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Rare vent post on this account...

I don't normally vent on this account, but I had reality set in, and I just realized how fucking bad my situation is. Due to financial issues, my mother and I are currently living with my grandmother. Both of them are horrifically transphobic, which has made every day a living nightmare. My mother knows about my identity but refuses to acknowledge it, instead choosing to go down the detransition rabbit hole and try to guilt-trip me into not being the real me. My grandmother doesn't know, and honestly that's probably for the best. I'm going to try to set up some kind of intervention for my mother with my therapist because I don't know if she realizes how much suffering she's putting me through and that what she's doing is not normal. I'm going to try to set that up for tomorrow. I'll have my phone on me, recording the audio so that if she decides to say something overtly transphobic I can actually have evidence to give to social services. Then again, I don't know if social services would actually do anything, considering they did nothing last time. Currently, I don't have a source of income, so affording an apartment is out of the question. And living with anyone else in my family would lead to more transphobia and pain. If I knew I could get away with it, I'd kill my mother and grandmother in cold blood and run away. I want to feel safe in my own skin. It feels like everything around me is slowly falling apart, and I'm helpless to stop it.

The Guardian

Adobe...

Fuck adobe. Genuinely fuck adobe. This is morally reprehensible. I hope Shantanu Narayen goes straight to hell. This is not the behaviour of a creative software. This is the behaviour of a fucking Trojan virus.

The game I want to make has become the game I need to make. This is not a bad thing at all, I am in love with the little worlds I have planned, and I want to share them with people.

Tiny issue… I suck with game engines. (I've only ever had real experience with Construct 2, I guess?? I've tried using Unreal Engine and Godot, but I can't wrap my head around those.)

Ideally, I'd have an engine that,

1. Supports both 3D and 2D in the same project.

2. Uses visual scripting that my tiny ape brain can understand.

And 3. Doesn't cost 17 billion dollars.

If anyone could guide me in the right direction, I'd be more than thankful.

Is this anything?

Fear and Hunger in Las Vegas

IDK lol

Here's this two-headed freak, I designed for a game I'm working on.

Let's start over, shall we?

My name is Julia, I am an amateur game developer who has yet to actually create a full game. But that will change.