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Angela is soup confirmed
PH MY GOD NOT ONLY WAS I SHOCKED BY YHE PRESS PHOTOS BUT RIGHT AFTER I SAW THEN HANBIN POSTED IMMA CRY
One of my most unhealthy beliefs, that if I change I’ll have a better life, is that it’s a fact that I’m free in bad situations. It is my comfort zone when I’m in situations of stress or pure sadness or anger or my life is not how I want it to be. I don’t feel free in situations of justice for me, or moments of pure love or happiness or success. I feel afraid and I don’t feel safe or prepared or confident in those situations, and like something wrong is gonna happen any minute and everything is gonna get ruined. It has NEVER been my comfort zone for the past 20 years. In order to live a better life I have to change that, but I don’t know where to start, I need help on that. I feel like the positives from my life are not real since I’m not used to feel that way and if it’s true, it probably won’t be true for a long time.
Hashtags on tumblr feel like a JOKE (no offense to this wonderful app but) I just wrote about a psychotic episode but I have to use the girlblogger hashtag to get to my audience still 😭 it makes me feel insane! The switch from the mood I was in as I wrote the actual blog to writing “#girl blogger” made me feel even more insane 😭 now time to write the hashtags for this repost 😭🔫
I haven’t had a visual hallucination since like a decade and a half, but I did today :( Right before taking a nap I saw my wall had kid’s handwriting made with pen and pencil, then it was just pencil and then they looked erased but still there depending on the lighting I was looking at the wall from :( I feel so dumb writing this cause I didn’t notice it was a hallucination when it obviously was :( I know that I was having a psychotic episode and ofc I was out of myself, but as a kid there was a point when I knew when I was having a hallucination or not :( so yeah this is the sad story of today I guess
And I was preparing to wake up angry at my cousin for letting her kids do whatever they want all the time, but I woke up with a normal wall 😭🔫
HE JUST FCKING SCREAMS I-