die for

cause every time I see her with him, icy shards

encase my heart, so yes, it's a goddamn war

(but I've already lost)