James-is-here - James/Haneul/Jamie

𝙼𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙺𝚗𝚘𝚠

𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜, 𝚋𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍

[Redesigned: Dec 16, 2023]

𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝙺𝚊𝚒 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚊 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙, 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚍𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚛 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙, 𝚂𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚢 𝙺𝚒𝚍𝚜.

𝙷𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚎𝚛 𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍. 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊 𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚎, 𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙 𝚜𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚕𝚢.

𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗’𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚗?

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙷𝚢𝚞𝚗𝚓𝚒𝚗'𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚘𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚙𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜.

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• 𝙱𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚗

• 𝙻𝚎𝚎 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚑𝚘

• 𝚂𝚎𝚘 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚋𝚒𝚗

• 𝙷𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝙷𝚢𝚞𝚗𝚓𝚒𝚗

• 𝙷𝚊𝚗 𝙹𝚒𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚐

• 𝙻𝚎𝚎 𝙵𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚡 𝚈𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚋𝚘𝚔

• 𝙺𝚒𝚖 𝚂𝚎𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚖𝚒𝚗

• 𝚈𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝙹𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚒𝚗

𝙳𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚊 𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚗 𝚊𝚝 2 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐.

𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚢 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜, 𝙸'𝚖 𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚜 𝙸 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚛 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊 𝚖𝚊𝚕𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚊𝚕𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚏𝚒𝚡𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚏𝚒𝚡𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚕.

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 "𝙼𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝙶𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙 𝙼𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜" 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚏 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜, 𝙸 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚌 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚜𝚘 𝙸 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚝𝚘 "𝙼𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙺𝚗𝚘𝚠"

Wooo! 🥳

This is a writing where my character, Hwa Kai, is mostly seen as the cold, kinda reserved member of Stray Kids. Almost always having a straight face and looking like he's always in a mood but really he's a sweetheart.

My first story written on my Chromebook of the new school year. Yay! I finished this with 13% battery left because my charger isn't plugged in near my bed and I didn't want to get up yet 😅.

I can also use 'keep reading' now which I'm happy about!

(Yeah, I have now graduated and don’t have the Chromebook anymore 😅 and its finished but obviously haven’t posted it yet.)

"Isn't it a little early to be asleep?" Chan hears the amusement laced in the dancer's tone before turning his head to find Hyunjin’s gaze directed to Hwa Kai’s slumbering figure curled up on the couch.

"Let him be. We've all been busy and we had a long flight a couple days ago." Chan scolds lightly, humming when he brushes Kai’s hair from his face and then adjusts his blanket so he doesn’t get too cold.

Hyunjin notes their attire and furrows his brows together in curiosity. "You're leaving?" He questions and Felix nods his head. "We're just going on a walk to relax. It's not everyday we get to go out of the country." He responds casually when he adjusts the hat on his head before slipping his shoes on.

The ferret pouts a little at that and plops on the floor to lean back on the couch in front of Kai. "I wanna go out too but I feel so lazy today." He groans, earning a laugh from Changbin when he stands back up and grabs his hat. Chan has to silence him just so his voice doesn't wake you. "If Kai wakes up, have him come with you."

"But Hyung is tired." He reasons, hesitant to ask him since he knew how Kai could be whenever he was running low on energy. He didn't want to possibly ruin his mood more.

Chan is already dismissing the thought with a wave of his hand. "Just ask and if he doesn't want to, you can always ask the others when they come back." He suggests when they head for the door. "We'll see you later."

"Take care." Hyunjin calls after them, staring at the door once it's shut and he lets out a breath, a pout resting on his features as he looks back at the male next to him. He honestly has no idea why he decided to leave his bed to sleep on the couch, but he can't really do anything to make him go back since he would feel bad about having to ruin his sleep.

The boys know how little he's been getting lately so he does his best to keep quiet just so Kai can rest.

Judging by his tired expression, he knows that he would be needing it for the rest of the tour.

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It's been well over two hours since Hyunjin had been alone with Kai. Han entered the room at some point and left some food on the table, but as soon as he did, Minho was coming to collect the rapper so they could both go sightseeing, explaining that IN was already waiting in the hall.

And while they did ask Hyunjin if he wanted to come with them, a quick glance at Kai had him shaking his head and stating that he would be fine at the hotel.

They merely smiled at him before saying to call if he needed anything.

He wished that he went with them, because not even ten minutes after they left, Hyunjin was bored out of his mind, having given up on his phone and finished scrolling through random apps.

When he peeked over at Kai again, he assumed that he was finally awake, but he only stirred a little and moved to his side before sleep once more took over. He had to hold his breath the whole time before sighing heavily.

At first he found it funny how much he was sleeping today, but after a while and some noise from him clumsily tripping over a chair and the dual hair male had yet to react, he was a little more worried than anything.

Kai wasn't exactly a heavy sleeper, but it was clear that he was more tired than he let on.

By the third hour, Hyunjin finds his back against the couch, his phone playing a little bit of music while he randomly draws on the sketchpad he had packed with him for this trip. Some of his thoughts would be strewn about, nothing specific, a doodle of pie and his SKZOO in another page before he finally ended with a blank.

Pouting at the lack of inspiration, Hyunjin turns his head, Kai’s arm on clear display with his tattoo in his sights. The idea came before he could even think it over and one of his markers was soon on his skin, filling some portions of his tattoo with color as the raven haired boy hummed along to the song.

He remembers Kai first getting this one. It was the very first of many and he smiles a little to himself when he remembers how much Kai stressed about getting it. Since it was something he would forever have on his skin, it took months into considering the design before finally deciding to get it, much to his fans and members' delight.

He was happy to see the contentment on his face when he showed it off the first time. He didn't understand the sentiment at first, but after countless probing from not only the boys, he ended up explaining the tattoo in one of his Lives.

As quiet as Kai was, the boys knew how far his imagination could reach. But the meaning behind the tattoo would probably be one of his favorites of Kai’s stories when he told them how it symbolizes the people in his life.

Like a puzzle piece, he told them, every one of them fit into his life and made Kai whole. Each piece is designed to portray each member in black ink-work. He's embarrassed to admit that he teared up when he told them, but he had only given them all a smile afterwards.

The simplicity of the design held something deeper and that was enough for him.

It's only when Hyunjin reaches for the third color does he pause though and take a proper look at his handiwork. When he followed the length of Kai’s arm and saw his face, his own was drained of color and he promptly dropped his marker. Dread filled his entire body when he finally realized what he'd done and he scrambled to gather his things and flee from the scene before Kai could wake up.

"Yah! What are you doing?"

Changbin’s sudden entry, along with his panicked state, causes his head to collide with the coffee table right after picking his marker up, and the rest of his things scatter to the floor, the noise being enough to finally wake Kai up.

He was so screwed.

Hyunjin whines while rubbing his head, pouting as he sits on the carpeted floor before the sound of Kai’s deep groggy voice reaches his ears. "Hyunjin-ie?" He swears he wants the ground to swallow him whole at that given moment when he slowly turns his head, a nervous smile on his face when he looks up at the male whilst the rest of the members enter the room.

Felix looked a little surprised when he saw Kai’s now colored tattoo, but before he could say anything, Hyunjin was already scrambling to his feet and distanced himself in the event Kai grew upset.

"Hyung! You're finally awake." He tries not to get him to notice when he stretches and then rubs his eyes. "What time is it?" Kai asks while reaching for his phone and everyone watches as everything goes in slow motion for Hyunjin.

By the time he held the device in his hand, Kai’s eyes caught the now colorful puzzle piece on his arm, forcing himself to sit up to properly assess himself whilst Felix shot the panicking ferret a worried glance.

Kai had to do a double take since his mind was still a bit hazy, but once he saw that it was indeed colored in, he took a quick look at his members, the confusion plastered over Kai’s face before he's turning his gaze to the scared boy who was already bowing with apologies spilling from his lips.

"You colored my tattoo?" None of them can quite read his expression as he stared at the design again, so Jeongin moves to join him on the couch just so he could hopefully soothe him in the event it was needed. With his head on Kai’s shoulder, he takes a look at the tattoo with him and smiles a little to himself.

“Hey, that doesn't look so bad." He offers and Hyunjin wants to stop the vocalist from saying anything that could possibly get him to his grave faster, only to pause when he sees the ghost of a smile playing at Kai’s lips when he nods his head. "It is."

"It... is?"

He wasn't sure if it was his fear tricking him into thinking that he weren't upset, but seeing the surprise on everyone's face promised him that it wasn't just him as he hesitantly came back to the couch where Nam gladly welcomed him.

"You did a really nice job, Hyunjin." He praised and he took a look at the tattoo again before his face lit up. "Hey, what else were you adding to this?" Everyone was caught off guard by the question and Hyunjin struggled to find his voice, looking up and meeting Changbin's equally lost gaze for a moment before the rapper shrugged his shoulders, gesturing to the markers right after.

Carefully, he turned back to him before answering. "I was just coloring it." He mumbles and Kai hum before extending his arm in his direction, puzzling the younger for a moment while he just grinned softly at the younger boy. "Mind showing me the whole thing?"

Hyunjin looked to and from before he faced the two eldest members, seeing that they're both just as dumbfounded by the turn of events. Frankly, they were prepared for the worst as soon as Changbin caught Hyunjin filling his tattoo, but seeing how Kai attentively watched the Ravenette fill it with new ink, adding a few comments here and there to tell him that he liked the design, they all relaxed before finally proceeding further into the room.

Chan even giggled when he finally let the whole thing sink in. This would surely be another story that Stays would find amusing in the future. But as Chan took a peek later on to see how Kai and Hyunjin were doing, the leader smiled when he saw that Kai and Jeongin had now been accompanied by Han and Seungmin, talking about the tattoo and its new design.

This was probably one of the rare times they've seen him so relaxed, giggling along with the rest of the maknae line as all five of them, since Felix complained about being left out, happily chatted about the plans for the following days.

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"I had lunch with my family yesterday." Changbin shared, seeing that people were asking for a TMI. "I was joking about them treating me, but they really didn't let me pay anything. I tired to but they really wouldn't let me." He said with wide eyes, a faux amazed look on his face as he threw a thumbs up and Hyunjin Chuckled. "Seriously, they're amazing."

"You're boasting about your family again?" Kai chuckled when he entered the room, joining the pair, but they happily welcomed him, waving the black and blue haired male over and gesturing for him to sit down. "They were asking for TMI." The rapper explains and he nods his head in understanding, looking at the screen to see various people commenting his name so he can do a TMI.

Kai smile a little and wave before Hyunjin nudges him. "What about you?" He inquires and he has to think for a minute, racking his brain for anything interesting to tell everyone before he snaps his fingers. "Oh! I went back to the shop a couple days ago." he tells him, and Hyunjin looked a little confused before Namji rolled up his sleeve to reveal his now colored tattoo.

"It's pretty, right?" Hyunjin's face exploded in a million shades of red when he recognized the design, covering his suddenly burning face, while Changbin marveled at the sight, peering at the inked skin in wonder. Overwhelmed, Hyunjin lightly smacked Kai arm when his face cooled down, forcing it down and away from view. "Yah! I didn't know you were going to color it!" He screamed and he can only give him a confused look while rolling his sleeve back down.

"I told you that I liked it." It was his simple answer before he looked back at the camera as though it wasn't a big deal. "Hyunjin colored it when I was sleeping one day-"

"I was so scared."

He waves the comment away with a playful shrug and then continues whilst Changbin giggles in the background. "You should have seen Hyunjin's face that day." He claims. "He colored my tattoo because he got bored, but the outcome was really nice." Namji went on when Changbin took his arm again to inspect the design. "I haven't told the members about it yet, so this is the first reveal to everyone." He tells them and Hyunjin went quiet for a few good minutes, flustered that he had actually enjoyed his design so much to have it added into Kai’s already meaningful piece.

He was hit with a strong feeling of happiness and he couldn't help but cling to him for the entirety of the live. He had gotten a little shy while Kai and Changbin interacted with the fans, though the latter did send him teasing little grins every now and then.

"Hyung's tattoos all look so pretty that l'm considering getting one." he pouted, feeling a little envious of the designs Kai had on his body. "But it's so hard choosing a design." He adds before Kai lightly pats his head. "You can try sketching out some designs of your own or you can search for stuff online."

The conversation is lost in Hyunjin's head until they all decide to head back to the dorm. Even when he sees Kai conversing with the rest of the members, Hyunjin can't fight off the feeling of pride swelling in his chest whenever he catches sight of his new design.

"It added more meaning to what I already had. Not only am I complete, but it's like there's more life with how much color there is in my life."

Kai Finds Something Down Under

This is my first actually detailed smut, be kind 😅

Topics: Blowjob (K and BC receive), I don’t know what else to put, pls let me know if there’s something specific I missed pls.

Kai woke up feeling great, ready to learn from others' lead.

He promptly gets out of bed as soon as his alarm goes off, quickly making his bed. He can't help but smile slightly as he places his WolfChan plush and Dweakki on his pillow before checking his phone.

He's already receiving messages from a few others and his new manager, who informed him that a car would be arriving outside his dorm to pick him up.

Locking his phone, he grins to himself, still not believing the fact he’s in a group, a big group nonetheless so he’s also a little bit nervous.

As he enters his bedroom, he puts his phone down on the soft bedspread and walks towards the closet. He wants to dress to impress, but comfort is just as important to him. After giving it some thought, he decides to go for a trendy yet effortless look. He picks a pair of stylish bleach-spotted ripped jeans and pairs them with his favorite blue tie-dye shirt. To stay warm in the chilly weather, he adds a cozy baby blue hoodie and layers it with a sleek leather jacket. He takes a final glance in the mirror and feels confident that he looks great in his well-coordinated outfit.

He finishes off his outfit with a pair of blue high-top sneakers adorned with red flower embroidery, adding a pop of color to his look. After hopping off his bed, he reaches for his trusty cross-body bag, which is adorned with a WolfChan keychain. He carefully places his phone, charging pack, chapstick, and other essentials inside, including a small pill container for emergencies and a couple of fidget rings. He also takes great care to include his lucky (G)-idle Soyeon photocard, which he never leaves behind.

As his mind drifts away, a familiar tune emanates from his phone, indicating an incoming message. He glances at the screen and notices that it's from his manager, who kindly reminds him that he's patiently waiting in the car parked downstairs.

As he emerged from his room, he couldn't help but question himself, "Did it really take me a whole hour to get ready?" He quickly brushed off his self-doubt, waved goodbye to his fellow trainee in the dorm, and made his way downstairs towards the van that would take him to his destination.

"Hello, sir," Kai greeted the older gentleman. "Hey Kai, how do you feel? You got out here awfully quick," the gentleman replied. "Uh, a bit jittery and excited. To be honest, I'm scared as well," Kai confessed. "You'll be great. You look good too. This outfit style fits you well," the gentleman complimented. Kai blushed slightly and scratched his cheek. "Thank you, sir," he replied.

As Kai sat next to the manager, he couldn't help but feel nervous. The manager noticed Kai's trembling hands and decided to strike up a conversation to ease his nerves. He made small talk about the weather, the office, and other trivial topics while maintaining eye contact with Kai. Despite his anxiety, Kai appreciated the manager's effort and began to relax as they chatted.

Upon arriving at the building, the manager places a reassuring hand on Kai's shoulder and guides him inside with a smile.

They took an elevator to a couple of floors up, and then stopped in front of a door. "We will be meeting together in the dorm. The four guys who live here should be back soon from the company. I'm going to get the other four boys, and then you can finally meet them. Are you okay with that?" He asked as he unlocked the door. Kai let out a shuddery breath.

"Um, yeah, meeting my idols and inspirations makes me a bit nervous, but I think I'll be okay," stuttered Kai. The manager smiled and patted his head reassuringly. "Don't worry, you'll be just fine. From what I've learned, you're just like them," he said with a nod before walking away.

Kai stepped hesitantly into the unlocked dorm and found it a bit messy, but not an eyesore.

He was instructed to wait, but being alone, he didn't know what to do with himself.

He sits awkwardly on the couch, panicking and holding his stomach, the nervous bubbles brewing inside making him sick, but he knows it's just anxiety and nervousness.

As he hears a thumping sound on the nearby wall, he jumps and turns towards it to ensure that he is just imagining things and there is no one present. He doesn't feel mentally and physically prepared to face any of them without the presence of the manager.

As he heard the sound again, he stood up slowly and cautiously walked to the end of the hall. He listened closely, wondering if the dorm wasn't empty and someone was present. His gut told him to ignore it, but he couldn't shake the feeling that one of the boys who lived there might need help. However, he didn't want to just barge into their room, and knocking felt awkward.

He reaches the center of the hallway and pauses, listening to a sound emanating from his left. He notices that one of the doors is ajar.

He knows he shouldn’t, but he can’t resist his curiosity, so he peeks through the slightly open door. The door opens to the right, revealing a wall and part of a closet.

Kai could hear two voices coming from inside the room, but he couldn't recognize who they were. He decided to ignore them and stay hidden. Suddenly, two figures appeared near the slightly open door, directly in front of Kai's sight. If they looked over, they would easily spot Kai.

He covered his mouth with his hand as his eyes widened and he trembled.

He now saw clearly that Bang Chan had pinned Lee Felix to the wall. Felix’s eyes were closed and his mouth opened wide as Chan was buried in the other's neck.

Kai observed the older male biting his neck and realized they weren't just kissing.

Kai was watching them fuck on the wall.

Kai blushed brightly and averted his gaze, moving away from the open door to stand against the wall. He kept his hand over his mouth, out of sight.

What the fuck just happened? Are they doing what he thinks he saw?

Felix was in the middle of a moan when he choked on a gasp as Chan bit him hard and stuttered, "Ah! H-Hyung, M-Manager-nim said he's bringing the..." Before he could finish, he was interrupted by a gasp. "T-The new guy here soon," he continued. Chan, who was listening patiently, replied, "Yes, that's exactly what he said. He mentioned that the new member would arrive shortly. So, let me finish what I started." it sounded like he was still kissing the younger's neck.

He stood still, gazing down at the floor in front of him, trembling but not taking a step.

Why are you not moving? You are not supposed to be here! You should not be listening to this!

Kai remained frozen as his eyes fixated on the keychain attached to his bag, the realization hitting him as hard as a bus.

Chan is fucking Felix…

Holy Shit, Chan is fucking Felix?!?!

His face turns red and he steps back in fear when the floor creaks beneath his feet.

“What was that?” He heard Felix whine, assuming Chan stopped moving.

“I don't know," he hears him mumble. Then he calls out, "Is someone there?

Kai's eyes were fixated on the rug lying in front of him. He felt a surge of panic rising within him and struggled to control his heavy breathing. His hand was still clasped over his mouth as if trying to hold back from making any noise. Despite his best efforts to calm down, his heart was pounding loudly in his chest, making it hard for him to think straight.

As he utters a shaky "Hello?", his body tenses up and his eyes dart around the room frantically. Gradually, he regains his composure and straightens up, taking a deep breath. A wave of relief washes over him as he realizes that Chan didn't peek out into the hallway to see him. His chest loosens up and he feels a sense of calm settling in.

He hears Felix release a muffled gasp. The dancer looking at Chan with wide eyes when he didn’t recognize the voice. “Who are you? When did you get here?”

To say the situation didn’t spur Chan on would be a lie as he moved slightly and Felix smacked him. “Uh… I-I’m MinLee Kai…Y-Your group's new member. U-Uh, Y-Your manager j-just dropped m-me off.”

A strangled moan melting into a gasp had Kai’s eyes widen. Are they still going? While I’m talking to them??

Chan smiled and dropped his head to Felix’s shoulder who wrapped his arms around the older male's neck tightly as spurts of cum get on both their abdomens and drip down his length.

Kai's voice trembled as he spoke, "A-Are you guys Okay?" His eyes darted around the room, searching for any signs of movement. He realized he had made a mistake by using the phrase "you guys" when Chan was the only one who had spoken so far. He felt his heart race as he asked, "How do you know if there's someone else here?" Panic set in, and Kai's mind raced as he contemplated his next move. He knew he was in trouble and he had no idea what to do next.

“Come here.” “W-What?” “You saw, didn’t you?” “S-Saw what? I-I just got here.”

In the middle of their conversation, they were suddenly interrupted by the sound of the front door creaking open. Startled, he immediately turned around to investigate and noticed that the door to the room the two were in had been shut. The suddenness of the interruption left Kai feeling awkward. Did Chan seriously ask him to join?

“Kai? Oh, there you are. What are you doing down there?” The manager asks as Kai watches the other guys walk in. “U-Um, s-sorry, I was curious of what the rest of-of the place looked. I-I’m sorry if I over stepped.” Kai stuttered heavily and he saw what looked like a look of sympathy from Jisung.

“It’s okay. Come, let’s sit on the couch, I couldn’t find Chan and Felix though, you boys know where they are?” They shake their heads as Kai sits on the other long portion of the couch with the manager.

Suddenly both of them walk out from down the hall and Kai looks up from his hands, making eye contact with Chan before lookin at his hands.

He could see his eyes were still glossed over with a strong emotion as he sat closest to Kai, they sat in age order and Kai’s nervousness grew tenfold. He’s sitting with his inspiration but he also just saw Chan and Felix.

His mouth suddenly became dry and his breathing picked up. He was overwhelmed, thinking of everything and nothing, he was scared.

Even though eye contact with him was weird, he looked at Chan who wore an expression of concern. “Are you okay?” he saw his lips move and looked around to see the others expressions.

“W-Where’s the bathroom?” The manager placed a hand on his shoulder and pointed across from them. Kai got up and ran to the bathroom, shutting the door closed and leaning against it before sinking to sit on his heels.

He’s panicking, freaking out, nothing is processing, he’s overwhelmed.

A knock cuts through his thoughts and he hears Jisung. “Kai?” He inhales shakily and chokes out a reply. “I think I know what you’re going through and I’m sorry.” “W-Why are you a-apologizing?” “I-I just feel bad that you got to this point. I don’t know exactly what got you this way but it’s okay. I heard you know us so you should know we won’t hurt you, you know that right?”

Yeah, they were his comfort, the people he watched when he had a bad day, a bad practice, they cheered him up.

He stood up and opened the door, wiping his eyes and being greeted by a smiling Jisung who slowly opens his arms.

Kai shyly walks into them and hugs him back. His thoughts slow down and he relaxes into Jisung’s shoulder where his head sat. “I never thought I’d get a hug from any of you in my life.” He chuckles softly as he pulls back.

He walks back to sit next to the manager again, he looks at Chan, freezing slightly before apologizing. A barely noticeable wink from Chan before he said it was okay had Kai internally jump in his skin. He knows Kai thought as they carried on with getting to know Kai more.

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After introductions and Kai learning more about the boys, learning more than Stays have ever known, they realize they talked well into the night.

Although they have drivers, they didn’t want Kai to go alone, already grown to liking the male. They’ve learned he’s older than Changbin but younger than Minho.

He goes to go to the front door with the manager when he’s stopped. “Do you want to stay in one of our dorms? You’re fun to be around and I wanna know more about you.” Jisung asked as he held his arm.

“It’s okay, Kai. Do you want me to get clothes from your roommate or?” “No, I’m fine with my hoodie and jeans.” “Nonsense, I have extra sweats.” “Oh, I-I don’t…” He went to turn to Chan but he was already back to his room.

“Have a good night. Good night boys.” Variations of ‘good night sir’ came from the others when Chan came back.

“I-I appreciate the sweats but…” “What’s wrong?” “I-It’s embarrassing…” “Embarrassing?” “I-I’m… commando…under these…th-that’s w-why I denied the clothes, I thought it was inappropriate so I was just gonna deal with the jeans since w-we just met a-and I just feel awkward…uh, not wearing anything…with your clothes…”

After Kai’s embarrassing rant, all Chan does is smile before lowering the waist band of his own pants. “Just so you know cause you’ll learn at some point, most of us are commando when we’re dressed for sleep.” “I-I…th-that’s crazy to know now but I just feel wrong.”

Kai goes to push the sweats back to Chan but he insists. “It’s okay, I promise.” He says again and the blonde watches Chan give him a stern look but shocks Chan when the older sees that it didn’t work. Is Kai like him?

“Fine…Only cause my zipper is sharp...” he mutters and takes the clothing to the bathroom.

He does his business and puts the sweat pants on, a little bit jittery that he’s wearing his biases clothing. Inside his fanboying so hard and he’s honestly so happy to be given this opportunity.

He leaves the bathroom, asking where he can put his jeans before Chan once again offers and takes them to the laundry room then comes back out with a pillow a blanket.

“If it’s okay, you can sleep on the couch. Thought it might be awkward to suggest rooming with one of us.” Kai smiles and takes both objects and sets them next to him. “Thank you.”

Chan sat on his other side and stayed there. Even as the other members left for their rooms or the Maknae’s and Minho went to their dorm to go to bed.

Kai had laid down at some point with the pillow he was given and dozed off to a video on his phone.

He could still hear the tv and other noises as he imagined things in the void behind his eyelids.

His small dreams were interrupted when he heard whispering. “H-Hyung- Chan, No, he’s right there.” When did Felix come back? What were they doing?

“I swear he was there earlier with us, the only difference is that he’s next to us.” Chan said as he continued to kiss Felix’s neck and bring him closer. “That’s the problem. He shouldn’t know about us.” Us? Is it just them or all of them?

“He’ll find out eventually. Some of us can’t go five hours without needing some stimulation.” Chan mutters into the dancers neck. “Wanna know something?” “What now?” “Kai told me that he was commando under his jeans.” “Okay, and?” “He’s currently only wearing my sweats.” Chan smirks as he finally gets Felix in his lap and kisses his cheek.

“Really?” He asked curiously. “Yeah, why don’t you see for yourself.” “What?!” He whispered, staring at Chan in shock that he’d even suggest it. “Chan, you crazy?! He just got here.” Kai moves to lay on his back. He’s yelling at himself for even thinking about moving but honestly the thought has crossed his mind, I mean, come on…

Stray Kids is fucking attractive.

“Aw, look. He’s presenting himself.” “Cunt, he’s moving to get more comfortable. He’s asleep, idiot.” “Come on, Lix.” Chan kissed his cheek, his hands rubbing up his sides softly when footsteps were heard and Jisung appears, a little groggy. “If you do anything, be as quiet as possible.” “Of course, Sungie.” Chan says with a smile and the rapper nods, not completely coherent as he goes back to his room.

Jisung knows what’s going on?

He suddenly has the urge to jerk when he feels a hand at the hem of his hoodie and it gets raised up. Light fingers graze his toned stomach before going to his waistband. “That’s it, Lix.”

Felix huffs and gets off his lap, shoving him away as he giggles and watches the boy settle at a better angle to sit on his heels and hesitantly pull down the waist band and expose Kai who resisted the urge to react and continue to act asleep.

“H-He’s already half hard…” Felix mutters and reaches his finger up to drag it from the tip to the base, his dick twitching slightly.

“Go on, Felix. Have fun with the newbie.” Chan said in a smooth casual tone as he leaned back and watched him wrap a hand around Kai from over Felix’s shoulder and the younger took the head into his mouth, swirling his tongue around the tip before going over the slit and back to licking.

“That’s it, good Lixie.” Chan praised and got up behind Felix. Felix pulled off the tip and looked at his hand. “Shit, he’s big.” “How big?” “M-More than…all of us…Fuck.” “Really?” Chan asked shocked as he combed his hand through Felix’s hair.

Kai’s breath hitched when Felix went back on and further then his tip, trying to fit as much as he could. “Aw, look.” Felix didn’t pull off but looked up to see Kai’s chest rising and falling rapidly. Felix exhaled slowly through his nose before slowly sinking further down, a triumphant whine mixed with a moan escaping him when he managed to take all of Kai in and his nose reached his pelvis.

“Good Job, Lixie. Who would’ve thought you could still take a new cock.” He hums and rubs against the couch below him.

Felix adjusted a bit before finally moving his head up and down. Kai tried to be faking sleep a little longer before he let out a breathy grunt and opened his eyes, looking down at Felix before looking at Chan who smirked. “Look who’s awake.” “F-Fuck.” He sighs and puts his head back on the pillow. His hands twitching next to him before his right hand was grabbed by Chan and placed on Felix’s head.

“It’s okay.” Chan reassured and Kai pants slightly, staring at Chan for a moment before grunting, slowly moving to lean back on his left elbow and grip the dancers hair after combing his fingers though it to grab the long stands a pull him closer.

“Fuck…ing hell…I-I don’t know w-what’s ha-happening but a-as a fan, I-I’m freaking out, ah shit!” Felix has his eyes closed, enjoying the cock resting heavily on his tongue as he licks a vein before moving to the slit. “Why’s that?” Chan smirks as he moves Felix to his knees and removes his shorts before removing his own sweats.

“M-My b-bias wrecker is…” He’s cut off with a whine before he grips Felix’s hair tighter, pulling him impossibly closer. “Fuuck~ swallowing my dick, how else am I-I supposed to react?” He pants and almost falls backwards off his arm when Felix digs his nails into Kai’s legs, constricting his throat which squeezes around his tip.

“Who’s your bias?” Kai smirks, he voice suddenly a stark smoothness as he holds Felix’s head down and his eyes stare directly into Chan’s eyes. “Looks like he’s about to fuck the wrecker.”

Chan laughs and enters Felix, leaning over him and pushing his back down. “Usually your place is taken by one of the others but look at his throat.” Chan wraps a hand around Felix’s neck and can feel it bulging, his comment going unheard by Kai as he exhales sharply and throws his head back. “I can feel you through it.” He squeezes his neck slightly and Chan groans, feeling Kai’s dick a little more from the outside and the male can feel the squeeze on his end too.

“I-Is he the only one?” Kai asked and Felix was feeling dizzy. “Shit.” Felix whines and tightened his throat. “Does he always act like this when he’s ignored?” “Yeah, but someday you should feel how he reacts from this end. Maybe even tonight.” Kai moans quietly and throws his head back again. “And no, if you like his, just wait for Hyunjin’s.”

“Oh fuck.” Kai whimpers loudly over Chan speaking and holds Felix’s head from bobbing and shoots down his throat. “Take it, Lix. Don’t stop.” Chan said as he himself went faster, hitting all the right spots in Felix as he pulled off of Kai and rested his cheek on his thigh. “Ah~ Ah~ H-Hyung, G-Gonna- ngh~ Please, I wanna c-cum please.” Kai thought he was just asking in general before Chan gripped his hair and made Felix look at Kai.

His eyes were filled with tears and his face flushed red, Kai always thought his freckles were cute but add the lewd look on his face, his tongue hanging out and saliva all over his mouth almost had Kai wanting to cum again. “I don’t know, Kai. Should he cum?” Kai looked back up to the older male with a shocked expression. “You go dom, right?” He grinned and stopped thrusting into Felix who whines. “P-Please~ K-Kai…” Felix begs breathlessly and Kai can’t take it.

“Fuck…No, I kinda wanna see how long he can go.” Chan smiles and pulls out of Felix who whines, it almost sounding like he’d start crying. “No…” He weakly protests, in this state, Kai finds his accent even more attractive.

“Wanna know more about Lixie?” Kai thoughtlessly nods and Chan reached forward, a hand going to the front of his neck as he pulls him up to sit back on Chan lap. Kai has to be dreaming, there’s no way in hell that his favorite members of his favorite group are currently in front of him, Chan holding Felix up by his neck, both half naked, with Chan’s free hand resting on Felix’s hip and Felix’s hands were clinging to Chan’s wrists.

“Hell, never thought I’d be in this position.” Felix stayed staring at the ceiling while catching his breath, leaning his head back against the closest part of Chan near him which was his shoulder. “Like it?” “U-Uh, Y-yeah…Yeah, I actually do…” Kai panted and laid back down for a moment as his chest slowed down to a less rapid speed.

“Kai.” Chan muttered and the blonde looked up, moving back to one of his elbows as he pushes a hand through his hair. “Huh?” “Lix, why don’t you be a good kitty and ride Kai?” Chan whispered loud enough and Kai watched Felix shudder with a breathless moan.

Chan takes Kai’s hand a places it where his hand was, leaving Kai in charge of Felix now. Kai turns his wrist, making Felix follow as he sat up and had Felix sit with his back facing him. “Wow, you seem like a natural.” “A-Actually, I-I’m new to being a dom…none of my o-old partners were into it, although it was just two.”

“Well, you’re good. Got him in that position faster than i’ve ever seen.” “H-Hyungs~” Felix whines and Chan smirks. “Go ahead, Kai.” He said giddily as he stood up and moved in front of Felix. Kai rubbed the smaller males hips before guiding his tip to Felix’s hole before pulling him down slowly. “Put it all in, he can take it.” Chan said before noticing his hesitance and pushing on Felix’s shoulders to make him sink all the way down in one move. “Shit, Kai is so big~ Ah~”

Felix leaned back against Kai with a content sigh and laced his hands with Kai’s to bring his arms to wrap around him. “Lix, I know you are trying to get comfortable but I want your mouth, lean forward again.” He huffs and throws his head back against Kai’s shoulder before letting go of his arms slight before leaning forward and looking up at Chan. “Cun- mm!” Felix was about to cuss at him when suddenly Chan shut him up with his cock. “You and that word, I swear.” Chan said through gritted teeth and clenched his fist in Felix’s hair when he playful bit him slightly. “D-Did he just-“ “Bite me? Yeah, he’s a twerp.” Chan replied and started using his throat.

Felix moved his hands to rest on Kai’s thighs that are between his own spread legs and gripped them, he was told to ride, so he will.

At first he rocked back and forth, feeling as yet another dick shaped him and stuffed him full. Chan was about to remind Felix when Kai beat him to the reins. “I thought Chan-Hyung said to ride me?” He said as he grabbed Felix’s hips and started thrusting right into the sensitive numb inside him that made him see stars.

His moans where interrupted with every thrust from both ends. Kai grabs his arms to pull them behind him as leverage for each thrust he’d pull Felix closer, going impossibly deeper. Suddenly he’s being pushed further down onto Kai and the cock in his throat goes deeper as Chan leaned over him, surprising Kai when he looks up from watching Felix bounce and his dick disapearing each time to suddenly be kissing Chan.

They don’t fight one another, their power equal as they make out and the both of them swallow each others noises when Kai yelps in shock and pulls away to look down when Felix stopped bouncing and Kai’s cock was all the way inside him, Felix clenched at being ignored and treated like nothing but a fuck thing apparently as he too came and tried his hardest to keep moving for Chan to finally release down his throat.

Felix pulls off of Chan and also most falls forward before Kai noticed, letting go of his arms to wrap an arm around his chest and around his stomach to pull him back and onto his chest.

“Felix?” Kai looked over him, his eyes were fluttering and soft moans escaped him as his hips rocked back and forth. “Ah, don’t- Hey…” Kai stutters, suddenly sensitive as he watched Chan lean closer to Felix.

“Lixie, bubby, come back.” Chan gently moves Felix to close his legs, Kai spreading his so Felix’s legs could sit comfortably between them as they pulled Felix back to reality.

Kai rubbed gentle circles onto the males abs and stomach under Felix’s soiled shirt, his thumb of his other hand moved back and forth softly over his collarbone. “Lixie, you there? You know where you are?” He closes his eyes and inhales deeply before practically melting back into Kai and releases a moan before panting.

“F-Felix?” Kai asks and he hums, turning his head into Kai’s neck. “Where are you?” “H-Home…” “You know who your with?” “Chan and Kai-Hyung…” He says breathlessly as he whines and tried to cuddle closer to Kai before he whines when he moves wrong, Kai still nestled inside him.

“Can I touch you, Kai? To help?” Chan asked and Kai deadpans. “Are you really asking that?” “Touché.” He said as Kai helped lift Felix and Chan slowly helped Kai out of Felix.

“Hold on.” Chan said suddenly when just his tip remains and he grabs his underwear and runs to his room, returning immediately after with a plug and removing Kai completely only to replace him with the plug as Felix whines and finally was able to freely move to curl into Kai’s chest while he looks at Chan with a questioning look he didn’t know he was giving. “He likes to be full.” He said casually.

“I know you were told that you could take the couch but you can go to Felix’s room if you’d like. Seems like he’s gonna cling to you tonight.” Chan smiles and helps to gently put Felix’s underwear back on and replace his messy shirt with his hoodie.

Kai tried to stand Felix up to dress himself as well but his legs were weak as he immediately fell into Chan’s arms who smiled and kissed the top of his head while Kai got his sweats back on.

Kai took the younger from Chan and picked him up, situating his legs around him and he was about to leave when Chan put a hand on his shoulder and turned him around to kiss him again deeply, playfully biting his lip before laughing and smiling at Kai as he walks next door to the other dorm, Felix burrowing further into Kai’s neck at the cold hallway and tightening his arms around his neck and whining out incoherent words.

Surprisingly, the other dorm is unlocked and his concern was answered when he saw Minho on the couch. “Finally, I can go to sleep without leaving the door unlocked.” He mutter but smiles at Felix in Kai’s arms. “He okay?” “Yeah. Exhausted but he’s okay.” “Why was the door open and your out here?” “I knew Felix hadn’t come back yet and whenever he’s over there, one of them bring him back. Didn’t know it was gonna be you though.” He’s making it sound like Felix just fell asleep at the other dorm. Is it just Felix and Chan? Do the others not know?

“I’m gonna go put him in his room. Goodnight, Minho.” “Goodnight, Kai.”

He follows Minho to the bedrooms and turns into the room Minho pointed to and he heart flutters when he sees Felix’s room is almost exactly how he pictured it to be. He walks over to the bed and moved the blanket to put Felix under them but he holds onto the other. “Stay…” He mumbles softly. “I am a stay.” Kai chuckles but moves to lay with him nonetheless as Felix whines and pulls him closer, grumbling at the cheesy joke before clinging to Kai.

He has no idea what just happened and how he got to this point but he’s surprisingly not surprised. He’s a bit prideful that he’s the only Stay the got to seem them like that.

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Holy Shit, He fucked Felix and Kissed Chan…and saw them naked…Damn…

Yay, First One with the members done. Honestly really proud, i’ve never written such detailed smut before. I hope you like it.

My best friend is going into Basic training soon and I don’t fucking know how I’m gonna be without him.

I literally spent half an hour crying cause as lame as it sounds he does a lot for me.

He reminds me to eat, drink water, keeps the bad thoughts at bay, validates everything good I do cause I crave validation.

I can’t text him

I can’t go to him in a panic attack

I can’t distract myself from over thinking

Besides that, my attachment issues with my friends feels like it’s crumbling cause they’re all in college, going to college, going to BT and I feel like I’m losing them even though I know they’re my family and I’ll never lose them but it just hurts cause I’m trying to get to a point where I can thrive from my art without going to college even though I know I should go to college to learn more.

I feel like I have some weird FOMO even when I’m not really missing out on anything. Maybe it’s because I don’t have a true plan while they’re all going to college or military, I’m not sure.

Where the fuck did time go….

How is he already about to go into BT…

How is it already time for my other friends to be in college…

Graduation felt like a week ago…

What the hell happened….

Take me back to my senior year…where I didn’t have to worry about losing my favorite people…

I need my mom to take me to my school at some point soon…I’m losing hope and I just want to see my teachers…I need to see my teachers…and my underclassmen friends…

I feel so alone…

✨The world was dark until you✨

Filler fic, I apologize. The others fics are coming in slow because I’ve hit a road block but i’ve started on Lee Knows and I’m coming up with fics for the others.

I swear, my first series fic will be done, I won’t be a writer who forgets their story. I’m hoping y’all enjoyed Chan’s chapter though, I am really proud of it.

Mrs. MinLee stared at her son who was face down in his pillow, refusing to get up when he has school in half an hour.

“Kai.” She said sternly. “You’re gonna be late, get up now.” She got a mumbled reply in return. “I’m good.” The woman sighs and turns when she hears her husband walk down the hall who stopped in place with wide eyes when he saw his wife’s stern face and crossed arms. “What’d i do now?”

She huffs and rolls her eyes. “Kai won’t get up.” “Ah, Schmettling, Doesn’t he have online classes?” “Aish, Gunther, you never listen. I’ve told you that his second semester is in person because he has traditional art classes.”

The younger male huffs, making his parents turn to him and he sits up. His mom sighs and her face turns into sympathy as she looks at her sons eyes. They’re still grey, almost black, almost…emotionless.

“Kai, your eyes.” His dad points out and Kai huffs out angrily. Besides the full color, his sclera was red, he’s been crying.

“Oh, son, I thought you got your colors?” “I-I thought I did to, Eomma…It went away last week…” “I knew that Thompson boy was bad.” “Appa-“ “Sorry, ehm, you need to get up and get to class.” “How can I do art classes without color? Come to think of it, no one in my classes doesn’t have their soulmate, pretty sure I’m the only one in existence to have their color taken away after a breakup…”

His mother sighed. He’s not wrong, even though you’ve lost your soulmate, you don’t loose all colors, they’re just duller and less bright till another is found but for Kai, it was rare where all his colors were taken, not just from his sight but for his eyes included. When his mom saw his eyes, she teared up a bit, excepting to see his blue eyes instead of grey.

“Well…maybe a classmate could be paired with you?” The male sighs and rubs his face. “I-I guess I could try…” “Good, your luckily Uni isn’t that far from home or you would be really late now, chop chop, let’s go.”

Kai stands in front of his classroom for a moment. He’s wearing his grey school hoodie under the school blazer he was sent before the semester started and navy pants he borrowed from a friend.

He had on sunglasses and he knew he’d have to take them off as his hand landed on the handle and pushed in. “Sorry that I’m late.” The teacher gave a soft smile and nods as Kai bows. “Actually…” The bell rang and the teacher smiled. “You’re right on time. I’m sorry, sir, but those won’t be allowed.” She said immediately and Kai sighs.

“Um, may i ask real quick what we’re doing today? I-I might need a guide…” “A guide? What do you mean?” “Uh-Um, W-Well my…my recent partner who I thought was my designated soulmate breakup with me recently…” “That shouldn’t be a problem, you’ll just see dull colors.” “W-well…” His hands shook slightly as he reached up and removed his glasses.

“Oh! How unique.” She said when she saw his eyes and the students gasped. “So…you can’t see any colors?” “Yeah…before this semester I did b-but i guess my connection to this person was…stronger so the effect was stronger…I-I don’t really know.” “Alright. Well, you can sit…” She looked around before seeing an empty spot.

“…next to my top student, Hyunjin. He can help you with colors.” Turning to the male, to Kai his hair looked white, making Kai assume he had a light hair color, his face was cute in Kai’s opinion and he held a soft expression as he waved, snapping Kai out of his zone as he walked over and sat next to him.

“Hi…” He heard a voice whisper as he was watching the teacher talk. “H-Hi…I-I’m sorry you have to help me…” “It’s okay. Gives me something to do.” “What do you mean?” He pulls out his phone under the table and taps on it before handing it over to Kai.

It was opened to a folder of artworks. Even without color, Kai found the pieces beautiful. “I paint with every free time I have, she even gives me some of the assignments ahead of time so I can do them and then turn them in.” “Wow…I need to find my new soulmate soon or I might end up failing this class…” “You’ll find them eventually.” “Wait…painting these…does that mean you have dull colors?” “Yeah…Your problem though is interesting, never heard of someone going back to no color.”

Kai sighs. “Yeah, it’s a bit strange.” The other male hums before speaking. “I-I’m sorry if this is too awkward but I hope you find someone too…only cause I think you have a nice eye color…” “Oh, your fine. Um, my mom says they’re blue.” Hyunjin looks down, what seems like shyness on his face as he answered back. “I like blue eyes…”

Kai throws the color strips away from him, it echoing in the empty studio he sat in on a stool in front of a blank canvas.

His guide in colors was going…good enough. Even if he couldn’t see them properly he still tried and the teacher actually like what he painted, but she may have curved the grade on pieces that don’t look…that good…but if she told him that who knows what would happen.

Kai puts his head in his hands and sighs, taking a moment to breath and remember what Hyunjin always told him.

“If you are ever overwhelmed, first take a breath and slow down. You won’t be able to remember things if your minds all jumbled.”

So that’s what Kai did, he took a deep breath then looked up and over the the splayed out stack of color samples. He noticed some came off the small metal rod and near the stack was the broken pin that holds the sheets in place.

Well, that’s what happens when this class has had a bunch of students but only one color sample stack.

He gets up and picks up the cards and the broken piece then looks around. He finds a box near the exit of the studio, deciding to put the cards in there so the cards are still available but the metal rod can get gotten rid of.

“Oh, hey.” He looks up and sees Hyunjin. “Hey! A-Are you okay? I-I haven’t seen you in a couple days.” “Yeah, I didn’t really tell anyone but one of my family members…passed away…I was at the service and healing of course.” “Aw, I’m so sorry.” “It’s okay, how have you been?” “Good…kind of struggling recently.” He mumbles as he looks down at the color cards again, rearranging them neatly before stepping beside Hyunjin to throw the trash away but then as he’s turning back, Hyunjin is a lot closer.

“W-What- Hyunjin?” “Oh, Sorry.” He took a small step back. “I can help you with the assignment until schools over.” “What if I…gave up?” Hyunjin immediately grabbed his elbow and pulled him back. “Excuse me?” Kai awkwardly looked down at this feet, shuffling between his left and right foot. “What if I…gave up…” “Take it back.” “Why should I?” Kai asked with furrowed brows as he lifted his head back to Hyunjin.

“I heard Mrs. Lang has been curving my grades of assignments that don’t look as good as they should be. Seeing no color is getting me pity that I don’t need.” “You’re still good.” “Am I?” “You are!” Kai pulled his arm away from Hyunjin and stepped back.

“Why were you really not here last week?” “I told you I was at a service-“ “Hyunjin, I’ve gotten to know your quirks the closer we’ve gotten, you’re lying…What were you doing?”

Hyunjin knew he was in trouble and he could see the look in Kai’s dark eyes. “Kai…” “Tell me.” “I-I…Mrs. Lee gave me permission to skip a week with no consequences…” “Why?” “To…” “To what?” “I-I can’t say-“ “Can’t say what Hyunjin! Just spit it out!!” “To make extra canvases for you!! She believes that you have potential but since you can’t see colors, you may not be able to do some of the assignments and she wants you to pass for future opportunities so I give canvases I made to Mrs. Lee so she can grade you. She must be curving them cause she knows your condition.”

“You made a deal with the principal?!” “I didn’t want to but-“ “You two don’t believe in me?? I thought principals were supposed to encourage students better? And you…my only friend this entire semester…you don’t- You don’t believe in me?” Hyunjin’s eyes widen and his mouth parts open. “No! I do!” “Then why did you do it? Why did you agree to replace my art?” He was silent, looking down at his feet. “Well?” “Cause I thought if we passed senior year together…we could go to the same college and…have a journey together…”

“A journey?” Kai asked and Hyunjin looks up again. “I-I got my color full color a week ago as well…when I got upset after dropping my fresh canvas.” Kai crossed his arms and his face softened.

Hyunjin and Kai were ‘studying’ in Mrs. Lee’s classroom, Hyunjin helping Kai with colors and Hyunjin finishing a canvas. When he was done, he got up to place it out of the way to dry when he tripped over the easel and lost his grip on the canvas.

It landed face down and normally Hyunjin doesn’t get upset over something like this but it was his most favorite piece, two figures just holding each other on a background with black, red, and a little white. He would say he doesn’t know who the two are but deep down he felt like it was him and Kai…

He started tearing up and Kai moved over to him quickly after the sound of the canvas hit the floor and he looked at the canvas then to the artist only to see him getting upset.

“Hey, Hey, Jinnie, it’s okay.” Kai said as he wrapped his arms around the male and hugged him. “It’s okay. What’s wrong? You usually brush off mistakes like this.”

Kai had pulled away and held his face in his hands and having him look into his dull eyes. Kai’s caring nature had Hyunjin feeling protected and suddenly his saturated world because brighter when he noticed…he loved his friend…

“I didn’t know how to tell you after I noticed your eyes were still dull and dark.” Now Kai was confused and shocked. Shocked because…Hyunjin liked him? and confused because he has grown to love Hyunjin too, that’s why he was so worried and more caring about the young male.

“But…I like you too…I-I still don’t have color…” Kai forgot that he was mad at Hyunjin and furrowed his brows. “What?” “I-I like you too…but I don’t know why I don’t have colors.” He looked at Hyunjin, into his eyes and waited for something to happen but nothing.

“Can…Can I try something? Maybe because I’ve already looked at someone and that relationship was really, I might need to do something…more this time.” “Y-Yeah.”

Kai stepped forward, hesitance physically visible as Hyunjin watched him with every step. “Um…Close your eyes.” “Why?” “For me? I’m slowly losing confidence.” Hyunjin nods softly and closes his eyes.

Kai now noticed how much shorter Hyunjin is, may be a couple inches but still. He places a shaky hand on the side of his face and tilts it up a little, he can feel and hear his breath hitch and he leans down the small amount before connecting his lips to Hyunjin’s.

He gasps, his hand coming up to hold Kai’s wrist as he processed what just happened before leaning in, taking a step and moving his free hand to hold Kai’s left arm as he got closer and Kai wrapped it around his waist.

After a moment, he went to pull away when Hyunjin moved his right arm around Kai’s neck and pulled him back in, his right arm going around his neck as well as Kai wrapped his other arm around Hyunjin’s waist and pulled him in a step closer.

Kai pulled back again, this time forcing Hyunjin to stay back with his arms and he laughs. “Are you going to open your eyes?” Hyunjin asked and Kai did that slowly, he didn’t expect that idea to work but when he opened his eyes slightly and saw strands of blonde hair framing his face that didn’t making it into the bun he put up and the males brown eyes which widened when Kai’s widen.

“Shit, your pretty.” Was the first thing Kai said before busting out into laughter and hiding his face in his shoulder. “Thank you, that was really sudden.” “I was taken by surprise. This is the first time I’m actually seeing you in color. If I didn’t react like that though I was gonna play dumb and say it didn’t work.” “There’s one flaw to the evil plan if you did do that.” “And what’s that?”

Hyunjin moved an arm from Kai’s shoulder and placed his hand on the side of Kai’s face, his thumb rubbing underneath the older males eye as Hyunjin smiled softly. “I would’ve noticed your eyes…damn…” “What?” Kai chuckles and opened his eyes again. “I really do like blue eyes.” He said before moving forward again to kiss Kai.

After defiance of wanting to split and the need to split, they carried on the rest of their day perfectly. They apologized to Mrs. Lee and Kai gladly made up the assignments that were ‘messed up’ as he put it so his now boyfriend didn’t feel guilty.

After the semester and the year ended, Kai’s Mom gave him permission to live in her fathers old house that was given to her after he passed where Kai immediately asked if Hyunjin wanted to live with him, he quickly said yes and talked to his own parents about it.

After moving a few boxes from each others homes, they lay on the empty living room floor, just staring at the ceiling. At some point while he was getting boxes from his house, Hyunjin hung up fairy light on the ceiling and it looked like stars.

“So…now that we graduated, what did your vision say we did next?” Hyunjin sighs softly before rolling to his side and wrapping his arms around his waist, Kai accepting it and wrapping his arms around him as Hyunjin tangled their legs. The floor was uncomfortable but they didn’t plan to get up.

“From what I remember…We applied to the same college…we also…” He stayed silently as he thought. “We got to a point where we sold our art to big names but before that we sold small prints to people who found us.” “You’re adorable.” He looks up quickly, being greeted by his sweet smile and soft eyes.

“W-What?” “You’re adorable.” Hyunjin whines before scooting up further to wrap his arms around Kai’s neck and bury his face in his shoulder. “What’s wrong?” His reply comes out mumbled and Kai has him repeat it with a smile. “I love you.” Kai squeezes his arms around the youngers waist, leaving a peck on his cheek. “I love you, too, Jinnie.”

They lay there for a moment more before Kai huffs. “The floor is starting to hurt, let’s move.” “But your bed is still at your parents house…” Hyunjin points out as he stands up.

“Shit….”

He scratches his neck and chuckles with a small smile. “Wanna meet my parents?” Hyunjin smiled, his eyes turning into crescents as he wraps his arms around Kai. “Yeah, only because we need a bed and your parents are closer to us.”

Kai smiles and they are walk out the small house.

They can’t wait to start their journey and get closer to one another.

This never meant to happen.

"After this, you can leave him for good and come back to me'

They didn't mean to hurt him.

'Just ask the quiet trainee to teach you the moves. He likes you, he'll totally help you. He wants to be near you guys.'

He did need help but not this way.

"Come on, babe. He's a dork, always keeping to himself." The girl next to Changbin scoffs, sitting back down.

"He's not a trainee, he is an actual member of Stray Kids. Why don't you get that?" Changbin huffed for the nth time.

"Whatever." Chan's partner cuts in.

"What are you guys talking...about..."

Namji, the 'trainee' mentioned, walked in but froze, quickly being uncomfortable with the left side of the room and six pairs of eyes failing to hide their judgmental stares, IN and seungmin not having a girlfriend luckily, the boys unaware as they chill in their rooms...'lucky' the other members always thought of the two. "H-Hi, girls. Um, what...what's up?"

He cowards a bit when one walks up to him, a fake smile on her face, it was Chan's. Took forever for Namji to pair the girls with the members.

"Since they don't want to talk, they need help in some choreo that you have already nailed and need help. Is that okay?" "Uh...r-really? Even Minho-Hyung?" "Of course he does!" His girlfriend Scratching the back of his head, he glances at the others, they weren't even looking at them, taking more interest in their shoes or fingers or the ceiling.

Except Felix, who was looking at Namji with a guilty look then looked down at his hands. "Um, s-sure. I can help at today's practice."

---

Namji had walked out of practice to use the restroom and when he came back, he saw that his members new the whole dance. "I-I thought you guys were having difficulty?"

They immediately stop, watching the male walk over to the music to pause it. "You guys know the whole thing?"

Still sitting in an awkward silence, it wasn't until Han finally broke the silence in rushed characters, stumbling over his words a bit.

"We learned the dance already but the girls have been forcing us to take advantage of your kindness and the fondness you have of us so they can act out their plan and 'crush you' as they said." Han rambling finally broke Felix.

"They somehow managed to get a fake, but genuinely signed, letter from JYP and the manager saying you are being kicked out of the group."

"I knew they hated me but why would you listen to them?" "We were whipped when this all started but now all we want to do is dump them but we can't find the courage to do so. They're kinda scary." Minho answered.

Namji sighs. "Are you mad?" Looking over to Chan, he shook his head. "At you?" Hesitantly, Chan nods. "No, of course not. Like Han said...I'm fond of all of you."

A glance at his shoes and quick rub at his burning face, he looks back up. "I think I have a way, b-but I need to know what you prefer...uh...partner wise...besides those bitches, obviously."

---

Namji hesitantly sent a mass message to their girlfriends, tell them to meet them at the practice room.

When they arrived, they were greeted by IN and Seungmin who bounced on the balls of his feet.

Hyunjin's girlfriend spoke first. "Oh my goodness, they have hickies." They coo over the two youngest males before finally asking where their boys were.

"Oh, they aren't here. I don't even think they'll be here at all this morning." IN spoke first. "What do you mean? Never mind, I'll just call Channie." The girl pulls her phone out and video calls him, the phone rang for a while, the male on the other end actually being at the dorm, the call being coincidentally timed with his turn, though the phone is in the living room.

Hyunjin answers Chan's phone, shocking the girl. "Jinnie? Why did you answer Chan's phone? Where are you?" "Oh, yeah, C-Chan is...uh...he's a bit tied up at the moment, he couldn't come to the phone."

"Wait!" Chan's girlfriend was shoved out of the way and Jin's girlfriend snatched the phone. "What's on your neck?" Hyunjin hesitated but this was the plan. "A hickie?" "Who gave it to you?" "You?" "We ALL haven't done anything in a month, how could I give that to you?" She was getting upset.

"You're cheating? With who?" "No one, Jagi-" "None of that. What is going on?"

IN clears his throat, prompting the girls to look up. "We know what's going on. The same person gave us ours." "What?"

He pulled out an iPad, blushing slightly before composing himself and opening Namji's tablet to photos. "What the hell?" Chan's girlfriend snatches it first, noticing her boyfriends blue hair first.

The photos were in rows of five, each row on the tablet being each of their boyfriends. The most prominent photo for all six girls was the fifth one.

Their boyfriends with their backs to the camera, head resting on a pillow, a hand in their hair. The point of view is from above, also showing the girls their bare body...along with the cock in each of their asses...pretty lewd if you ask me...

There are pictures of seungmin and IN but the girls didn't care, they only cared about the photos of their apparent boyfriends in five, distinct positions.

"What the hell?!" She shoves the iPad back into Seungmin's chest, storming quickly out of the room with the others on her trail. The two high five, happy to get rid of them and privately but openly be happy to realize how much the group really love each other, thanks to Namji.

---

Chan’s girlfriend all but kicks the door down. “Where is he?” She says, venom dripping on her tone.

“What?” Changbin asks, his girlfriend stomping over to him to slap him. “Where is Namji?” He groans, turning his head back to the girls. “His room, but it’s locked at the moment.”

A quick scan and they noticed only Changbin was in the room then giggling could be heard down the hall. “That bastard.” Felix’s now obvious ex girlfriend stomps down the hall, stopping at Namji’s to pound at the door. “Namji! What the heck are you doing?!”

He stood from the bed, walking over to the door, nothing but his boxers. “What?” “Did you help them cheat on us?” “Hmm…maybe. Why?” “Why?! Because you forced them into this! There’s no way they would willingly do this with you!”

“Well, they did. The smaller ones are adorable, they can’t stand at the moment though. I also don’t think the others want to talk to you guys, seeing as yours-“ He pointed to Chan’s ex, “And yours-“ pointing to Minho’s ex,” are in that room-“ pointed behind them. “Getting to know each other more. I have the Maknae’s and Hyunjin.” He said with a smile, leaning back against the door and frame.

Changbin came back, ignoring the girls and walking into the room. “and Changbin.” He finished with a smile.

the two girls had turned to pound on the other door, but that didn’t stop the two others in that room, making them laugh a bit before Chan bit Minho’s neck, pissing his ex off when she heard a moan and she groaned.

“If we’re done here, I actually have a clingy squirrel attached to me who wants me back in bed so i suggest you leave and delete their numbers.” He said, opening the door slightly to show Han clinging to his arm, behind him on the bed, Hyunjin is cuddling Felix, and Changbin sat next to them on the top edge of the bed.

“You can’t speak for them!” “We’re over!” The others yell from the bed and Han yelling it as he goes over to his hyung, Changbin for cuddles since Namji took too long.

“Ugh!” Chan’s ex shrieks, tears in her and Minho’s ex’s eyes when she heard Minho again. “You can’t do that! We will just tell your manager and JYP!” “Oh, our manager knows, he supports it, just told us to keep the intimate touching and whatnot to a minimum when in public. As for JYP, how will you tell him? All of you aren’t allowed back in the building.”

“What do you mean? We’re signed under JYPE.” “We’re signed!” Changbin yelled out the door. “We told him and your manager what you were doing to us and they’re cutting you. Soon your fans will know. You’re done.”

With that, they finally leave. Namji sighs and turns back into the room, smiling when he heard the other two. “Finally, I thought they would never leave.” “How did that not disrupt Chan and Minho-Hyung?” Han laughs. “Who knows, probably too lost in each other.” Namji smiles and back hugs Felix who had dozed off i. Hyunjin’s arms, his face hidden in part of the pillow and Hyunjin’s shoulder.

“So cute.” He coos at Felix. “Can we take a nap?” “Sure. We were given an off day for this.” He moved his arm from around Felix to drape in over both his and Hyunjin’s waist. Changbin and Han cuddling next to Hyunjin. “When do you think they’ll be done?” Han mumbled when they all heard a scream. “I say two more rounds.”

“Dang, Hyung!” Hyunjin laughs, turning his head into the pillow. “What? It sounds good to Minho, I’d say they will keep going for awhile. Remember how long it took for Chan when I had my turn with him? He has a lot of stamina.” Namji explains. “Oh my god, I’m not use to this kind of talk yet.”

Nam laughs, kissing Felix’s head when he shifts so Hyunjin now back hugs him and cuddles into Namji. “You’ll get used to it, there’s nine of us. Now sleep.”

It’s been a crazy week but it was worth it. Namji was right, they went for three rounds before they too took a nap, Seungmin and IN arrived later, there was no room in Namji’s bed so they joined Chan and Minho, blushing a little when they saw the scratches on Chan’s back and bruised hips on Minho but nonetheless, IN cuddled with Chan and Seungmin sleeping on Minho.

No crazy girlfriends, only true love amongst adorable gay bois.

It’s was perfect.

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the end.