Is This Masking?

is this masking?

I killed off parts of my self. once in middle school and I don't "sing anymore". and at age 17 because I didn't feel like I was growing up much. I invisioned invicerating a Goldilocks looking character. and then ...uh. I wasn't the same. is that ultra masking? it's just a smoldering hole. I assume one should be a little over the top when role playing, and not drull "yes I want to grab the sword, please give dice" and not, sit there and act like I'm telling a story. I couldn't do that. maybe in text, role play chat rooms.  or if I ever have to entertain a child. "i ain't playing dolls with ya kid" or, the singing, just sit on a bus and just make up lyrics on the fly. and be jovial about it. I don’t know if I have any kind of Autism. I stoped the singing because it embrassed a friend of mine.

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this was an experance from the late 90′s. my friends and I had a “spirit friend”. i wasn’t paying attintion to the fact Ildon from Saga Frontier was blind and gay. before that I wanted someone to be in love with me. anyone. and it was a mess. flash foward a few years. early 20 aughts. and I discovered the soulbonding community. but what we were doing was not soulbonding.

if demons exist how do you know it's not a demon fooling around? those who believe tell us not to consult mediums and such, due to the fact a demon will just claim they are who you seek out. that is what they do. they lie, and maybe eat our energy, if "that kind of energy exists"

With the amount of positive relationships that soulbonders and soulbonds have it is very unlikely that this is true. A relationship with the kind of demon you are thinking of would not be positive for very long since it would be built on lies and one person would be drained the whole time. Every single soulbonder would be in distress constantly, which they are not. It just doesn’t really add up.

However, this is not to say that demons themselves can’t be soulbonds. Soulbonds can be literally anything and there have been cases of people bonding with demons or beings that resemble demons that are often less destructive than the traditional demons you seem to be thinking of.

There can also be deceptive or dishonest soulbonds which is important to keep in mind and watch out for. Just like the people that live here, there can be really nice soulbonds and there can be ones that are horrible. Soulbonds can lie and can do things for personal gain just as easily as anyone else potentially can.

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COVID kid space alien

It is terrifying how fast time passes, and with a same old same old stagnation

I looked at old emails and I was on Lexapro and lamictal for 15 years. I rexeo went off the 10 mg Lexapro and swapped it out for 0.25 respradone( I think)I don't know how long I was on the 10 mg for Lexapro or how long I was on another doasage

I wish I could talk to that " rain crystal"( yes, the one who knew Jenova from that soul bonding fiction kin drama )woman again. Maybe I pushed her away.bibeont know. I deleted some emails and now I regret it. One I must of mentioned gender problems and I am upset I did, what did I say?

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