It Is Terrifying How Fast Time Passes, And With A Same Old Same Old Stagnation

It is terrifying how fast time passes, and with a same old same old stagnation

I looked at old emails and I was on Lexapro and lamictal for 15 years. I rexeo went off the 10 mg Lexapro and swapped it out for 0.25 respradone( I think)I don't know how long I was on the 10 mg for Lexapro or how long I was on another doasage

I wish I could talk to that " rain crystal"( yes, the one who knew Jenova from that soul bonding fiction kin drama )woman again. Maybe I pushed her away.bibeont know. I deleted some emails and now I regret it. One I must of mentioned gender problems and I am upset I did, what did I say?

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is this masking?

I killed off parts of my self. once in middle school and I don't "sing anymore". and at age 17 because I didn't feel like I was growing up much. I invisioned invicerating a Goldilocks looking character. and then ...uh. I wasn't the same. is that ultra masking? it's just a smoldering hole. I assume one should be a little over the top when role playing, and not drull "yes I want to grab the sword, please give dice" and not, sit there and act like I'm telling a story. I couldn't do that. maybe in text, role play chat rooms.  or if I ever have to entertain a child. "i ain't playing dolls with ya kid" or, the singing, just sit on a bus and just make up lyrics on the fly. and be jovial about it. I don’t know if I have any kind of Autism. I stoped the singing because it embrassed a friend of mine.

Some paint I had left over

ah there it is

https://jackrabbit.thecomicseries.com/comics/1#content-start I think of this time to time. fond memories. i don’t know if I had made friends on the forum. or if i went by kuroyami there, or kuwaizair. or......anything else. dark kennith....

Some paint I had left over