Im Crying So Fucking Hard

I’m crying so fucking hard 😭😭😭

Whenever I see a video recommended like this and the title is like: THEY reVEAL this, thIS and THIS and ✨M O R E✨ I’m like how much could they possibly reveal in 3 minutes 🤨😑

Last things for the day; I figured out how to say it.

The reason why BTS at the Harry Styles concert, having the time of their lives, jamming with Lizzo, feeling the music in their bones, and everything else that came with it was so heart warming, is because it’s exactly the type of message that they’re trying and have been putting out. BTS themselves are breaking barriers, connecting, and helping people with music, despite the language they sing in. Seeing them experience their own goal/passion/message for somebody else is just… euphoric 😭

I’m talking about the vaccine here. Please be nice if you do read this

Okay I’m really hesitant/embarrassed/guilty about saying this, but I’m not vaccinated yet. It’s not because I’m against it or anything like that and I don’t want to sound like I’m making excuses, but I haven’t had a good time. I don’t hardly leave my house because of anxiety and other stuff, and if I do, I always wear a mask which I know is not enough. Nobody around me wants to get vaccinated and if we talk about it it’s always talk about how it’s a hoax and skepticism about the whole thing. It makes me upset. Currently in my state, it’s illegal for employers to mandate a vaccine but with the new presidential mandate, it might change. I need to get on my feet and get a job and I don’t want me not being vaccinated to be a problem. Plus I just want to be safe in general. I’m really thinking about sucking it up and getting vaccinated after the holidays. I’m just really scared. I’m really anxious about side effects. I’m okay with fevers, but it’s the nausea I’m worried about. It makes me really anxious when I am, and anxiety makes it worse. Side effects are my main hinderance. I’m also just kinda weird about shots. I’m trying to just suck it up and get it over with because I know there are people who can’t even get vaccines and so many people have suffered from Covid; it’s ignorant for me not to have it just because I’m anxious. I feel guilty about it. I’m emotional writing this. Anyways, I guess I’m asking about other people experiences and how to cope with it.

Please be nice if you do say anything. I understand the problem with not being vaccinated, and I’m really looking to fix it. I’m just looking for some comforting words I guess.

They’re maybe just be tired with their work lately. The year-end award shows and the concert and who else knows what else they’re working on, it’s probably tiring for them. But things are looking good with the concerts in LA California and things are getting better so i wouldn’t worry to much. Just listen to bts and if they say there is something to worry then we should worry about them But we should just support them and be by their sides 😇

Yes, you’re probably right. Fun fact: I worry about a lot even if there isn’t anything much to worry about. I know they been quiet bc they’ve been preparing for concerts, but ya know 😅 I know they have a lot going on and they’ve been doing this for a while now, they know what they’re doing. Thank you for this. I’m sorry I’m a bit off the rails on this app.

Okay, okay, okay…. I wasn’t going to say anything about kdramas for awhile because I know not everybody watches them and all that jazz but LISTEN. I just started My Country: The New Age. First of all, is already magnificent. Secondly, the show was filmed in 2019 and…… AND one of the sets in episode 2 (it might be used later in the show but that’s where I’m at now) is the same set that Yoongi used in the Daechwita music video. It’s the scene/set when blonde Agust D is being a tyrant and black-hair Agust D comes drifting in the car, THAT SET😤😤😤😤😤WHEN THE MF WORLDS COLLIDE 😤😤😤😤😤 I live, breathe and die Daechwita, I love it so much. I love Agust D. When I saw that set I was like “dang that looks really familiar!!!!” Anyways, it kinda made my day.

Take care of yourselves ❤️