Without U(Seunghwan-ROMEO)

Without U(Seunghwan-ROMEO)

Finally! So happy to have gotten a Romeo request! They really deserve more love and support. So please guys, please give hem some love!

Requested by: ImChaeRinVevo

~Check it check it out ROMEO is back. It did feel weird, I couldn't get ahold of you (Why) You don't know. How anxious I feel. I love you so much. I don't wanna lose you. I wanna stay with you until always. Your soft lips, your eyes I miss them every day~

"Mianhae," he said before getting up and walking away from the girl who was now sitting in her chair with tears sliding down her cheeks.

"Tch, jerk." You muttered before walking over to the girl and setting her drink down. "Mianhae," you told her softly as you placed your hand on her back, "Do you want anything? It'll be on the house."

The girl wiped her cheeks and shook her head before smiling up at you. "No, but thank you. I'm going to head out now though. Bye."

"Oh, bye."

You shook your head in pity and headed back behind the counter, "I hate guys who do stuff like that." You were muttering to yourself as you cleaned the counter. "Reason number one as to why I've never dated."

"What the hell do you mean break up?!"

Your eyes widened as you turned your head to where the screech had come from, leading your gaze to a girl who was quite literally fuming. "Another one?" You muttered to yourself and tilting your head slightly, "Though this one looks different from the first one."

"Mianhae," the guy said, "But i'm tired of you doing this. You always act innocent yet you're the one who's been cheating the whole time we've been together."

~What's the use of hanging out with friends every day? (Without you) What's the use of eating delicious food? (Without you) What's the use of sharing love? (Without you) What's the use of having a lot of money? When you left?~

Your eyes widened and you watched as the girl's face turned red, whether from embarrassment or anger you didn't know, and her jaw tightened. You opened your mouth to protest when you saw her hand grab a hold of her glass siting on the table but before you could speak she threw the contents on the boy, grabbed her bag, and was walking towards the door. You shook your head and quickly called out to her.

"Ma'am!"

She looked to you with narrowed eyes and thinly smiled, "Yes?"

"I'm sorry, but you're going to have to pay the bill."

"What?"

"Yeah, it's either you pay the bill or you pay for the dry cleaning. Either is fine with me though."

Her lips thinned and you just smiled at her before handing her the bill, "You can go pay over at the counter."

She grabbed the bill and stomped off with a frustrated yell while you watched with a satisfied smile before turning and heading over to the table where the boy sat.

"You alright?"

His eyes were on you already, you realized, and they were wide with amazement and amusement. "Th-Thank you for that."

~Without you, without you. What do I do? Without you, without you. What am I? Without you, without you. What are you doing? (without you) Without you, without you. I miss you so much. Ready! Action! Go shoot a movie by yourself, why don't you. Crying all night like this. I erased your number from my phone but I keep touching it~

You chuckled and turned your head to see the girl leaving, "No problem. I can't stand people that act like that."

He snorted and quickly covered his mouth with his hand, making you look to him with confusion. "I-I cannot believe you did that. I have never seen someone stand up to her like that."

"What, are people scared of her?"

He shook his head and wiped underneath his eyes, "No more like no one can stand her. Of course, her father is rich so they're smart enough to leave her be."

"Ah, people like that really irritate me." You cleared your throat and turned your head away when you felt his gaze still resting on you. "Uhm, I've got to go now but it was nice uh...talking with you. Glad I could help, but I've- yeah. Bye."

You turned quickly and rushed into the kitchen area where you could put your palms on your burning cheeks without anyone noticing.

Yet, you never realized that that same pair of eyes had watched you hurry off and was staring at the spot he last saw you with amusement in his eyes. He had never met anyone like you, especially not one that could speak their mind so easily. Seunghwan realized that without even noticing he was getting up to chase after you, he wanted to see you again and he wanted to get to know you. He didn't want this to be a one time meeting. So deciding that he got up and headed to the counter, determined that he'd at least get a promise to meet again.

~What's the use of good weather? (what're you doing?) What's the use of dressing up? (what're you doing?) This damn night alone feels so long. You're not here. Your soft lips, your eyes, I miss them every day~

"Y/n, there's someone asking for you." F/n said as she poked her head in through the doorway.

"For me? Oh, okay."

You got up and followed her through the doors and back into the cafe, stopping once you reached the counter and saw who was asking for you. "You again," you said slowly as you walked up to him. "Did you need something?"

"Your number," he said bluntly making you start to choke on your own spit.

"M-My number?"

"Mhm, I'd like to get in touch again."

"You...would," you said making you close your eyes and mentally hit yourself. Gosh, stop sounding so stupid.

You opened your eyes when you heard him laugh and your heart almost stopped when he smiled at you. "Of course, I have to thank you for helping me out back then right?"

"Oh, no you don-"

"Please?" He said softly, looking at you with a small yet gentle smile.

Eventually you caved and exchanged numbers with him which was new to you. And so, after a smile and a wave he walked out of the cafe and past the windows out of your line of sight. After you couldn't see him anymore you collapsed against the counter and banged your forehead against the top, only stopping when a palm was placed underneath it. Glancing up you saw f/n standing beside you with a soft smile on her face and an open expression letting you know she'd listen to you.

"I am really stupid aren't I?"

~What's the use of hanging out with friends every day? (Without you) What's the use of eating delicious food? (Without you) What's the use of sharing love? (Without you) What's the use of having a lot of money? When you left?~

She rolled her eyes and shook her head, "In what way exactly??"

You laid your head back on the counter top and told her all of what happened, leaving her with raised eyebrows and a smirk on her face. "So? Any advice?"

She covered her mouth quickly but didn't fight back the laugh that escaped her. "Omo, why don't you just humor him and go on a date with him? Didn't you think he was cute?"

You straightened quickly and turned your face away so she wouldn't see your now red cheeks. "Of course not! I gave him my number because otherwise he wouldn't have left me alone!"

"Wow, you're so transparent. And you're a really bad liar."

"Unnie!"

"What? You are. Look, you think the boy's cute right?" She stared at you and watched as a blush formed on your cheeks again and you reluctantly nodded. "And do you think he has a personality you like?"

"What personality? I've only met him once! How am I supposed to know what personality he has?"

"Well, simple. You said he broke up with his girlfriend cause she had been cheating on him right?" You nodded and looked to her in question. "So, seeing as how he said the whole relationship wouldn't that mean that he gave her more than a second chance?"

"Yeah I guess, so?"

"So~ It means he has a kind heart."

Your eyebrows drew together in confusion and you looked at f/n closely. "How the heck did you come up with that conclusion?"

"Simple, I use my brain."

"Yah!"

You both started to laugh and then set to work, closing up and all the while you thought about Seunghwan.

~Without you, without you. What do I do? Without you, without you. What am I? Without you, without you. What are you doing? (without you) Without you, without you. I miss you so much. Without you, without you. What do I do? Without you, without you. What am I? Without you, without you. What are you doing? (without you) Without you, without you. I miss you so much~

Five Months Later

After Seunghwan had gotten your number he had called you and you both had started to hand out more frequently, and now here you were in a relationship with him. He had asked you out about a month after you guys started hanging out and yes though you knew it was very early you really did enjoy your time with him. Every time you both would be together you had so much fun and he always did something, whether big or small, to make you feel special.

"Jagi!"

You looked up from the counter and smiled, "You're back! Did you have a good practice?"

"Yeah, I just missed you." He pouted and walked up to you wrapping his arms around your waist and laying his chin against your shoulder.

You laughed and patted his head, "Awe. Don't worry I'm sure the boys kept you busy."

"Ugh, yes. Today they wouldn't stop being mean to me."

"Oh? How were they being mean?"

"They kept making fun of you because apparently I was 'whining' about wanting to see you."

You smiled at him and leaned over to pinch his cheek. "My Seunghwan-ie is so cute."

"Ja~gi, not you two. Don't pick at me," he said puffing his cheeks out and turning his head away.

Laughing you walked over to him and kissed his cheek, "Ah mian mian. I won't do it again."

"Hmph."

"Oppa~ Mianhae," you said as you pouted and blinked quickly.

~Put your hands in the air, if you love me tonight. What more can I want? Let's get down down down down. Put your hands in the air, if you love me tonight. What can I do? Let's get down down down. Without you~

He fought a smile but lost as he soon let the smile cover his face and he grabbed you quickly, pulling you close. "Aiya, I can't stay mad at my jagi. You're too cute!"

"Oh shut up. Go ahead and get washed up, I'm going to finish dinner and you're not eating dinner sweaty and smelly."

"Yah! I don't smell!" You didn't answer and instead raised an eyebrow at him. "Ugh, fine~ It's not like you'll let me stay anyways."

"You can stay, but you're sleeping on the couch."

"Jagi~"

You laughed and watched him walk away, grumbling the whole way. You shook your head in amusement and went back to cooking glad to be able to cook for someone you care about now.

I Know(Hansol- TOPP DOGG)

Requested by: DinoChebz

~Tomorrow is Saturday, the weekend I've been waiting for. In the photo on my desk, you're smiling girl. I wonder where you are, what you're doing, who you're meeting (you're still a bad girl) Are you like this too? Probably not. Yeah Yeah (of course) I keep imagining things by myself. I hold it in, hold it in, hold it in but I keep looking for you~

"Hansol, wake up~" 

He groaned and turned over his back now facing the voice that was trying to wake him up. After a couple minutes of silence he smiled and sunk into his pillow glad that he was allowed to go back to sleep, though that didn't last long since a pillow was soon smacking against his face.

"Wake up!" Y/n shouted out as she laughed and tried to untangle her legs from the covers so she could run away.

Hansol gasped and sat up on the bed quickly, looking around and frowning when he saw his room was empty and sunlight was just starting to shine through his bedroom window. He turned his head towards his clock and rubbed his eyes when he saw the time, 6: 15 am, blaring in red letters. 

"Ugh, stupid imagination."

He got out of bed and made his way slowly into the bathroom before looking through tired eyes at his reflection in the mirror. Shaking his head he splashed water on his face and went about getting ready for the day, remembering he was going out with the guys today.

After he was done he looked over his reflection once more in the mirror and looked to the side at the photo frame that was face down on the surface of the counter. He sighed and picked it up, turning it over. With a sad smile on his face he looked down at the couple that used to be so happy that he thought it was unreal. Sadly though he remembered that it was unreal and so fragile that he lost it, forever.

Brushing his finger over the smiling face of the girl that Hansol had his arms wrapped around. "I miss you," he whispered before setting the picture back down this time propped up.

Then grabbing his wallet and keys he headed out of the house and started down the street towards his hyung's house where everyone would be meeting. Glancing up at the sky he noticed that it was slightly cloudy and getting darker, which made Hansol get an odd feeling.

~I try to forget you and stay up all night drinking. I try to erase you and meet other girls but you are so beautiful, girl you incredible. Do you Know? Do you Know? I know, I know, I press and erase your number several times. Do you even think of me? I hate you. Do you know how I'm feeling? Do you know my love?~

Your POV:

"Y/n, are you ready?"

"Hmm?" You glanced at your door with wide eyes, the picture frame you had been looking at you slowly lowered it so Jihye wouldn't be able to see it. "Ah, mm. I'll be down in a second."

[A/n: listening to Fool by WINNER really sets the mood for this x'D I wasn't a huge fan of winner before, I loved Empty, but Fool just really makes me love them now. Really Really was good as well but I liked Fool more. Gaaahhh their voices!]

"Alright," she said before starting back down the hall, "We'll be in the car!"

You sighed and glanced back in the picture that was still in the frame, the happy couple mocking you as they smiled happily at the camera. You set the frame down and opened up your jewelry case and picked up the ring that you had hidden underneath all the others. A sad smile crossed your face as you stared at it and thought about when it was first given to you.

"I miss you," you whispered before setting the ring back in the drawer and getting up from the vanity.

You headed outside and got in the car that had your best friends in it, ready to go out for the day just the four of you. "Where are we going?" You asked since they had decided to keep it a secret from you, which made you very suspicious of it all.

"Oh, Eunha didn't tell you?" Jihye asked as she glanced at the girl in the review mirror.

"No, just said that we were going to spend the day together."

"Hmm~" Jihye said as she glanced once again at the girl sitting on the backseat with a pleading look on her face. "I guess it'll be a surprise."

You laughed and turned to stare out the window, not questioning her anymore and not noticing the nervous look Eunha had on her face as she glanced towards me every couple minutes. Maybe if you had seen that look, maybe if you noticed how nervous she was, you could've dragged it out of her and turned around but you didn't.

~I sing my love song for you hundreds of times. How can my stopped heart erase you? Do you know how I'm feeling? Do you know my love? Even if we run into each other for a little bit, my heart stops. In order to walk next to you some day, I'll prepare an umbrella on rainy days. I can't live without you Yeah Yeah (of course) I keep imagining things by myself. I hold it in, hold it in, hold it in but I keep looking for you~

Jihye parked the car outside the front of a very nice house that you didn't recognize, but that didn't stop you from getting out of the car and following the girls up the front walk to the door.

"Where are we?"

"Shh, you'll see."

You grumbled and looked off to the side as the door opened and a familiar voice greeted you, making your eyes widen. Frozen you didn't look to the door already knowing that if you did it would just confirm your current fear.

Eunha turned and sighed when she saw you refusing to look at Sehyuk who had said hello to you. "Y/n, it's alright. I can take you home if you want. You don't have to stay here."

"Why did you not tell me?"

She looked down and then slowly back up at me, letting me see the regret in her eyes. "I'm sorry, I honestly thought they had told you and you were okay with it."

You turned your eyes to Sehyuk who was awkwardly smiling at you and asked him the question you already knew the answer to. "Is he here?"

He turned his eyes toward the ground and slowly nodded before raising his eyes to meet mine again. You let out a painful breath and turned away, starting to walk towards the park you knew was close, as you tried to fight back the sudden tears that had hidden.

"Y/n, where are you going?" Eunha called out worriedly as she watched me slowly disappear from their sight. Turning towards Sehyuk, who was now beside her and watching you walk away, she nodded towards the house. "Let's just give her some time."

They started towards the house and had just walked onto the porch when the door was thrown open and a heavy-breathing Hansol looked to her with wide eyes. "Where is she?"

~I try to forget you and stay up all night drinking. I try to erase you and meet other girls but you are so beautiful, girl you incredible. Do you Know? Do you Know? I know, I know, I press and erase your number several times. Do you even think of me? I hate you. Do you know how I'm feeling? Do you know my love?~

You blinked and looked up at the sky as you felt something wet hit your arm. "Oh, perfect mood setting...rain."

Sighing, you looked back down to your lap and got lost in your thoughts again. Your mind going back to the past memories you used to share with the most special person in your life.

"Ja~gi. Jagi," a voice whispered in your ear making you turn over. "Jagi, come on. You need to wake up."

You groaned and swung your hand blindly behind you, "Go away. Five more minutes."

The person laughed and you felt lips touch your cheek, "You said that ten minutes ago."

"I don't care."

"Jagi. Jagi~" 

You felt the weight shift and the bed go lighter meaning the person had left, or at least that's what you thought. Next thing you knew a pillow was smacking into your face making you gasp and open your eyes. They landed on the laughing figure that was leaning over you and narrowed.

"Hansol~!"

He laughed and leaned down, his hands laying on either side of your head and he kissed your forehead. "Mian, Mian. But we've got a busy day today and that was payback. Anyways, remember? We said we'd spend today together since I'm leaving tomorrow."

You watched his lips turn down into a pout and you let a smile slip onto your face. Sighing you wrapped your arms around his neck and said, "Fine fine. I'm up. What did you have planned?"

He smiled and jumped from the bed, raising his arms above his head and cheering. "Yes! Okay, we're going to a lot today! Get dressed and ready!"

You smiled sadly and brought a hand up, wiping the water that was running down your face. Whether it was the rain or your tears you honestly couldn't tell and all you knew was that you wanted to stay here. Because if you left, if you went there, you'd fall into his arms and you couldn't do that. You couldn't burden him anymore. You sighed and tipped your head back as you closed your eyes.

"Y/n!"

Your eyes opened and you slowly turned your head, blinking against the rain falling into your eyesight. "Ha-Hansol?"

~I sing my love song for you hundreds of times. How can my stopped heart erase you? Do you know how I'm feeling? Do you know my love? Again today, I stand in front of your house pacing back and forth all day. Only waiting for you to come back, hello. Do you Know? Do you Know?~

His POV:

He walked towards her, his hair sticking to his forehead and his chest heaving from running. Slowly the woman who he still loved, who still owned his entire heart, came into his sight and he almost cried at how much pain was etched onto her face. Don't, he thought, don't look at me that way! I should be the only one in pain so why do you make me worry so much?

She saw me looking at her and quickly turned her face away, wiping her eyes. How can she still look so beautiful? He finally snapped out of his thoughts only to realize that he had subconsciously moved closer to her and was now only and arm's length away. She's shaking, he thought. And even though he didn't know whether it was from the cold or her nervousness he quickly took off his jacket and slowly placed it over her shoulders.

He stilled when he had to bend in front of her face and took his time to rack his eyes over her features that were still no less than perfect to him. Slowly he brought a hand up and set it on her cheek, freaking out when he noticed just how cold her skin was.

"Crap! You're freezing, y/n!"

He brought an arm underneath your legs and another behind your back and he picked you up, quickly heading back to the house. He knew one thing at the moment, she was in more pain than she ever let on and he needed to know why. Seeing her in pain always hurt him more than he realized and it always surprised him.

"O-Oppa," she said quietly as she shivered in his arms. "M-I"

"Shh, it's okay. We can talk later, right now let's just focus on getting you warm."

She said nothing and instead chose to snuggle her head into the crook of his neck, making him melt even more and hold her even closer to himself. He finally reached the house and quickly brought her inside and up the stairs to where the guest room was. Skipping the bed he went for the bathroom instead and set her down on the toilet so he could fill the tub with warm water so she could warm up. 

He turned back towards her and quickly took his jacket and her over sweater off of her when he noticed she was shaking harder than before. "Geez, I don't how you're able to make me worry about you so much."

"Mi-Mianhae, Han-Hans-Hansol." She said, barely able to get it out from her teeth chattering together.

"Crap," he quickly turned off the water and put the stopper in. Then turning he picked y/n up and slowly set her down in the warm water hoping that he got to her in enough time so she wouldn't get sick. "There you go," he told her softly as he placed his hand on her forehead and pushed her hair back.

"Please don't get sick."

"Op-Oppa," she whispered with her eyes closed as her head kept turning.

"Shh," he said as he grabbed a hold of her hand.  "I'm here. I'm not going anywhere don't worry."

"Mi-Mianhae, oppa. I-I didn't wa-want to b-be a burden an-any-anymore. Pl-Please don't h-hate me."

"A burden?" He questioned as he looked to your passed out figure in the water with confusion. "Why the hell do you think you're a burden that's jus-"

Hansol stopped and looked closely at y/n as he studied over her words in his head. I didn't want to be a burden anymore...Is..Is that why you left me? He questioned himself as he watched her breathe slowly.

~I know, I know, I press and erase your number several times. Do you even think of me? I hate you. Do you know how I'm feeling? Do you know my love? Do you know? I sing my love song for you hundreds of times, how can my stopped heart erase you? Do you know how I'm feeling? Do you know my love? You know what? You know what?~

Your POV:

You slowly opened your eyes as the sunlight shined on your figure in the bed, waking you up from a dreamless sleep which was a first. You'd always have one very bad nightmare and you'd always wake up screaming in the middle of the night, but Hansol was always there and he always managed to comfort you. It started getting worse when you left though and you took it as a punishment for hurting him so you accepted it knowing you had done wrong.

Wait a minute, you thought to yourself when you were finally awake enough to notice that you weren't in your own room. Uhm, okay? What exactly happened??

There was a soft knock on the door and you swiveled your head towards it then opening your mouth to speak, only to realize that you couldn't speak because your throat was so sore. You brought a hand up to it and rubbed it while the door opened and Eunha stuck her head inside the doorway. 

"Hey," she said softly, "How are you feeling?"

"Okay I guess, what happened?"

"You mean you don't remember?" 

You shook your head as your answer and watched as her eyebrows slowly came together from confusion. Her eyes flicked to the bed behind you and you turned to see Hansol's head laying beside you on the bed, holding your hand as if it was his last life-line. Opening you mouth to scream Eunha quickly covered it and hushed you.

"He was up all night taking care of you. Don't wake him up."

Nodding you quietly got out of bed and, with clothes from Eunha, you headed into the bathroom to get ready for the day. You ignored the fact that Hansol, the only man you've ever loved and yet hurt, was outside in the room laying on the bed asleep. The same bed you had slept in. And he was right beside you all night. You sighed and shook your head before splashing some water on your face to help wake you up.

After you were finished you walked out of the bathroom door and stopped when you saw Hansol sitting there with his head in his palms. He heard the door open and raised his head, looking at you with tired eyes. He still looks so handsome though, you said before chasing those thoughts away. You didn't even deserve to look at him like that anymore, even think of him.

"Uhm, go-good morning." You said before heading over to the bedroom door.

"Stop," he said lowly yet no anger was heard in his voice. You could feel his eyes burning into your back and you stayed standing where you were, your hand still raised towards the doorknob. "Come sit, we need to talk."

"I-uh, I don't have anything to talk about though. I'm just going t-"

"I do! I have a lot to say and I deserve for you to come and listen to me."

You knew he was right, you knew that he deserved to tell you how he felt but you also knew that if he asked you why that you couldn't explain. But you chose to listen to him anyways so you walked to the end of the bed and sat down.

"When you left me, with that stupid note and the ring on the counter, you tore my heart out. You didn't even tell me why you were left! You just told me goodbye. I'm sure you probably heard from the guys, but I went into a depression. I didn't come out of my room for over a week."

Your eyes widened and you stilled. He-He went into a depression?  You heard him pause and felt his eyes on you. 

"They didn't tell you?"

You knew why now, the boys must've hated you and you honestly couldn't blame them. 

Hansol sighed and you felt the bed dip as he moved closer to you and took your hand. "Why did you feel like a burden?"

"What?"

"That's why you left isn't it? Something happened and made you feel like you were a burden to me?"

Ho-How'd he know? 

"You said it last night after I brought you here and tried to warm you up." What exactly happened last night?  "Last night I was going to find you and show you how mad I was, but when I saw you sitting on that bench in the rain and you turned towards me...that pain you had on your face. I-It killed me. I figured out that I was still worrying about you and that I still-"

He stopped and placed his palms on your cheek, turning your head to face his. The look in his eyes made you loose your breath.

"I still love you." He said softly, making your eyes widen. "And I want to know what made you feel like a burden, because y/n you've never been a burden to me."

You felt tears rising in your eyes and you quickly closed them and lowered your head. Hansol's arms wrapped around you and pulled you into his chest. 

"Don't cry baby. Please, It hurts me to see you cry." He brought his hands back to your face and wiped his finger under your eye. "I love you." He leaned forward and kissed your forehead.

"Why?" You managed to get out as you looked at him. "Why do you still love me after I hurt you?"

He smiled and pushed a strand of hair behind your ear. "Because you're the girl I gave my heart to and you can't give it back s easily. A part has always been with you and know that you're here in my arms it's back together again and it's still fully yours."

"I-I love you, too." 

Very Nice(Joshua[Seventeen]&V[BTS])

Requested by: raphiewuzhere

~I used to need wake-up calls in the morning so why am I waking up so easily today. Maybe it's because I have a date today, I even had a nice dream last night. I wear new shoes (When I go out the front door) Today's weather resembles you a lot, the way to you becomes flowery. If I can catch a glimpse of your elusive heart (My whole body is itching and beating) What is this sensation, what do I do~

"Raphie, Joshua's here!"

"Thanks mom!" You hurried down the hall and to the front door, putting your shoes on quickly before waving to your parents and rushing out the door. "Hey, Joshua. Thanks for offering to walk with me today."

He smiled up at you and offered a hand for balance as you tried to fix your shoe, "It's no problem. I'm just glad to have someone to walk to school with."

"Oh yeah," you set your foot down on the ground and leveled your gaze at him, "you don't know anyone in your neighborhood."

"Yeah, sometimes being a new neighbor has it's down points."

You laughed and bumped your shoulder into his as the both of you started your walk, the light breeze blowing against your face and making you smile. "By the way, happy birthday."

His eyes widened as he looked over to you, the shock evident on his face. "You remembered?"

You rolled your eyes and hit his arm, "Of course I remembered. Jeez, I'm not that stupid you know."

Joshua laughed and you briefly had time to admire the way his eyes crinkle cutely when he smiles or laughs. "I didn't mean to call you stupid, but now that you mention it."

"Yah!" You swung your palm at his arm but missed when he jumped to the side to avoid it.

"Raphie! Wait up!"

The both of you stopped and you turned halfway, smiling at the boy that was getting closer to you since he was running. "Hey, Tae."

"Mo-Morning, Raphie. Morning Joshua."

"Morning, Taehyung."

"Happy birthday, Tae."

~Very nice! Very nice! Nice! Very nice! Let me ask you something, do you think you would float around in a dream too? (Yes) Do you think that if I got a gym membership I would become a cool guy? (Yes) Do you think I'm nervous because this is my first love? I think you are the answer to all of my questions~  

The boy in front of you straightened up and smiled widely at you, reaching his arms out to give you a hug. "Thank you."

"Yeah, happy birthday twin." Joshua said as he smiled and pushed Taehyung playfully.

Tae laughed and pushed him back, "Yeah happy birthday to you too."

"That's so strange," you muttered to yourself not realizing you had spoken aloud.

"What is?" They both asked in unison, before looking to each other weirdly.

"Well, that for one thing. But I meant you guys being born on the exact same day of the exact same year."

They shrugged and turned to each other, discussing about something that had to do with their after school jobs while you listened in. Walking to school with the two was something that rarely happened but when it did it always seemed to put you in a better mood so you had arrived at the school with a wide smile on your face as you laughed about something Taehyung had said to Joshua. You got the usual stares and heard the occasional whispers that you always did when you were with either of them, making it worse since you were with both of them.

You waved goodbye to the both of them and headed off towards your locker, sad now that you wouldn't see them for the rest of the day. "I hope school goes by fast," you muttered to yourself as you grabbed your books.

"Hey, Raphie!"

You jumped and grabbed onto your locker door, slowly turning around to find a smiling Hyuk. You narrowed your eyes and hit his chest, "That's not funny!"

"Ha! I thought it was, you should've seen your face when you turned."

You rolled your eyes but smiled slightly, getting the rest of your books and shutting your locker before heading off to class. Hyuk was in step with you and instantly started his normal interrogation.

"So, it's the boys' birthdays today."

"Mhm," you said absent-mindedly as you walked along.

"So, did you ask one out already?"

~Ah, I wonder how you can be so pretty. There's a good restaurant across the street (Let's go) Today's weather resembles you a lot, the way to you becomes flowery. If I can catch a glimpse of your elusive heart (My whole body is itching and beating) What is this sensation, what do I do? Very nice! Very nice! Nice! Very nice!~

You stopped and turned to Hyuk with wide eyes, "What?! No!"

He frowned and pursed his lips, "And why not?"

"Becuase, I-" You paused and looked off to the side, "Because, I can't ask either of them. Besides it's not like they like me like that."

"So many likes in one sentence," Hyuk muttered as he rolled his eyes then quickly followed behind you as you walked away again. "Seriously though, I feel bad for those boys. You're just stringing them along and you know that's not nice to do. I think you should just choose one and get it over with."

"Hyuk!"

"Sorry, sorry. I'm going." He stuck his tongue out at you and turned into a classroom calling out behind him, "See you later Raphie! Make your decision before those boys die for you!"

"Yah! Han Sanghyuk!"

You sighed and turned, utterly confused and unsure about what to do, and you headed to class.

~~~

You were walking out the school doors, school just being dismissed, with Hyuk and smiled when you saw Taehyung and Joshua waiting for you. "Hey guys," you called out as the both of you drew near. "Have a good day?"

"Raphie, we spent our birthdays in school." Taehyung said matter-of-factly as he raised an eyebrow, "What do you think?"

Joshua rolled his eyes and smiled, "I had a good day. Hey, Hyuk."

Hyuk nodded and smiled at the boys, telling them happy birthday before turning and giving you a hug. "Choose, don't string them along."

You felt heat rise to your cheeks and was instantly thankful that a breeze had just started to blow by, helping you cool down before the blush settled. "You guys ready to head home?"

"Actually~" Taehyung said slowly as he glanced over at Joshua, who has nodding to him. "We wanted to swing by that cafe, you know the one we always met up at?"

"Oh, okay. It's your birthday, let's go."

~Some people say that dating is only dating and that's it. Then if I can make the starting point the ending too so I can start with you and finish with me. Like when we hold our hands together, like a circle we are endless. This situation, forever. Just the two of us, forever. Let's not believe that first love never comes true. I hope that we aren't tricked by familiarity and lose each other~

"I can't believe you actually did that," you told Taehyung as all three of you laughed from the story he had just told you.

"Well, I did and she was not happy."

"What'd she do?" Joshua, who was sitting next to you, asked as he leaned forward on his arms that rested on the table.

For once you found yourself surprised at how well they were getting along today, not that they didn't get along good before but they never got along like they were today. In a weird way it almost scared you that they were getting along so well. You kept watching closely to see what exactly seemed so off to you, what seemed to change overnight. Taehyung was closer to you than he's ever been today and Joshua seemed more helpful than anything.

Maybe it's because it's their birthday, you thought to yourself as you took a sip of your drink. "Hey guys, are you done with your drinks?"

They looked to you and nodded in sync, freaking you out even more, before looking to each other and laughing. "Seriously, so weird." You shook your head and stood from the table, pushing your chair out as you headed towards the door to throw your stuff away and wait for the boys.

After you were a couple blocks away from the little cafe you noticed that the two had been whispering, their faces suddenly turned serious. "Uhm, guys? Secrets don't make friends," you told them with a smile on your face. "What's up with you two today? You've been acting strange all day and it's starting to weird me out."

They glanced at each other, silently communicating, before Joshua opened his mouth to speak. "Wanna go to the park?"

You were silent for a while, trying to gauge whether he was serious or not. "What? No. I want you guys to tell me what's wrong."

Taehyung sighed, something that was very strange itself, and rubbed a hand over his face. "We just don't want you to freak out."

"Freak out? Why would I freak out?" You took a half-step back and looked at them, your eyebrows drawn together in confusion. "What's going on?"

"Calm down," Joshua said reassuringly as he walked towards you and patted your shoulder. "It's nothing bad."

"You promise?"

"We promise," they answered yet again in unison.

"Okay, fine. Then tell me what's going on."

"Let's go to the park first, it's just down the street. We'll tell you there."

~So we can protect "us", uh. I'm serious, out of nowhere, out of nowhere. Today I am. Very nice! Very nice! Nice! Very nice! I had a great day today. I hope to have our next date soon. The way to your house is too short. I'll see you, same time tomorrow~

You were now seated on the first bench you came to with both boys one either side of you, neither speaking. The tension surrounding you was so thick you felt like you were going to suffocate. Neither seemed to be eager to start talking, both looking away from you lost in their own thoughts. You sighed and looked down at your hands now your fear was worsening tenfold and you had no clue what they were even feeling.

"Guys," you said slowly to break the silence, "Are we going to sit here all night? Because I don't know about you but this is awkward."

"Raphie, we have something very important we need to tell you." Joshua started but paused once he finished the sentence, making you even more worried.

You stayed silent waiting for him to finish, to say something, to say anything but he never finished speaking. He just stared at you with wide, unsure eyes. Finally Taehyung sighed and turned your attention towards him by clearing his throat.

"What we have to tell you is very important to us, Raphie. So, we don't want you to freak out and leave us hanging but we don't expect an answer from you right away. We just need to tell you this before the both of us explode."

You didn't know what was freaking you out more, the fact that Taehyung looked so serious at the moment or that Joshua looked so scared. Staying silent another minute, you tried to figure out if you actually wanted to know what they had to tell you. Your brain voted no, coming to the conclusion that if it affected your friendship overall you didn't want to know, but your heart voted yes knowing it was important enough to them to risk the relationship.

You sighed and  nodded to Taehyung, silently letting him know you were listening to him. A small smile came onto his face and he looked so relieved you felt your heart constrict, a familiar feeling lately, and you turned to Joshua who also seemed relieved yet still looked worried. You weren't sure how you had managed to fall for both guys, who were so different in so many good ways, and you knew that you shouldn't but you had and there was no coming back from that.

"Raphie, we- uhm- same time Joshua?"

Joshua must've nodded because the next thing you knew they were standing and walking in front of you, standing in your line of vision so you could see them both. Then at the same time, this time planned, they told you the four words that made your heart feel like it stopped beating completely.

"I like you, Raphie."

Cinderella(Jung Yonghwa-CNBlue)

Yonghwa was requested as an actor. I'm so glad I added actors to the list x'D

Requested by: Senpai Baka

~Hello my baby, I wanna be with you. Day and night, Together I wanna see this night end. The scent of your baby lotion lingers in my nose. All of my nerves and senses are alert, my god. When the clock strikes 12, you disappear like magic but I can't let you go today girl. When the clock strikes 12, turn off your phone I just wanna be with you~

"Well, this is just perfect." You muttered angrily to yourself as you squinted your eyes and tilted your head up, letting the rain slide down your cheeks. "Of course it would rain."

Getting your hair out from in front of your eyes you huffed and headed underneath a nearby building's awning, taking a seat on the steps in front. You looked out at the rain that was pouring down harder now and felt water fall down your cheeks, though this time they weren't rain drops. You didn't understand why your life had to be like this. Why did you have to be abandoned by everyone? Why did no one want you? You kept wiping away tears only for more to fill its place.

"Hmm? Why are you..sitting here in the rain?"

You sniffled and looked up, squinting to try to see the person who was talking, but it was no use. Your vision was getting blurry no matter how many times you blinked and you were starting to feel very faint. The last thing you remember was falling towards the ground only to be caught against something warm, then you blacked out.

His POV:

"Aish, jinja. That little-" Letting out a breath of frustration Yonghwa continued down the street, thanking everything that he had remembered to bring his umbrella today. "Ahh~ It's really pouring."

Casting his eyes off to the left slightly, he noticed a small shaking figure sitting on the steps of an old building. He tilted his head in confusion as he weighed his options, before finally sighing and walking over to them. Once he had reached them he noticed it was a girl, a small almost fragile girl.

"Hmm? Why are you...sitting here in the rain?" He asked carefully, not wanting to frighten her.

His breath got stuck in his throat when she looked up at him, her eyes captivating him yet his heart breaking from the distraught look on her face. She looked broken, completely broken, and it was hurting him to see her like this. He glanced down at her small hands and his eyes widened when he noticed not only the blueness but the bruises and scrapes.

"gwenchanayo?" He asked her frantically as he knelt down in front of her and reached for her hands, wanting to warm them quickly.

He watched with panic as she started to fall sideways towards the sidewalk and he came back to his sense just in time to slide his arm under her and pull her towards himself. His panic only risen more when he felt how cold she was, even through his thick jacket and sweater. "Yah, yah."

Quickly, he picked her up and hurried down the road forgetting about his umbrella and trying to get her inside and warm. "Please stay with me," he whispered as he kept running.

~Cinderella ooh ooh ooh. Don't leave me alone, baby drive me crazy (crazy). Cinderella ooh ooh ooh. Without you tonight, I'm a loner baby. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me yea yea. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me yea yea. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me~

Your POV:

"You're usless!"

"Why can't you ever do anything right?"

"You should just die!"

Your demons surrounded you each one kicking, hitting, biting, some even spit or pulled your hair. They were all torturing you and you couldn't stand it. You were screaming but no one heard you. No one came to help. Why can't anyone hear me? Please, help me! You yelled out, crying out as more came and tortured you. Why won't they leave me alone?

Gasping you opened your eyes and tried to sit up, only to fall back against the soft pillows underneath your head. You laid there under the warm covers and tried to catch your breath as you looked around in caution.

"Whe-" You winced, bringing a hand up to your throat and even found that to be difficult. Every limb on your body felt as if it had a 10 ton pound of sand on them.

"Oh? You're awake?!" You blinked up at the figure tiredly, feeling a warm hand press against your forehead. "Ah, you're fever's gone down. That's a relief."

You felt the bed dip and managed to finally open your eyes long enough to study the handsome man that now sat beside you, giving you a gentle smile.

"Annyeonghasaeyo. My name is Jung Yonghwa. You're in my house and you're safe so don't worry. Ah! I'll get you some water real quick, I bet your throat is sore."

Jung Yong-hwa..? You felt a small smile tug at the corner of your lips, not used to be treated so gently before. He treated you almost as if you were fine china on the verge of breaking and you actually liked it.

He came back with a smile and a small glass of water, "Here. Let me help you."

So with one around around your back and the other holding the cup to your lips, you were able to drink and let the water soothe your raw throat. "Gomawo," you said after he laid you back down and set the cup down.

"Anniyo, I'm just glad your up and able to talk. How are you feeling though?"

"Tired."

"Jinja? Well go ahead and get some more rest, I'll leave this here so when you wake up just call alright?"

You nodded and smiled as you watched him leave, blinking slowly as your tiredness hit you. As soon as his figure was out of your sight completely you let your eyes fall shut and felt yourself fall asleep, praying no demons would haunt you this time.

~I spread a red carpet for you in front of my house. Walk over here, I'll treat you like a princess. Don't worry, I'm different from all the other wolves, I don't mean anything else, don't worry worry. When the clock strikes 12, you disappear like magic but I can't let you go today girl. When the clock strikes 12, turn off your phone I just wanna be with you~

You opened your eyes and blinked against the light shining into the window, brightening up the entire room and warming you. A small smile was set on your face as you looked around and your gaze landed on a re-filled glass of water and some medicine along with a note.

Hey, I hope you're feeling better! I had to go to work for a little bit, but I'll be back before lunch. I went ahead and fixed you breakfast but I left it downstairs so go ahead and see if you can get up. You should have your strength back! c: Alright, there's clothes on the counter in the bathroom you can use and my friend brought over some stuff you can use. Be careful and make sure you eat!

-Yonghwa

You smiled and surprised yourself when you laughed, more like giggled though. You hadn't laughed in years and it seemed almost foreign when it slipped out that for a second you weren't even sure if you had been the one that laughed. Smiling, you set the note back down and took your medicine  finishing the glass of water before standing and heading into the bathroom to freshen up.

Now dressed in clean clothes and washed clean you were sitting at the bar, eating the delicious meal that Yonghwa had made you. You were just getting new surprises every minute and if you were being completely honest, you loved it. You enjoyed the fact that for once someone was taking care of you, caring about you, and it definitely was new.

"Why, you little- How dare you speak back to her!"

You whipped around on your stool, eyes widened and breath coming out in pants. Looking around the room you swallowed nervously when you didn't see anyone, but you knew that voice and it terrified you. You jumped off your stool when you felt something touch you, repeatedly starting to shake your head. No no no, this isn't real. You thought to yourself, trying to convince yourself but the demons were just too real and too terrifying.

They started towards you and you couldn't help yourself anymore, feeling someone touch your arm you screamed and let the tears fall.

~Cinderella ooh ooh ooh. Don't leave me alone, baby drive me crazy (crazy) Cinderella ooh ooh ooh. Without you tonight, I'm a loner baby. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me yea yea. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me yea yea. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me~

"Shh, it's okay. It's me. Everything's okay."

You calmed down and looked back at Yonghwa who was now holding onto you and looking down at you with concern. "gwenchana?" He was talking softly, almost whispering, and rubbing your hair back which strangely calmed you down instantly.

You started to nod, then thought about what might happen if you stop pretending for once, so you shook your head and let your sobs out as he pulled you tightly to his chest.

"It's alright," he said still using that soft comforting voice, "I've got you. No one's going to hurt you, I promise."

You let your eyes fall closed and let yourself fall asleep yet again, comforted by the warmth of him and the gentle strokes of his hand. Though, before he had lost you to sleep you heard him whisper something almost as if he was promising himself.

"I'll never let anyone hurt you again, I promise."

*a few months later*

"Y/n-ah," a deep voice called out softly as it pulled you from your sleep.

You let out a groan and turned over, burying your face into your pillow and tuning the voice out.

"Yah~ Get up! We have to spend the whole day together remember? Awe~ jagi come on! I leave for tour in a couple days and you said you wanted to spend the time together!"

You sighed and turned over, rubbing your sleep weary eyes before blinking up at your handsome boyfriend tiredly. "Arraso~"

Yonghwa smiled widely, leaning down and kissing you sweetly then jumping from the bed and racing to the kitchen. "I'll make breakfast! You just go ahead and get ready!"

"Gomawo!"

You smiled then got out of bed to get ready, excited for the day ahead yet sad that it meant that the day Yonghwa was leaving was getting closer. After you were finished you headed downstairs and chuckled when you saw Yonghwa sitting on the couch in the living room, eating the pancakes he had made.

"Mmm, they smell delicious." You took the seat beside him and leaned over, giving him a kiss on the cheek. "Gomawo, oppa."

"Anniyo. Go ahead and eat, they're your favorite."

"Oppa," you waited til he looked over to you and made a heart with your hands. "Saranghaeyo."

"Ooh? So cute~"

Yonghwa smiled as he pinched your cheek lightly making you let out a laugh and push his hand away. "Hajima."

He was silent for a moment before moving closer and tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. "Jagiya, saranghae."

You smiled and closed your eyes when he leaned forward and pressed his lips against your cheek lightly. Saranghae, you thought to him as you settled beside him snuggling into his side, always.

~I'm so curious about the beautiful you. I wanna know you a little more. I'm so dangerous, You that I love, I wanna feel you all night long. Somebody help me. Cinderella ooh ooh ooh. Turn on the green light turn on baby ooh ooh. Cinderella ooh ooh ooh. Without you tonight, I'm a loner baby. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me yea yea. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me yea yea. Somebody help me ooh ooh. Somebody help me~

Reason #578764359 to Stan CROSS GENE

That one time on Vapp when Seyoung was talking in English and he said he likes all men and then Casper called him gay and then Seyoung fucking lost it and was laughing so hard and in between laughs he was saying he wasn’t gay(still in English) while yongseok yelled in English “GAY FANS WELCOME” And sangmin in a low monotoned voice pointed at Seyoung saying “Gay.” Then Casper proceeds to read a comment saying “ Sangmin is a lesbian” Meanwhile Takuya was laying in Shin’s lap and they were about to make out at any moment and finally Casper puts the camera on them and says “Those two are the most gay.” Then Shin started to suck on Takuya’s neck. And Casper says “Those two do that all the time, we’re used to it” Then Takuya gets up and shows off his hot pink panties with a flamboyant pose. Seyoung ends the live stream with “We’re not gay.”

The Girl(Joshua-Seventeen)

Requested by: lolamahone

~Cambridge, to Boston; lives in a world she's lost in. Victim of compromise. He's staring at her Aberdeen heart, London eyes, Glasgow bone. She's a whistle in the catacombs, a paradox~

~Past~

You kept wiping the endless tears that kept falling down your face mixing with the falling rain  as you knocked on the door to your closest friend's, Matthew[A/n: Thank you mynameisMissA on Quotev for suggesting him when I was stuck x'D], house and praying he'd answer it. Your prayers seemed to be answered though when the door was pulled open slowly and Matthew's sleepy face appeared in the empty space, him still not realizing that it was you at the door. He yawned, rubbed his eyes, and opened his mouth to say something before his eyes landed on you and widened with recognition and concern.

"Oh my gosh, y/n. What the hell happened?! No, that's not important right now. Get in here before you catch a cold." He pulled you inside and shut the door behind you before running off and coming back quickly with towels. "Here, let's hurry up and dry you off. Come on."

After sitting down on the kitchen chair he pulled out you broke, you finally let yourself cry. You accepted the pain and you let it out. "H-He che-" You couldn't even speak, the sobs that were tearing themselves from your throat made you bend over and your back shake. You couldn't control it anymore.

"Hey, shh." Matthew knelt in front of you and pulled you into his arms, letting you rest your head on his shoulder and just cry. "It's alright, it's okay. I've got you, y/n. It's okay."

A little while later you had calmed down enough to where you could actually form a sentence and you told him what had happened. You told everything and he listened, if you started crying again he waited patiently and comforted you. After you told him though you noticed how his expression changed, his shoulders and back tensed and his jaw clenched. He stood and stepped away from you not helping your nervousness.

"Ma-Matthew?" You asked softly, slightly nervous at how angry he looked since you didn't know whether he was mad at you or Joshua.

~He's in love with the statue in a marble block. He's in love with the girl that time forgot. She just shuts her ears, she's fallen too far with salt in her scars. Won't let him taste her tears, she's fallen too far; the girl that time forgot~

Third POV:

Matthew let out a breath and stood up before stepping away from y/n, his hands clenching into fists before she could notice them shaking from the anger he felt. The only way he could express it in words was that he was beyond pissed. He couldn't believe that Joshua would cheat on you, he never thought he was that type of man. And didn't help the fact that he tossed y/n away for the girl he cheated on her with.

"Ma-Matthew?"

He turned and looked at y/n, who looked so frail and scared that he instantly regretted stepping away. He hadn't meant to hurt you he just didn't want to let you know that he was angry, no not angry. He was pissed.

He shook his head and kneeled in front of her again, holding her close to him and rubbing her back. "I'm sorry, I'm not mad at you. I just can't believe he'd do something like that to you."

Y/n sighed and looked down at her hands, not noticing the soft stare that was focusing on her figure. Matthew looked at her and studied her features hating how sad and depressed she looked. She looked as if she's given up on herself, as if she believed she didn't deserve any better. How could one man do this to someone? How could something like this happen to the most honest and beautiful person he knew?

"Y/n," he waited until she looked up to him, his heart breaking at the broken far-away look in her eyes. "I'm here for you, let me help?"

She nodded and broke down again, falling into his open arms one again and letting the pain out piece by piece. He held her and kissed her head, comforting her with his all and vowing to never let anyone hurt the girl he loved ever again.

~Wasted moments, full of potential atonement's. An angel in disguise. But he can see her Aberdeen heart, London eyes, Glasgow bone. She's a whistle in the catacombs, a paradox~

~Present~

"Mom, stop that." You said as you hit her hand away softly and laughed at her attempts to fix random strands of your hair.

You were currently sitting at the table with your mother and older sister while the boys were outside on the deck barbecuing, since it was a 'manly' thing to do you three were kicked away to go inside and do 'women' things. Matthew, your now fiance, was already taken in by your family and they were all overjoyed when the both of you had announced your engagement. Your mother was so happy that she cried and your father just spent the whole night slapping Matthew on the shoulder and congratulating us.  

"Oh, so have you and Matthew gotten any further with the plans? A date set yet?"

You looked at your sister like she had lost her mind and tilted your head in confusion, "S/n he just proposed two days ago."

"So?"

"Honey, isn't it still too early to be planning?" Your mother asked her softly as she patted your sister's hand.

"Planning for what?" Matthew asked us as he came and sat in the chair beside me, leaning over and kissing my cheek as he did.

"S/n, here asked if we had set a date yet?"

Matthew looked to her confused, "Are you out of your mind? We're still getting used to the fact that we're actually engaged."

You laughed and grabbed a hold of his hand. "That's actually so true though."

You spent the rest of the evening having a good visit with your family and when it turned dark you and Matthew were heading back home after saying your goodbyes. Matthew had offered to drive home since you had driven here and you obliged, now happily looking out at the scenery that passed by quickly and rubbing the back of Matthew's hand.

After arriving at the house you both shared now, you got out and looked at the car that was parked out of your house. Not recognizing the car you turned to BM to see if it belonged to someone he knew but you saw him looking at the car, just as confused as you were. He shrugged at you and walked around the front of the car, grabbing ahold of your hand when he got beside you, before starting towards the front door.

When you two had gotten closer to the steps you noticed a figure stand up and walk down the stairs to where the both of you had stopped. The figure was lit up by the streetlight and you let a gasp slip when you realized who it was.

~He's in love with the statue in a marble block. He's in love with the girl that time forgot. She just shuts her ears, she's fallen too far with salt in her scars. Won't let him taste her tears, She's fallen too far; the girl that time forgot~

"Jo-Jos-Joshua?"

The corner of his mouth lifted slightly and he nodded towards you and BM, letting out a small hello and wave before putting his hands back in his pockets and looking down to the ground.

"What are you doing here?" Matthew asked, his voice getting lower letting you know that he didn't like Joshua's presence.

"I -uh- was hoping I could speak with y/n." He met Matthew's glare with his own and didn't back down, making your eyes widened and you quickly stepped between the two.

Turning to Matthew you nodded and rubbed his arm, "It's alright. I'll talk to him, you go ahead and head inside. Wanna watch movies before bed?"

He sighed and looked down to you, "You sure?" You nodded and smiled gently, it widening as he leaned down and kissed your forehead gently. "I'll be inside, call if you need me."

You turned and blankly stared at Joshua, who ignored the glare Matthew threw at him and just continued to stare at you. "What do you want, Joshua?"

"I'm sorry," he said suddenly as he took a step closer to you and making you match it with a step back.

"For cheating on me? Isn't it a little too late for you to be apologizing?"

"I was stupid yes, I admit it. And I hate myself everyday for just realizing how idiotic it was of me to do that. I didn't realize that losing you would hurt me so much."

"Well, that's you own fault. Look, Joshua I accept your apology. I forgive you, but I won't forget." Your words stopped him from coming closer and he looked to you with hurt in his eyes, tears forming. "But thanks to you, I was able to see someone who really loved me and I am now with him. I'm with someone who makes me happy, someone who helped build my self-esteem back up not someone who kept tearing it down."

"But, I-I love you y/n. I really do."

Your heart broke seeing Joshua's tears and listening to his voice break, you did love him. You always would, he was your first love, but you loved Matthew now and it was different. It was a love that wasn't once sided. Walking up to Joshua you sighed before wrapping your arms around him and pulling you close. You did something you knew you'd always do, you kept Joshua close.

You didn't think you'd be okay if you never saw him again and you were thankful that he had shown up, but you didn't love him that way anymore. "Joshua," you called his name softly getting his attention to focus on you again. "I do love you, but not like that. Not anymore. And I'm sorry for this, but do you think we can be friends?"

"Friends?"

"Yeah, look I don't want to never see you again. I did miss you Joshua, I don't hate you and I don't want you to just disappear."

"I-I'm sorry, I'm just going to head out. I'll -uh- I'll see you later."

You watched him get in his car and, after waving, he pulled away and was gone down the street. Sighing, you turned and headed into the house smiling when you saw Matthew walk up and wrap his arms around you.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, I think I'm okay now."

"I love you," he said softly.

You smiled and tilted your head back to look up at him, "I love you too."

He smiled and pressed a kiss to your lips before pulling back and grabbing you hand, "Let's go watch movies then!"

~Let it go, catacombs, you let her go. Let it go, catacombs, you let her go. She just shuts her ears, she's fallen to far with salt in her scars. Won't let him taste her tears, She's fallen too far; the girl that time forgot~

Third Person POV:

Joshua sat in his house staring blankly at the wall, ignoring the constant beeps coming from his phone. He couldn't believe it, he had actually lost her. Of course, she offered to be friends but that's not what he wanted. He wanted her, he loved her, but he lost his chance to ever be with her.

Joshua hated himself. He sat forward and felt the tears slide down his cheeks as he went over the memories in his head of when you two were still happily together.

"Joshua! Give that back!" Y/n screamed as she rushed after him to get her phone back.

"You're gonna have to catch me," he told her as he stuck his tongue out and dashed up the stairs quickly.

"Yah!"

Y/n chased him into the room and took his moments distraction to tackle him onto the bed, laughing in victory when she sat on his legs and grabbed her phone from his hands. She stuck her tongue out, repeating his earlier childish action and smiled down at him. "You loose."

"Hmm, but you see it's not over yet. I can still win." And after saying that Joshua pushed her off of him and quickly climbed onto her, kissing the tip of her nose once he had. "I win~"

"Hey, that's not fair."

Joshua laughed and looked down to her as he lovingly stroked her cheek, "I love you."

She smiled widely at him. "I love you, too."

Joshua sighed and wiped his eyes dry, deciding to do the only thing he could to keep her in his life.

Your POV:

Standing from the table you started washing the dishes and laughed when you felt hands tickle your sides. "Stop that," you told Matthew as you smacked him the dish towel. "Unless you want water all over you get out of here."

"Hm, that doesn't seem like such a bad thing though. I am wearing a white shirt aft-Ow!"

You smirked and rolled the towel back up, readying your aim in case you needed to hit him again. "What was that?"

Matthew pouted and looked away when the doorbell rang, "I'll go get that meanie."

"Mhm," you laughed and turned off the faucet when you finished.

"Y/n, someone's here to see you."

You turned, confused at the icy tone in Matthew's voice, and froze when Joshua walked into the room. "Joshua."

He smiled lightly and walked towards you, "I thought about it and I realized that the only way to keep you in my life was to accept your request. So, I want to be friends y/n. Being friends is a lot better than you leaving my life completely and I don't think I could cope with that. So if the offer still stands I wo-"

"Yes," both guys looked to you confused and you smiled, "Yes the offer still stands. I'm glad we can be friends Joshua."

You wrapped your arms around him once again, secretly thrilled as he wrapped his own around you and laid his chin on your head. You honestly missed his hugs, and yes though Matthew does give his own amazing hugs, you didn't think anyone else's hugs could calm you down so much.

Joshua let go of you and turned to Matthew, holding his hand out. "I'm sorry for the trouble I've caused you and y/n but I would like to congratulate the both of you. And I want you to promise that you'll treat her better than I ever could."

Matthew, after a bit of hesitation, grabbed Joshua's outstretched one and shook it. "Of course, I love her."

Joshua smiled and turned back to you, "So when's the wedding?"

Your eyes widened and you looked to Matthew, "Well we haven't really set a date."

"Really? So, does that mean there's still time for me to be in the wedding?"

You let out a laugh and hugged Joshua once more, "Of course. I missed you Joshua."

"I missed you too. Alright, I've gotta go but how about we all go out to eat tomorrow?"

You looked to Matthew, who sighed but smiled and nodded his head. "Okay, just message me the details."

After he left you and Matthew sat on the couch in the living room and said nothing, just stayed silent enjoying each other's presence. "Are you happy? With me?"

You turned to him with wide eyes and hit his stomach, "Yes I am and I would appreciate it if you didn't ask that again."

"Well, you know with Joshua showing up agai-"

"Matthew," you grabbed his cheeks and made sure he looked you in the eyes, "I love you. I loved Joshua yes, and I still do, but not like I love you. You are the only one for me."

He smiled and laid his forehead against your own. "I love you, too."

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So, I realize that this probably [really] sucks and I apologize but-

Warning: this is about to get personal and I'm about to rant, so if you don't care about my life you can ignore this x'D

Okay, so I think I've done another one similar to this(of course I'll do what you guys request lol it helps) but I just want you guys to know that I do not condone cheating. My sister's fiance cheated on her a couple months before their wedding and she tried to kill herself, I'm not going to say how of course, but I just want you guys to know that I DO NOT condone it or think it's alright. Because honestly it isn't and I'm very sorry for ranting like this and for any one of my lovely readers who has been cheated on, I am here for you and if you ever -Ever- need someone to lend an ear I am here for you. Even if you haven't been cheated on and need someone to talk to please -PLEASE- message me. I will always be here for every single one of you and I just want you guys to know that I really do love you.

Alright sorry for the rant, anyways I'll see you guys next update! Have a good day/night!! Love you!!♥♥