How Do You Think If These Things

how do you think if these things 😭😭😭

Well Anon... my mind is a confusing space. (I also read one too many toxic bl manhwas and manhuas-) I'm totally sane! I think- Is anyone sane if they use Tumblr? I think not. Oh! And I also consume lots of dark romance media that probably violate the Geneva Convention somehow! Yeah... You can also think of these things for the simple price of your sanity and 99 cents! Jk. You just need to give up your sanity. It's free!

I look into her eyes, and I see my entire life in them. My world, my future, my past— I've given all of myself to her. And when she turns her head to me -lighting up like mine do every time- all I can do is smile at her like an idiot.

She was meant to be another conquest, just another tally on my bed post. So when did she manage to sneak her way into my heart? Was it when I was rejected for the first time? …No. It was when she started being vulnerable to me. It was when she started to notice the little things— keeping water bottles in her bag for me, wrapping my bloodied knuckles with the first aid kit she started to bring with her, feeding me candies whenever I would start to pick up a cigarette. She was almost like my own little wife at school, nagging me to take care of myself… It felt… addictive. No one ever looked at me like her, so pure and attentive. So why don't I just make it official? Anyone would be happy to have a husband like me, right?

Don't cry, little girl— I don't think I can hold back if I see your pretty tears. I promise that I'm a gentleman, but even a man has his limits. I've already stolen your first kiss, so now I'll steal your first time. What? You were saving it for a special someone? Forget about that impoverished scum, Se Eun will give you everything you could possibly want~ Just not your freedom.

Ethan… The boy where I learned love from, and that I continue to love. The angel of my life, even if he will never know that. Lucifer and Lilith, Psyche and Eros; they all ended in tragedy because humanity was selfish for wanting what is not theirs. And so I'll just watch him— from the side as he soars beyond the clouds. One day, I won’t be able to see him anymore; -too high up for the average person to see- but that day is not today. Please continue to smile at me, Ethan… and I'll do the same for you.

The Devil is in my life now, plaguing my every waking moment and dreams. He wants me, and he won't take no for an answer. Everyday, I can feel more and more chains being wrapped around my limbs and throat— my sins too heavy to bear. He claims that he already owns my soul, but how could he when I've already given all of it away? I've given my entire self to my angel, my savior— my love, my salvation. His whispers spread chills across my skin, his touch temporarily branding me as his. He promises that it'll be permanent one day. The Devil claims that I'm his, but I'm already someone else's— someone who doesn't even know that I'm his, and will always be his.

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KYAAAAAA- SNEAK PEEK- SNEAK PEEK- IM GETTING IT BETA READ AND IT SEEMS LIKE GREAT FEEDBACK SO FAR-

Contains:

doomed lovers (my fav- yum-), love triangle (well, more like someone forcefully ruining what should be just straight up fluff), power dynamics, angst, smut (like lots of it- I like kinks okay-), unhealthy representation of love, healthy representation of love, hand holding (squealing like a school girl cuz how scandalous-), puppy love (they're honestly so cute-), there's more but I gotta write it-

Oh yeah- there's like dub-con, non-con, abuse, yadda yadda yadda- just think of any major warnings and it'll probably be there-

Title: uhhhhhhh- I don't know yet- (probably something something heaven. Something something fallen. Idk-)

OMG- I WAS JUST SO INSPIRED BY MY C.AI CHAT-

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Soft Yandere! Veteran who will take care of you~!

Bro's a cutie actually- I can't believe he was written on a whim- You don't understand how much I love this old man- (I'd probably ride him until we both pass out-) This is unfortunately a fem reader scenario. Sorry, pookies- I can't make a descriptive scene if it can be both a dick and pussy. MINORS DNI. MINORS DNI. MINORS DNI. Anyways- This was written with "Guys My Age" put on the entire time- Probably explains all this- *** You don't know why it took you so long. If the you in the past knew just how good you could feel right now... Lackluster hookups and immaturity would've been a foreign concept to you. It was almost unfair if you compared any of your past lovers to the man between your legs right now. His tongue so sinful as it drags across your sopping wet cunt— your fingers tangled in his salt and pepper hair, his once combed hair now disheveled because of you. To be honest... The both of you looked fairly messed up by now. Your back arches when he starts to nip your sensitive bud, sucking on it in a way that makes you see stars when your head snaps up as a response to his ministrations. A whimper escapes from you as a finger effortlessly slides in your welcoming inner walls. A shiver runs through your spine when he chuckles at how wet you already were. "Look at you~ Are you really such a whore for an old man like me~? I’m honored~” You moan when he adds another finger in suddenly, breath hitching when he slowly scissors you. Was this what experienced men felt like? It was like he knew exactly where to go, like he knew your body better than you did. He pressed the right places, he kissed where you were the most sensitive— he looked at you in ways you never knew existed.

So when he made you cum harder than you ever did before… It didn’t surprise you when you felt the urge to keep him with you. You wanted more: more of him, more of whatever he was making you feel right now. He simply smiled when you shakily grabbed onto his shirt, pulling him in for a kiss. He quickly took control of the kiss too, his other hand snaking under your own shirt to grope your chest. It was only when your tears began to fall from the lack of air— did he finally part from your sweet, glossy lips.

“Already tapping out, huh?” He teases you, smirking when you shake your head and whine for him shamelessly. It didn’t matter that he was more than a decade older than you— it only mattered that he made you feel better than anyone ever did.  Your heart only quickened when his thumb brushes against your drool-covered lips, sensually licking your spit off his thumb.

His tongue darts out to lick his lips as well, lips that were covered with your slick. Even in your daze, you noticed how his eyes roamed over your figure— looking at you as if he was about to dig into his favorite meal. A dark chuckle rumbles from his chest, his fingers leaving you to unbuckle his belt. Before you could even whine about the emptiness he left, your knees were bent into your chest. Your thighs spread in a way that allowed him to see just how much you needed him.

“Get ready, love. You’re going to find out that an old dog can learn a few new tricks.” *** You don't understand how much I love this man- The headcanons and a whole fluff/smut scene is already in the works. Like that baker dude on Tiktok always says: "I am awesome and my ego is still undamaged."

Heloooo

Byeeee!

BYEEEEEEEE!

*cutely opens back up the doc that won't be changes in any way since writer's block is kicking me in my nonexistent nuts-*

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CUTE PICTURE THO- ☆☆☆

Okay- so like- You know those really unhinged yandere blurbs where they just confess their undying devotion to you? Yeah... I've gone off the deep end. (I also started to hyperfixate on the Bible too soooooo... Don't ask-) Clears throat *** Love me. I just need you to love me. Let me suffocate in your hold— kiss your warm lips while mine grow colder. Grace my eyes with yours before I can only watch you from the shadows. Remember my love and let it drown you until you're forced to meet me again by the blade of a knife; or by the end of a rope. I want you to love me even after both of our stories have ended. To be cursed with the memories of my voice, the warm skin of my body, and the way I looked at you like you fulfilled all of my dreams just by existing. *** ARGH- That was fun- Send me some asks if you like these- I'll still probably write more myself too- :D

Hiiii!

Just wanted to say your acc is sooo cute I luv the design of it🎀!!!

An ask- Someone gave me an ask- God I'm so happy right now- First of all. *clears throat.* THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!! I GOT INSPIRATION FROM THE OTHER YANDERE CREATORS!! I like solid and simple colors too! (Pink is primary because it's mi favorita! ♡♡♡) @lolawhyfangirl thank you so much!! I've been acknowledged- Crying right now- Sobbing even- This feels like my first comment on YouTube- Anyways- Thank you again. I'm kneeling to you right now fyi- I'm over the clouds right now- (this is making me want to post again-)

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I LOVE YOU SO MUCH-