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Ryan X Reader ('It's Okay I Got You')

Ryan X Reader ('It's okay I got you')

Ryan X Reader ('It's Okay I Got You')

I can’t believe I got talked into this by Johnny, he had somehow convinced me to do a stunt with a spider. I am fucking petrified of spiders and yet I was told myself I could do this stunt, I would do it to overcome my fear or so I thought.

As Ryan put the tarantula on my arm I could feel myself freeze up, my breathing picks up and I can’t help but let out a high-pitched whimper. I wanted nothing more than to bat the spider off of me but I couldn’t bring myself to move, I wanted to scream, flail, get as far away from this room as fast as I can. The boys were laughing at me, I grit my teeth and try to gather my bearings. I could do this. Or that’s what I thought, I let out a sob,

“Get it off. For the love of god get it fucking off of me.” Someone carefully takes the spider off of me and brings it to Manny. I feel arms wrap around me, I don’t care who it was or if I seemed weak but I broke down. I could still feel the spider on me, its legs moving along my arms, I shiver. Ryan’s voice comes from above me,

“Hey, it’s okay. It’s off of you.” His voice is soft. Out of all of the guys Ryan always ended up being the most caring. He rubs my back, but nothing he was doing was helping me. I somehow manage to curl into a ball while Ryan’s arms are still around me. I can hear hushed whispers from above me but I pay them no mind, I couldn’t stop thinking about that fucking spider. It was going to haunt me in my dreams, I was going to have trouble going to sleep and staying asleep unless I was knocked out. I was a stuttering, whimpering mess. I wanted to scream as loud as I could and never stop.

Ryan helps me off of the floor, with his arms still around me he guides me to one of the chairs in the room. He holds me carefully in his lap, not wanting to make me uncomfortable in any way. I curl myself into Ryan’s chest, the touch of another human is slowly making me grounded again. I could feel my breath starting to slow, my sobs slowing to hiccups, and my body relaxing. I think the move from the floor to the chair really helped me get back into my head.

Ryan helped me from the room where we were filming into his hotel room, he brings me down on the bed next to him. This wasn’t the first time Dunn has done something like this and it most certainly won’t be the last time he does it. No matter how many times this happened I couldn’t help the content feeling that spread through my body when Ryan’s arms wrapped around me. A part of my heart swelled, knowing that he would always have my back no matter what.

When I wake up I am in a tangle of limbs, the warmth of Ryan’s body is a little unbearable but I don’t mind it, it is slightly comforting. I try not to move so I don’t wake Ryan, lord knows that he needed the sleep. He always had the hardest time falling asleep, staying asleep and waking up. He just wasn’t lucky when it came to sleep. Unfortunately, it doesn’t last long because Johnny and Bam sneak into the room, and they don’t notice that I’m awake. They put something on me and gently shake me ‘awake’, I look down to see a spider on my side. I scream out and rip myself away from Ryan, dashing to the corner so they can’t get behind me with that damned thing. Ryan wakes up with a start he looks for me, then at Johnny and Bam, and finally at the spider on the bed.

“It’s fake, [Name],” Ryan says, he picks it up and comes toward me. I try and push myself further into the corner, I shake my head at him. He gets the message and stops, he puts down the spider and comes to squat in front of me. “Hey, hey. Look at me.” I look up at him, “I know what you’re feeling. When you are really fucking scared of something, it seems like you can’t do anything but that’s wrong.” He takes my hands and rubs the back of them. “I will always be here for you, to help you through what you are feeling. The most important thing to remember is your breathing.”

I nodded at him, I had no idea where this was coming from but I was grateful for it. He helps me off of the floor and embraces me, mumbling reassurance into my ears. I sheepishly look to Johnny and Bam,

“I’m sorry for screaming. I just really don’t like spiders.”

“Dude it’s all good.” Johnny smiles at me. I wasn’t really apologizing to them, I was more apologizing to Ryan since I woke him up but they didn’t need to know that. They leave the room while chuckling. I wanted nothing more than to crawl back into the corner I was just in and disappear, I was going to feel the spider on me forever now. I could barely look Ryan in the face as he starts to walk around the room, rummaging through things and mumbling under his breath. In a few minutes, he returns to me and lifts my chin so I’m looking at him,

“I picked out your comfy clothes and found the fuzzy blanket you like, go change and we’ll spend the day doing whatever you want,” I mumble out my thanks to him, he turns to leave but I grab his arm.

“Don’t leave, please,” I say rather sheepishly, I felt stupid that I couldn’t spend one minute alone to change. Ryan smiles at me and nods his head, he makes sure to turn towards the door, though we had all seen each other naked he wanted to give me privacy. Once I was changed I throw the fuzzy blanket over me and tap Ryan on the shoulder, he turns around to see me swaddled like a baby in a blanket. We flop back down on the bed and I told him that I didn’t want to do anything besides watching the Scream movies and order take-out which he was more than happy to agree with. As we settle into the bed I look up at him,

“I hope you know you have a bit of a soft spot,” Ryan chuckles, “But I for one and thankful for it. I don’t think I could have gotten through all of this without you. Thank you, Ryan.” He ruffles my hair and whispers ‘you’re welcome’ before resting his head on top of mine.

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About Time

Summary: Y/n just moved next door to Johnny Knoxville and Steve-o

Warnings: Drinking, Swearing, an Injury (not graphic), Overall just cheesy

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Y/n had been searching for apartments all over Los Angeles and couldn't find one that met up to her standards. Some on the outside were gorgeous but the apartment itself would be unlivable. It didn't take long before getting over apartment hunting. She needed to move out of her parent's house, not only was the commute to school too far, but it was time to get out of there.

The realtor said this was the last apartment for the day. They walked inside the apartment complex and up to the room, it was only a few stories up. He unlocked the door and went in while she followed behind him. It was the nicest apartment she's seen all day and it was in her price range. If the kitchen and living room area didn't sell her, the room and bathroom connected definitely did. The room was big enough for all of her things and the bathroom was gorgeous.

"This is all newly renovated." The realtor smiled and took her out to the small patio. "Wow, this is really nice. I like it a lot actually."

While everything was great, Y/n was scared of what was wrong with it. It's been on the market for quite some time. "So, why has it been left alone for so long? I mean it's amazing, wouldn't someone immediately pick it?"

"Well, there are no major issues. The area is nice and no plumbing or parking problems. It's just the neighbors," He sighed, "They're really loud and obnoxious."

"Oh. That's it?" She laughed. A place this nice had to have some kind of problem and noisy neighbors is an easy problem to figure out. With no reason to really say no she signed the papers.

Once all the big furniture was moved in, she only had to move her personal belongings, which weren't too hard to carry in. While she was carrying a box of dishes in she looked over to her right and saw her neighbor walk out of the apartment. They made eye contact and Y/n gave him a friendly smile, which he returned, continuing to go inside. 'He seems nice.'  From the few days it took to move everything in, she hasn't heard too many noises from her neighbor. Maybe some loud music and talking but even then the walls muffled most of it.

After the apartment was put together the way she wanted, Y/n decided it was time to have some friends over for a little housewarming party. As a common courtesy, she thought she would give the neighbors a heads up, letting them know it wasn't going to be anything other than some music and a few people over. Most of them were young and said they didn't care. They even joked about not getting an invite. The old people said to make sure the noise wasn't loud past 11 pm.

When she reached the 'loud' neighbor's door she began to get a little nervous. They definitely intimidated her. Y/n softly knocked on the door, waiting for someone to answer it. The muffled laughter and voices stopped for a second. The door aggressively unlocked and a different guy stood in front of it. "Dude, we've been quiet this whole week and we aren't even being that loud." His voice was so raspy but it was kind of hot.

"Oh no, dude, you're good! I was just gonna let you guys know I'm having some friends over so it might be loud. Just a little heads up."

"Oh sweet. Mind if we swing by?" He smirked and she laughed, "Sure. It's not a party or anything, but you're more than welcome to come."

"Don't worry we'll make it a party." He winked and shut the door before she could object.

Y/n got dressed up nice for her small get-together. Wearing a short dress that fit her just right. Little by little more and more of her friends began to show up bringing cute gifts and alcohol. It was perfect beer was in the fridge hard liquor was on the counters, music was playing only the best songs to dance to.

"Yeah, neighbor!" A loud yell came from the doorway. Her eyes widened in shock. 'He actually showed up.' She walked over to the door, "Hey! You came."

"Yeah. Me n some friends." His thumb pointed to some guys behind him. "There's beer in the fridge and vodka on the counter." The guys came in and went into the kitchen for some drinks.

"Who are those guys?" One of your friends asked. It dawned on you that you never introduced yourself and neither did they. "My neighbors. I don't actually know their names we kinda just met."

"They're pretty hot" She'd never admit it out loud but she agreed.

"I never introduced myself. I'm Y/n." She smiled at the guy she saw earlier this week. "I'm Johnny Knoxville." He smiled back.

"And what's his name?" She asked pointing to his roommate who was pouring hot sauce into his eye. "That's Steve-o"

"Cool," Her face was full of amazement.

As the night went on and people drank more and more, Y/n was talking to Steve-o. "You have some cool tattoos" She commented and he laughed, "Thanks. I think they're pretty fuckin' dumb." Her fingers outlined the visible ones on his arm, "I like them." He looked over at her concentrated face and smiled.

"Do you have any tattoos?"

Y/n nodded her head and looked back at him, "Just a few small ones. I have one on my ribcage, one on my hip, and one down my spine."

"You should show me sometime." He wiggled his eyebrows making her laugh and lightly shove him. They continued to talk about other things and subtly flirt.

"Alright, Steve-o let's go back. Thanks for having us over and nice meeting you, Y/n." Johnny said putting his arm around Steve-o who waved goodbye.

"Bye guys! You're welcome over anytime."

And they took up her offer whenever they could. Banging on the door and calling her asking if she was home. Y/n never had neighbors like them before, even when she lived with her parents. The neighbors were all old or in their thirties with two kids. Johnny and Steve-o were funny and always did stupid shit.

"Y/n! Let me in Johnny's gonna put a firework up my butt!"

"Good, it's unlocked. You gotta see what Steve-o and I are about to do!"

It didn't take long for her to join in on their shenanigans. "C'mon just snort the hot sauce. I'll do it with you." Steve-o grinned

All three of them were pretty close, but it was obvious that Steve-o and Y/n had a closer bond. Johnny wasn't mad or anything, he was actually pretty happy someone could handle being friends with the chaotic guy.

Johnny and Steve-o started filming for Jackass, so all the guys were in town. Steve-o thought it'd be cool if Y/n came and watched them all do their stunts. After the stressful semester she had, it wasn't a bad idea.

~

"This is Y/n. She's our neighbor." Steve-o introduced her to the guys who smiled and waved at her. She smiled and waved back "Hey guys"

They all made small talk and asked what she does, where she goes to school, why she's friends with Johnny and Steve-o. Chris' flirty personality was funny to Y/n, she didn't take him seriously and even subtly flirted back.

She didn't realize how stressful it was for the guys to be on set. Even she began to worry if she was safe or not. The pranks and jokes made everything more chaotic than it already was. When Bam was in the snake pit, her mind eased. It made her realize she wasn't scared of too many things, mostly just disliked them.

"So Y/n, are you scared of snakes?" Chris held a big snake and pointed it at her. She shook her head observing the snake, "Can I hold it?" His smile was wide and he got excited explaining how to hold it.

"C'mon Bam." Johnny shook his head laughing.

The entire time she was on set everyone tried to figure out what she was scared of or what would make her freak out. They didn't want to hurt her but they definitely wanted to include her in on the fun. With nothing to work with it made it nearly impossible. 

Chris started to improvise. He managed to get a box of fake spiders and he waited for the perfect time to dump them on you. Johnny loved this idea and even said he’d make it happen. 

“Wanna be in the movie?” Johnny smirked and Y/n shook her head, “No way. I’m not doing some crazy stunt.” 

“Oh no, we wouldn’t make you do that. Just a small thing. Now close your eyes and stand right here.” He instructed her. She stood in the spot and waited for what to do next. Behind her Chris grabbed a small ladder and climbed to the top. When he was ready Johnny handed him the box. “I need you to stay perfectly still.” She sighed and said okay. Chris dumped the box of spiders on her and Y/n shrieked but stayed still. “Tell me they aren't real!”

“Get em off! Get em off!” Johnny and Chris laughed pretty hard and eventually told her they weren’t real and helped her get them out of her hair. “Assholes”

"Alright, Steve-o. You're up." Jeff called him over to stand in front of the camera. The alligator snapping turtle bit had Steve-o nervous. He introduced the scene and prepared to get bit. It was going as well as it could've gone until the turtle didn't let go.

After a few more moments of agonizing pain, it finally let go and Steve-o left to get it treated. Y/n followed him.

"That was pretty bad" She winced when she got a closer look at it. "Yeah, it didn't feel the greatest." The nurse cleaned it up and left the two of them alone. They sat in comfortable silence for a few seconds.

"Are you having fun on set though?" He asked and she smiled big, "Yeah! It's really cool seeing how everything goes down and meeting the others."

"You could come every day if you wanted to."

"Oh, I don't think the others-"

He interrupted whatever she was going to say by placing his lips softly onto hers and pulled away after a few seconds. "I want you here." Y/n placed both of her hands on the sides of his face and pulled him into another kiss.

"Well, it's about time, lovebirds" Johnny laughed, "Now hurry up. I'm gonna get Tremaine really good." 


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2 years ago

Call It Fate

Chapter One

This turned into a multiple part thing but I have this chapter and chapter two ready! I might post an all smut chapter but idk fs yet. 

Warnings: Swearing, kissing, pet names, drinking (lmk if I missed anything)

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Call It Fate

Past

It was a hot summer day in Los Angeles. The Jackass crew have been filming in Santa Monica for a few days trying to get the perfect pranks recorded. Johnny was going up to random people and asking dumb questions. The reactions to his questions made the guys laugh pretty hard and they started suggesting things to ask. 'Ask that guy if he can tie your shoe.' 'No, ask them where the beach is.' Some people laughed and others were pretty annoyed with him.

In the middle of filming Johnny approached a group of girls. Everyone thought he was going to joke around with them, but they groaned in annoyance when they heard his flirty tone. "Hi, doll. What are you doing tonight?" The girl laughed and flirted back with him, "I'm having a party at my place. You should come."

Jeff pinched the bridge of his nose and told Steve-o to go get him because they needed to film a little more. He went over to him with no hesitation.

"Hey, man"

"Steve-o! This is Y/f/n and her friends. They invited us to a party later." He grinned. "Oh, fuck yeah!"

After saying their goodbyes Johnny and Steve-o both went back to the rest of the guys to finish filming.

The sun was set and they were done for the day. Johnny wasn't in a rush to leave but he left sooner than he normally would. When everyone was back at the hotel, he made sure the guys freshened up. "C'mon Ryan at least change your shirt."

"Where are we even going?" Bam asked completely oblivious to the plans. "Knoxville wants to see the girl he met today. She has some friends too." Chris answered. Bam had no objections and agreed to go with Johnny, Steve-o, Ryan, and Chris.

Dave, Ehren, Preston, and Wee man had other plans and wanted to follow through with them.

When they arrived, the guys didn't expect a huge house. Steve-o pulled into the driveway parking behind the cars sitting in it. The music was loud and there were a lot of people.

As they walked through the doors, Johnny instantly found Y/f/n. "There she is. Let's go see if she has some friends for you guys"

"Hey, Johnny!"

"Hi, gorgeous."

The other girls began talking to the guys, making small talk and flirting. Bam was almost offended none of the girls had gone up to him first. "Do you have another friend you could, uh, introduce me to?" He rubbed the back of his neck.

"Oh yeah! She should be here any minute. I'll bring her to you when she gets here."

Bam didn't need help getting girls, but it made it easier when he didn't have to do much. The guys started drinking and hanging out. The girls got tired of sitting and started dancing.

~

After a long day of shoots, Y/n walked into her shared house. She was surprised it was so crowded, but happy, nonetheless. Before she could even take her shoes off Y/f/n yelling her name. "I found a guy for you!" She grinned while she hugged her.

Her loud friend brought some attention to her. "Can I take a picture with you?" A random girl asked. She felt rude saying no so she took the picture with the girl and a few others.

"Let me change really quick" Y/n told Y/f/n and walked up the stairs to her room. She put on a tight black dress and platform sandals, if she had to wear heels any longer her ankles would probably snap. Her hair and makeup was already done so she touched it up a bit before walking back down the stairs.

Y/n walked to where Y/f/n was standing with the other guys. "This is Y/n. She's a model."

"Shut up Y/f/n!" She elbowed her side.

"I'm Bam" He stuck out his hand for her to shake. Y/n shook it and smiled at him. Bam thought she was jaw-dropping. His usual one-night stand tendencies flew out the window.

To her, he was more than attractive. Words couldn't describe what she felt when their eyes met. The shock of electricity when their hands touched.

The girls pulled Y/n into the kitchen to take shots. She took five so she could try to catch up since she came a little late. A few shots quickly turned into a competition. "I bet Y/n can take shots faster than Bam!"

Johnny smirked "And whats my prize when he wins, doll?" She whispered something in his ear while trailing her finger up and down his chest.

Y/n stood across from Bam with seven shots in front of them, waiting for Johnnys go. As soon as the words left his mouth they both took the shots, disgust on both of their faces.

"Done!" Y/n cheered. Bam wasn't far behind but he was still annoyed at the loss. She walked around the table over to him. "Come over to brag?" He scoffed, making her laugh. "Awe c'mon it was just a little game." Wrapping her arms around his neck, "How can I cheer you up?"

His hands found her waist and pulled her closer to him. He leaned in and pressed his lips to hers. Her hands gently tugged on his hair. The kiss was a little rough but sweet.

After a few more seconds she pulled away with a smile. "I think id feel wayy better if we kissed again."

"Oh yeah?" Y/n laughed pulling him in for another kiss. For the rest of the night the two were attached to the hip, talking about everything that came to mind.

While everyone was focused on them, Johnny and Y/f/n snuck away to her room.


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2 years ago

youre the only friend i need

2 years ago

More Than You’ll Ever Know

Summary: Ryan has a crush on his best friend

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of drinking and being drunk, sadish (lmk if I missed anything)

Ryan Dunn x GN reader 

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Ryan’s Pov

It was just a school crush. Nothing serious. We've been friends for too long, it would completely ruin our friendship. I mean do they even like-

"Ryan?" They waved their hand in front of my face with a wide grin on theirs. The smile that makes me weak in the knees. That same smile that made me fall for them when we first met.

"Sorry. Just thinking about ways to fuck with Bam." They'd never believe that. God I'm an idiot.

"It's fine. I was just asking if you'd take me to prom." Their voice was soft and smooth. The kinda voice that'd make me agree to anything. It was beautiful, I'd listen to them talk all day if I could.

"Oh, yeah. Why not?" I shrugged playing it cool.

"Great!" They cheered

I wouldn't have ever gone if Y/n hadn't asked me. It was one of my favorite nights with them. The loud music, the smile that never left their face, pregaming and bringing a little flask of alcohol. Everything was perfect.

~

"Jeez, Ry. You really fucked up your face." Their soft touches cleaned up the cuts that were nothing more than scratches. I told them that it was fine but Y/n insisted on making sure they didn't get infected. 

Wow. Why do I want to kiss them right now? Maybe it was just the intimacy of it all. They’re just being sweet. "Definitely worth it. I mean did you see how gnarly- Right, sorry for worrying you." They gave me a disapproving look. Did Y/n not think the stunts were cool? Were they actually worried I’d get too hurt?

~

Y/n's parents were never really home, so most of the time when we'd hang out it'd be at their house. Their parents really disliked us, especially when we came over. And they always knew we did because something always ended up breaking. Mugs, dishes, the table in living room, the leg of the couch, and even the bathroom door. The list went on and on. Most of the time it was me because of my clumsiness, but Bam was right behind me. He wasn't that clumsy, just had a bad habit of breaking shit.

Their final straw was probably when we broke down the door. We were officially banned from coming over. Bam and I always payed and cleaned up our mess but they were probably over having to deal with it in the first place, with good reason.

"We're gonna use this to unlock the door." Bam held up a screwdriver. He started to unscrew the round door handle.

"Fuck off and let me piss." I yelled oblivious to what they were doing. Until the entire handle of the door came off. "Fuck me."

Bam looked through the hole in the door and laughed. "Dico, I got it!" He yelled. Multiple footsteps came running over. I finished before anyone else could see me standing there with my dick out. 

"Ha ha very funny." I tried to open the door but it wouldn't budge. "Will you fuckers let me out now?"

"We're not stopping you." Raab laughed

I tried to open it so many times and it still wouldn't open. Bam and Raab even tried from their side. As annoyed as I was, it was pretty funny.

Bam volunteered to break it down and after a few tries he did.

"You've got to be shitting me." Y/n laughed, "How the fuck am I gonna explain this one."

~

"Guys this is my partner that I've been telling you all about!" Y/n was looking at them the same way they used to look at me. I didn't realize how much this actually hurt. How much I actually liked them. 

"Oh what's up." Bam nodded his head at them and I did the same. We were busy thinking of more dumb shit to do anyway. I ignored them for most of the night and stuck with Bam until they finally left.

"Do you like Y/n's partner?" The question left my lips before I could stop it. He's gonna know. Oh man he better not be a dick about it.

"Not really," He was putting together a new board. Hardly paying attention, "But if they like them then there's nothing we can do."

He had a point. For once in his life Bam was right. Fuckin' dick.

~

After a few months Y/n stopped coming around, too busy with her significant other. It was the same with and without them but it was always nice when they were around.

The night was the same as any other. Dico, Raab, Rake, and I were at Bam's house. It was one of the rare nights we didn't do anything and just stayed home. I think it was April's least favorite night.

In the middle of talking about what we were gonna do tomorrow there was a knock on the door. We weren't expecting anyone, so it was a surprise to all of us. "Dunn. Get the door!" Bam shouted, for no reason. We were a few feet apart. What an ass. There were another few knocks and I sighed, "Fuck you."

I opened the door and saw Y/n standing there. Watery eyes and dried tears on their cheeks. Instinctively I pulled them into a hug. "Its okay." They cried into my chest while one hand scratched their back and the other held their head. "I got you, Its okay."

I never wanted to see them cry anyways, but I made sure to never see Y/n that sad ever again.

~

I remember our very first argument. Serious one that is, we constantly argued about everything.

'Ew why do you put jam on toast like that? You look stupid.'

'How else do you put jam on fuckin' toast?'

They had every right to be mad, but I was too stubborn to admit it. Y/n was out with their friends and I was out with Bam and some others. We all happened to end up at the same bar after a long night out. They were drinking too much and even though they were taken care of. I made sure to get them home that night.

"You're not my boyfriend, so you can stop acting like it!" The comment stung. It was true, there was no need to act like a boyfriend. My intentions were good of course but they were with their friends safely already. "I just wanted to make sure you got home safe!"

"I already made sure I would! Stop trying to ruin my fun!" They scoffed and got out of my car. Y/n didn't slam the door, they left it open. Dick. "Fuck you, Ryan!"

"Come on. Go inside, Y/n. Please?" I stepped out of my car to close my door. 

They continued to yell at me in their drunken state. It was no excuse to be as rude as they were. "I never wanna see you again." Y/n stopped yelling and walked inside.

It wasn't that bad of an argument but the situation itself was bad. We got passed it after we both apologized. That was the one and only time we got into it bad.

~

"I'm moving." The words replayed in my mind, they were quiet and if I wasn’t listening so intently I would've missed them. They had already told Bam and everyone else. I was the last to know. And I was at a loss for words.

My eyes looked everywhere but theirs. Their gorgeous eyes. The ones that would make me confess everything if I stared into them for too long.

"Wow, Ryan. Cat got your tongue?" They lightly joked. I might've laughed if I wasn't thinking about what to say. Should I confess now? It wouldn't hurt. Right? No. I cant. It'd be selfish and hurt them even more.

"Are you gonna come and visit?" I finally looked at them. Y/n was teary eyed, with the same hurt look on their face when they came to Bam's.

"I'm going to Washington. My dad got a job out there. Plus, the colleges out there aren't too bad if I changed my mind about not going."

Fuck. This is it then.

"So this is goodbye?" Dumb question. They nodded their head and tried to hold back tears. With a sigh I hugged them.

Memories of us over the years played through my mind. The first time we kissed. It was a dare and before I even liked them, but funny to look back on. The time Y/n's dog bit me when I broke into their house as a joke. We even got matching tattoos when we blacked out. They smoked their first cigarette with me. The times I took care of them drunk.

"I'll miss you. More than you'll ever know." Hopefully they'd read between the lines and understand what I really want to say but cant. Not because I can't but because it was too late.

"Don't get all sappy on me now, Ry" They laughed while tears rushed down their face.

~

The day they left Bam and I went to their house helping them pack things into the car. Y/n's parents were thankful for the help. That was the only time they talked to us without yelling or being mad at us. There wasn't much to help with anyway because they already put all of the big things in the U-Haul.

Everything was in the car and it was time for them to leave. "Well, see you guys around." They smiled and my heart ached.

"Yeah see you around." Bam mumbled. Clearly as upset as I was.

"Bye, Y/n." I placed my hand on the side of their face, my thumb ready to wipe away any tears. Y/n smiled softly and took a deep breathe. "I really will miss you. Both of you."

"Obviously there's no one like us" Bam lightly joked

"Maybe that’s a good thing." Y/n laughed

After a few more seconds Y/n waved and got into the backseat of the car. The car drove down the street out of sight.

"You never told Y/n, did you?"

“No.”


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