AUTISM TIME OKAY !! Doing My Redeemed Durge Cause I Heart Him More

AUTISM TIME OKAY !! doing my redeemed durge cause i heart him more

He was born? Created? He's really unsure about the details, near a Selûne temple, and was raised by the monks and clerics there! Eventually Selûne blessed Eun, my durge, with healing powers, whether its because she was unaware of her heritage or in spite of it Eun doesn't know. HOWEVER he lost the powers when he embraced his nature and only got them back when his memories were lost, giving him a second chance [hence why he's level one]

He was fairly single, maybe had one off flings in taverns, but not really anything substantial. [Is AroAce spec and didnt really Notice]

His perseverance. He'll keep his friends alive despite his urges. He'll get through this okay. It's pretty accurate

His urges. He knows it can ruin everything for him, his relationships, his abilities, his goals. He's right.

He respects Selûne, but doesn't truly hate a god [other than his dad]. Eun knows that Sharrans can exist, and respects their existence despite them being "evil" solely, because it's needed in the way of life. Why would there be a need for the Moon if there was no darkness in night?

He wants to remember himself. He needs to drink up his past like a man lost in the desert. He regrets it and wishes he could forget.

Yes and No. He can recall Selûnite rituals and as he says them he pauses, trying to remember when He did it himself. He wouldnt recognise his Aunties and Uncles [the Selûnites that raised him] if you put a weapon to his throat. He just has weird deja vu constantly and Eun hates it.

Too quiet. Despite being a wood elf himself, he never really likes the wilderness. He hesitates at every meadow. He doesn't know why.

Cities feel like home. He likes the noise and likes seeing people live their life happily. There's some yearning in seeing people's peaceful life but... he likes it.

Eun doesn't eat the tadpoles [sorry this is how i describe it in my brain] and solely because "THERE'S TOO MUCH GOING ON IN MY BRAIN I DONT NEED MORE" However he collects them and keeps them as like Weird Pets

He's a life domain cleric, his hands were built to nuture and heal, not This. He's used to blood, but not by his own hands. Not Anymore. He hates how it makes him feel and he hates putting those he's meant to take care of in danger.

It makes Eun feel wrong. Like somethings itching under his skin. He doesn't talk about it much. However when it's... reclaimed in a way by his friends [like astarion calling him "bhaal-babe" or karlach calling him "old bhaalspawn] he doesn't mind it. It makes him feel normal.

See 11, unless not motivated by his urge then he'll do it to protect the ones he loves

AWFUL LIAR. he's 230 years old and doesn't know how to lie. Hells, he can barely talk to people. He was raised in a Temple and then got put in Another Temple. His social skills are rock bottom. He also HATES lying. Unless it's lies of omission. He'll take that

Other than Krackens? Losing control again. He won't let ANYONE control him or his friends again. He'll protect them by any means necessary

A world where there will be no one like him, where no one can experience the trauma of losing control of yourself or being forced to please someone above you. He knows it's unrealistic.

Killing Orin. Despite how "evil she was", No matter how many times she hurt him, she was abused and manipulated, Orin deserved a second chance. [Honourable mentions: Killing Alfira. He'll regret that forever. Being Unable to save Jaheira.]

He sees loves purpose. Platonic, Familial, Romantic, the in-between, he appreciates it. Usually from a distance, but on a rare chance, he gets to get it first hand.

Yeah!! Starting with the romantic, Astarion. They're both AroAce Spec and they both are... tentative. It's delicate, especially after the Alfira incident. Though Eun is so attached to Astarion after he helps through the night where.. Well. He Tried To Kill Astarion Before He Even Got To Confess. However what they have is real. They have their boundaries and they set em together. They get to be free in the end, and they're free together. They get a hairless cat together named Billy-Bob [because they let Karlach name it]. SPEAKING of Karlach, Eun and Karlach are besties. They find ways to send letters even while Wyll and Karlach are in Avernus. I heart Them.

Open with friends, Closed off with anyone else. He doesn't want the stigma, and since his friends don't really care much about stigmas he's appreciative.

Urgh thats a toughie. Skipping Music for now cause I genuinely can't use modern songs to describe him.

Just a sweet cleric! There could be no hidden evils in that smile /silly

He Needs people to think of him as a good person. He Needs them to think of him as a hero, cause if they don't. If they find out what he is and the bad things he used to do with a smile and how That Person saved Baulders Gate, technically from themself, he'll never be the same

No specific treasured item, however he appreciates people who can be so Dedicated to something that they have one!

He has a weird.. Love/Resentment relationship. Something about him makes his skin crawl however he has the familiarity of seeing your parent after college [using a modern metaphor lolz]. He hates him. He loves him. Eun hates that he loves him. He hates that he mourns a father figure who led him down a dark path.

Hates Him. He was never a father to him. Never a God To Him. His past may say otherwise, but his Past Isn't Him.

Pretty Okay with giving orders. Outside of combat he's ass at it though, if he's planning a quest with someone he'll end up doing some shit like "I need you to flank him, as he's espected to be here. Only if you want to- Well like we kinda need him dead, but- your comfort comes first! I'll be there with you to heal you if that helps you want to be there. Unless it doesn't then-" Taking orders in combats fine, outside of combat he's kinda abrasive unless it's a situation where the orders are needed.

Oh he's running around like a stressed doctor would be, but other than that he's great under pressure! He keeps his team alive, he keeps innocents alive, he even tries to keep damages to a space to a minimum. Even Though Gale Won't Because He Fucking Threw Fireball AGAIN-

Give yourself a break. You can't heal everyone. You can't fix everyone. Breathe. Enjoy retirement old man

He retires with Astarion, however he's always prepared for another Bhaalspawn. He researches and hopes he can find them first so he can save them, so there won't be another him or Orin.

30 Questions for your Dark Urge

These questions can be used as an Ask Game or just answering them all for fun character development!

(Tav edition here)

What circumstances led to your Dark Urge becoming their Class/Subclass?

Did your Dark Urge have any romantic and/or sexual relationships prior to their illithid adventure? If yes, who was it with and what was it like? If no, how did they feel about being single?

What would your Dark Urge consider to be their greatest skill? Is this accurate?

What would your Dark Urge consider to be their greatest flaw? Is this accurate?

What opinion does your Dark Urge have about the Gods?

How does your Dark Urge react to waking up with memory loss?

Did your Dark Urge recall any childhood memories? If yes, how do they feel about the revelations? If no, was it by choice or lack of options?

How does your Dark Urge feel about the wilderness?

How does your Dark Urge feel about the city?

What motivates your Dark Urge to either embrace or resist the tadpole?

What motivates your Dark Urge to either embrace or resist the Urge?

How does your Dark Urge feel about being a bhaalspawn?

How does your Dark Urge feel about killing?

How good of a liar is your Dark Urge? How do they feel about lying?

What is your Dark Urge’s greatest fear?

What is your Dark Urge’s greatest desire?

What is your Dark Urge’s greatest regret?

How does your Dark Urge feel about love?

Has your Dark Urge become particularly close to anyone romantically and/or platonically in their journey? If so, who, and what is the relationship like? If no, why not?

Is your Dark Urge open about their Urge or do they try to hide it? Why?

What are 2-3 songs that your Dark Urge would relate to?

What first impression does your Dark Urge give off to strangers?

How does your Dark Urge feel about what others think of them?

Does your Dark Urge have a treasured item with them? If yes, what is it and why is it special? If no, how do they feel about item sentimentality in general?

How does your Dark Urge feel about Sceleritas Fel?

How does your Dark Urge feel about Bhaal?

How does your Dark Urge feel about giving and receiving orders?

How well does your Dark Urge function under pressure?

What advice would you give to your Dark Urge?

What are your Dark Urge’s intentions/goals after the end of the game?

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I'm starting to see AI art in fanart tags and even when they are tagged as AI art, people in the reblogs tagged it as fanart.

Let me just say this once. I don't believe AI art is fanart. The way things are, it's theft. It doesn't count. The effort that fan artists put into their works cannot be equated in value with whatever an AI generates. The works with hours of applied skill and originality and love put into them are the works I want to praise on this blog.

So that being said, if I ever reblog "fanart" that is ai generated, please send me a message or an ask and let me know so I can delete it off my blog.

That is the end of my instruction 💀

the transition im crying