World Building Is Addictive And Forever The Bane Of Actually Completing An Original Story, Even One That

World building is addictive and forever the bane of actually completing an original story, even one that starts simple 😭.

I find myself making a correspondence table... AGAIN!

Rereading MDZS vol 3 (oof ouch my heart) -- trying to pin down my interpretation of Madame Yu is still so interesting. I fully think that she recognized Wei Wuxian's potential and saw that he was currently exhibiting leadership maturity while her son was very clearly still juvenile (love that for JC tbh). In the scene where the kid is taken by the Wens for the kite, WWX jumps into management mode and JC is freaking out with the other disciples. Madame Yu overhears that. I don't think Wei Wuxian would be lead disciple only because of age (though it may be just that) and he clearly had the respect of the younger disciples (oof ouch my heart again). She could have held him back to defend Lotus Pier, but I think she saw how critical he was to Jiang Cheng's (and maybe also Yanli's) survival. And then she drilled in that he owed them, that anything less that absolute self-sacrificing dedication is because he is spiteful, a leech, selfish. JFM's backbone is Madame Yu (it seems) and I think WWX is JC's and she recognizes that, despite all of JCs bluster. She bound WWX to JC with Zidian intentionally, then affirmed his emotional bind to him with her words.

There's also something to servitude (class) and servitude (wife) here but that may be me over reading at that point 🤭.

All MXTX novels are just about one outwardly put-together, inwardly screaming mess of a man and his emotional support war criminal.

"To his eternal shock, Wei Wuxian watched Lan Wangji start to cry. He had seen him upset before, angry, even grief-stricken in the Xuanwu cave and on the clifftop at Nightless City, but these tears were not like that. They were slow and full, rolling like pearls down his cheeks."

- A quiet room, a night, a dawn, Chapter one: a night, by BarbV

I am physically holding back the urge to post fic content before I am at least most of the way through if not done because I am not leaving another unfinished fic to haunt me at night

shinzawa fic I will come back to you please be patient with me, mxtx has me by the throat

I can delay this gratification. I can. Save the dopamine. It's possible.

(it's wlw wangxian modern au, little bit of foster care a-yuan and other bits 👀)

Wei Ying had this murky image of a domestic life with a dedicated partner and a little one, hand in hand, warm and loving, all that good stuff, but she told herself that was just an echo of her only memory with her parents. That reality was far, far away, and Wei Ying had more urgent matters now. She always seemed to have more urgent matters. Thankfully, Lan Zhan was always there to keep her steady.

I'm a few chapters in to a fic about wen yuan getting taken into foster care with cisswap wangxian. It's a lot and I don't know how long it will end up, but it's been lovely for processing some of my own experiences with becoming a foster parent. I have so many scenes saved up that I want to get to, just need to stitch them together! (My least favorite part lol.)

Rated M (may change to E, not sure yet).

tw childhood trauma, panic attacks, distressed babies (wwx included), so far just vague allusions to neglect and emotional abuse

Title from Notion by Tash Sultana.