One Of My Most Unhealthy Beliefs, That If I Change Ill Have A Better Life, Is That Its A Fact That Im

One of my most unhealthy beliefs, that if I change I’ll have a better life, is that it’s a fact that I’m free in bad situations. It is my comfort zone when I’m in situations of stress or pure sadness or anger or my life is not how I want it to be. I don’t feel free in situations of justice for me, or moments of pure love or happiness or success. I feel afraid and I don’t feel safe or prepared or confident in those situations, and like something wrong is gonna happen any minute and everything is gonna get ruined. It has NEVER been my comfort zone for the past 20 years. In order to live a better life I have to change that, but I don’t know where to start, I need help on that. I feel like the positives from my life are not real since I’m not used to feel that way and if it’s true, it probably won’t be true for a long time.

Writing poetry because crying in my mothers’ arms isn’t an option.

“Three options” is like “I accept it bts” I think that maybe before or after writing “I accept it”, I wrote “Three options” it’s like the diary entry of “I accept it”

I confess that sometimes I read a poem here that I like, but I don’t finish reading because I’m almost asleep or smt, but from the start I just know that I’m gonna like the rest, but I never go to my liked blogs to finish reading them because I forget 😭.

As someone who writes poetry, this feels like a sin.

Help! Idk how to do anything other than write poems that I like🧍‍♀️