Not Every Thought Is Intuition.

Not every thought is intuition.

Some of these thoughts are mere anxiety and paranoia.

Some of these thoughts are mere your irrational mind doing irrational things.

Some of these thoughts are just you imagining the worst circumstances.

Some of these thoughts are just wishful thinking.

Intuition is:

1. Inner knowing

2. Synchronicity in your surroundings

3. Dream interpretation

4. Knowing that something is true but dont know how or why

5. That click of mind when something suddenly makes sense

6. Try writing down your thought and see if it seems valid

Learn to distinguish betqeen these.

Have you read Metamorphosis written by Kafka? Do you think it is the embodiment of 8th house in astrology?

The main character works in the firm to pay off his parents' debts. 8th house deals with debts and other people's money.

He seems to have no life outside of his family, their approval, validation and well being. 8th house deals with low self esteem and traumatic issues in the subconscious mind. It deals with the childhood, upbringing and repressed emotions. The main character is dependent on his parents for approval and purpose. He is terrified of his parents and probably has childhood trauma.

He is quiet, introverted and obedient. He is not a rebel. His life revolves around money making and providing for his family.

He transforms into a giant insect. Perhaps this is the beginning of 8th lord period when the native faces deep self destruction on psychological and physical levels. He is deliberately destroying himself so that he can be reborn anew.

His room is dark and lonely. This sounds like an 8th house space.

On one hand, the character recalls how he used to take care of his family needs while ignoring his own needs and wishes. On the other hand, he does self reflection that he wants to leave the firm after he pays off the debts, he wants to send his sister to learn violin. It seems that the character is living in a turmoil of external expectations and internal chaos. He is projecting his inner life and needs on his family members. This sounds like someone who has Saturn in 8th house.

After metamorphosis, he becomes useless, depressed, isolated, lonely. This is an unexplained misfortune brought upon by the darkness of the 8th house. I think that his body turning into an insect is actually the reflection of his psychological state. He has a complete mental breakdown and psychological collapse. His emotions are too much for him to tolerate. His psychology haunts him and the insect is actually an internal demon that he has come face to face.

His psychological state is reduced to that of an insect. His exterior is the reflection of the sudden psychological turmoil brought upon by 8th house. This continues for many months.

His voice that sounds like an insect is the horror and scream that he hears day and night inside his mind. His voice is the reflection of his inner world. He has become lunatic and perhaps schizophrenic.

He hides under the sofa so as not to scare his family. This shows that his parents have been controlling, psychologically abusive and perhaps there is a legacy of mental illnesses in his bloodline. With his metamorphosis, his psychological issues have come to the surface and he understands that it is given to him by his mother. He does not want to face his mother otherwise she might die of shock and horror. This shows that perhaps his mother is what an 8th house Moon is supposed to be.

He dies in the end. While the 8th house does signify death and rebirth, the death could be psychological, that of identity or past self. And we don't get to know what happens to the character because the maid says that she taken care of it. So this implies that either 1. The character has recovered from his depression and psychological collapse. He had become a new person. Perhaps he has left his family and begun a new life. He is now a new person and is going to live the life with a new identity. He will do what he wants and fulfill his subconscious inner calling. Or 2. He has literally died and taken a rebirth somewhere else. It seems to me that the first case is applied here.

Conclusion: The main character has psychological issues, is a family puppet and has no life of his own. He undergoes psychological breakdown one day and becomes a lunatic/depressed for many months. He recovers from his metamorphosis and takes a rebirth with new identity, dreams, wishes, goals and internal world. He no longer lives with his family. He is going to live a life that he wants. He has defeated the mental illnesses he has inherited from his parents. He is now a new person.

His sister is probably the person he projects his desires upon. She is young, pretty, plays violin, takes long sleep, dresses well and does not do much work around the house until the main character becomes insect. This implies that he has always been the scapegoat and his sister the golden child.

Does all this sound right?

Does ketu in 5th house make you lonely?

I can't put my finger on what exactly the reason is, but I have grown lonelier and lonelier with age.

Having Sun in 7th house, I used to be quite a charmer during my school days. I was also a people pleaser.

During college days, I didn't socialize much. I spent more time on internet than in real life. I had 2 girlfriends.

I stopped talking to everyone during my Post Graduation days. I also did a lot of soul searching and self healing.

Now I wonder if it is my ketu in 5th house that is making me so lonely? Ketu gives detachment and disinterest from the subjects of the house where it sits. I dont know yet if I want to have children but I have so much loneliness around me.

I have my family and pet and some other people whom I talk to but I dont have any "friends" or "connections". Is this something I should try to change? It feels like the more I try the more it backfires. Something goes wrong when I go out of my way to socialize.

The only people who are close to me are the ones I am related to by birth or by marriage. Why is this happening? Why do I have so much disinterest in the material things? Is it because of ketu in 5th house?

Am I self sufficient? Self dependent? Should I stop fighting my loneliness and start trusting my solitude as a part of my story?

VENUS IN 8TH HOUSE

🌑 Transformation is a major theme in my life

🌑 I was very jealous and envious. I also attracted jealousy from other girls. Now I see how unnecessary it is. It is useless and unnecessary waste of energy.

🌑 I did have an addictive personality. I stay mindful now and exercise self control.

🌑 I had victim mindset and was obsessed with painful memories and woe is me attitude. Will work on it too.

🌑 I have good libido. Yes.

🌑 I am into occult, witchcraft and astro.

🌑 I do read psychology. Dont use it to gain power over others.

🌑 I try to educate and empower others who I think are in pain.

Venus in the Houses (5-8)

hello everyone! this is by far one of the most requested posts from you guys! the second part of the ‘venus in houses’ series is here ;) enjoy 💗 you can read part 1 (house 1-4) here

Venus in 5th

- The authentic and vibrant beauty

- Youthful, carefree, and innocent energy

- People love their presence!

- Art hoe placement fs!

- Known for their sense of style and taste

- They feel the most beautiful when they are joyful

- Contagious and genuine energy

- Express themselves through being creative

- Very talented at their art medium

- The 5th house rules over the heart so that makes everything they do to come from love

- The type to make a painting of you for your birthday

- They can sometimes rely on others validation of their arts and self-expression to feel confident instead of believing in their own talents.

- Find beauty in everything they see

- The type to need everything they own to be pretty

- May be very into photography or cinematography; they turn every moment into something beautiful and artistic

- Attracted to artistic, passionate, and free-spirited people or the complete opposite, someone grounded, mature, and protective

- I notice a lot of them are drawn to pastel shades

- Intuitive in working with shapes, colors, and designs

- Very talented actors, especially with Neptune and Mars influence

- Love aesthetic blogs and vlogs! Can be very successful with that :)

- May decorate their rooms with their own arts, collages, and mood boards; anything to express their artistic vision

- A lot of them are graphic designers or want a degree in that!

- Most of them love children and children love them too

- Optimistic outlook

- Want a love that is simple and full of adventures

- If they are being restricted from expressing themselves, they feel like they have lost their identity

- Likely to have a hobby they love ever since childhood

- May love cartoons and nostalgic TV shows

- I notice a lot of them love stuffed animals and anything adorable; that could be their aesthetic as well

- A lot of them collect arts like posters or stickers

- Being in touch with their inner child brings happiness and healing to them

- Give off main character from rom-com energy haha

- When they are at their best, they literally glow with an inner confidence and happiness that is so inspiring to look at

- The best present for them is an art kit or handmade gift with a heartfelt note

- Focus on good memories from their childhood; that can be a place of comfort and solace for them during hard times

- In touch with their environment and live in the present

- Many of them are ISFP or ESFP!

- May be into thrifting and flipping clothes

- Love upbeat, ‘feel good’ music; they feel deeply connected to both the melody and the lyrics

- ‘Stolen Dance by Milky Chance’ sums up their vibe perfectly!

Venus in 6th

- The natural and pristine beauty

- You know people who have that ‘clean’ and natural beauty? The glowy skin, minimal make up look? That’s Venus in 6th!

- The type to spend 2 hours arranging the blueberries on their smoothie bowl and post it on their Instagram story (you are an inspiration queen)

- May love natural remedies and holistic health

- Farmer’s market, homemade candles, and eco-friendly products

- Probably has a minimal aesthetic

- I notice they love using herbs and other natural ingredients for self care

- Love gardening and consuming organic products

- Very knowledgeable people! Love researching

- Can be perfectionists; likely to be very organized

- May feel overwhelmed if their living space is messy

- I notice they really love matcha (both the color and the drink)

- If you are familiar with Japanese lifestyle, this placement reminds me of that

- Very big on self-improvement; love self-help books

- Conscious of the things they consume

- The type that read the label for ingredients in their food and skincare products

- Intuitive about what their body, mind, and soul need to feel nurtured

- Likely have a healthy routine that makes them feel grounded and soothed; may suffer from anxiety at times, so a stable daily routine is very important to them

- A healing presence to the people around them

- Attracted to hard-working, honest, and grounded people

- Love language is often act-of-service; extremely helpful and selfless

- However, may base their worth on how much they sacrifice for others and feel like they don’t deserve to be loved if they are not being helpful

- Great cooks!

- Plant mom placement as well

- Love taking care of things

- Benefitted from being in nature

- May be into yoga and energy works

- 6th house is the opposite house of the 12th and they both share the spiritual quality: while 12th house is more about the mental and abstract spiritual practices, 6th house is about physical and tangible spiritual practices

- Great placement for nurse or healer

- Also great for massage therapist or health coach

- Often cat people

- Enjoy hobbies that require patience and working with their hands like knitting, crocheting, and ceramic

- Venus in 7th

- The ideal and romantic beauty

- Socializing comes so naturally to them

- Persuasive and charming

- Have the ability to make the person they talk to feel special

- Great position for psychology; in tuned with others’ body language and mood

- Good at mirroring people’s behaviors

- However, there is a potential to be a people pleaser and adapting too much to others that they lose themselves

- Attracted to people who are very different from them

- Attract a lot of simps lmaooo

- Have people doing favors for them because they just have such a sweet energy

- Self-worth comes from how well-liked they are and the connections that they have

- They want to know that they play an important role in people’s lives

- Mediator most of the time; can see many sides

- Empathetic people

- May constantly get into relationships because they feel whole with a partner

- Generous with their time and effort

- Care about social justice; deeply care for people in less fortunate circumstances

- Position of an advocate and lobbyist, especially things related to women’s rights

- Balance between the feminine vs masculine, emotions vs intellect, heart vs head

- They know how to be appealing to anyone

- Amazing negotiators

- Have good business acumen

- Can do well as a representative due to their diplomatic and tactful nature

- Their connections can help them a lot in life

- May have good luck with people they work with

- This is a personal observation, but they could do very well in the beauty industry as a brand manager or marketing positions because they understand what people want

- Human resource can be a good position too

- Fair in love matters; want an equal partner in all aspects

- They make caring friends; you can count on them to give you good advices

- Learn to love themselves as they experience more connections, both good and bad

- They look very good in business casual clothes!

- Very good at conflict resolutions and smoothing things out

- People can get attached because of the way they make others feel good

- They are so desirable like they give off wifey energy

- In love with love

- Already have a pinterest board with every detail possible about their marriage

- Partner may be a business person or someone that works in the legal field

- Potential to marry a wealthy partner (material gworl!!) but it’s likely that their partner is self-made rich and not trust fund rich

Venus in 8th

- The hypnotic and thrilling beauty

- Lana Del Rey (that’s it, that’s the post jk)

- Great at making others open up

- Sharp intuition and can easily see people’s intentions

- Possess immense emotional depth

- May meet people who trigger wounds in them and force them to work through

- Aware of their shadows

- Self-worth comes from their inner power

- Feeling powerful = feeling beautiful

- May over-identify themselves with their pains or become addicted to pain; this can cause them to become pessimistic and fearful of love

- Seek out intensity; they are all or nothing when it comes to their emotional world

- Love is what breaks them apart but also what mends them back

- Twilight energy lowkey (Bella where the hell have you been loca??)

- Can become too attached to their partner or vice versa if not careful

- May be attracted to the ‘dangerous type’; they equate passion with danger

- Not afraid to talk and express the taboos

- Raw sexual expression

- Sex can be a catalyst for emotional release and healing

- Addicting and addictive personality

- There is the need to own their partner completely; loyalty to them is like a soul contract

- Devoted in love

- May worship their partner in an unhealthy way

- Potential to marry rich or inherit a lot of money from their marriage partner

- A lot of them are psychics and into witchcraft and other magic practices

- Their presence alone causes transformation in others’ lives

- May be into psychology; if underdeveloped, may use that knowledge to gain power over others

- Want others to be completely vulnerable with them while they remain secretive

- Love to test others’ limits when it comes to intimacy

- Siren, femme fatal energy

- A lot of them have tattoos, especially of the goddess they relate to

- Not all, but I know some with this placement who like casting love spells

- Connected to the spiritual realms

- Drawn to dark aesthetics; may be into art that portray sexual, forbidden topics

- They usually dye their hair black if that’s not their natural hair color

- Seductive body movement

- Attract jealousy due to their intense aura

- I notice a lot of them love Mia Wallace or her aesthetic in general

- They own the red lipstick and cigarette hanging from their lips look

Character analysis of Clementine from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and 8th house in astrology

This movie is written by someone who has themselves had BPD. This I am sure of. When I watched this movie, it was like someone took my mind and made a movie out of it. Only someone who actually suffers from BPD and has gone through a similar situationship in life can write this story. Period.

Clementine is into witchcraft. She changes her hair color because it transforms her identity like someone with moon in 8th house. Her emotions are volatile, she is quick to anger and easily irritated. She must have inherited this emotional instability from her maternal bloodline. She has intergenerational trauma and psychological instability. 

She writes a lot of letters, takes Joel to Charles river, gives him a lot of gifts and makes his life so exciting because she has idealized him. She has a mental image of a perfect boyfriend and cannot see the real person in front of her. She projects the same mental image on every boy she dates. She repeats the same thing with everyone. She must have an absent or unavailable father. She wants a caregiver who will love her unconditionally. She forces intimacy on the first date because she craves union of soul and deep connection like that of a parent and child.  

This is why Patrick goes through the exact same storyline in place of Joel because Clem idealizes every person she dates, does the exact same things with them to PLEASE them so that they will not leave her. She has intense fear of abandonment and rejection. She brings excitement to life because she fears rejection. She constantly creates drama because stability feels scary to her. This is someone with 8th house Moon.

She idealizes every man who gives her attention, does things for him to impress him and please him, repeats same letters/drawings/dancing with everyone. When some months have passed she fears engulfment and boredom. She fears that now she has exhausted her supply of excitement. She is not fun and colorful anymore. Before the guy dumps her, she will dump him. Her sense of self depends on the guy she is dating. She purposely chooses guys with low self esteem and adds excitement to their life because she wants to control them so that they cannot leave her. But then she sees their flaws after some time that the man she is dating is actually a mediocre person with low self esteem and poor character traits. She has pattern of choosing similar guys. 

Out of sight out of mind. pwBPD forget people in a snap. It is like the whole relationship never happened. This is why they did not show Clem going through the procedure because her mental illness  automatically erases the whole relationship from her mind after she is done devaluing Joel. She has not gone through the procedure. Her mental illness BPD has erased her memory. 

Idealization, rushing into relationship, projecting a perfect image of boyfriend and relationship, intensity. Then devaluation, seeing the flaws in the person, fearing abandonment. Black and white thinking, extremely defensive, a lot of arguments. She has no self concept, no self image, no self esteem.   

She mentions “I’m crawling under my skin". This is Moon in 8th house. Intense emotions, so deep and so strong that you feel like you will explode. I have suffered with this my entire life until diagnosis.

She is promiscuous and has sex with every man because she feels like her only value is sex. She forces intimacy with men by oversharing every single embarrassing thing with them and having sex with them so that they won’t leave her. She wants security and stability in her life. Which is why when Joel says “my life is not that interesting. I go to work come home", she licks her lips because she wants this stability, consistency, pillar of strength in her life to hold her through the storm and chaos in her life. She tells him that when she was young she wanted to transform her girl doll so that it would magically transform her and then she says “never leave me". She has no self image. She is intentionally creating intimacy and self pity so that Joel will feel like a caregiver. Joel feels like a man, strong, protective. She wants this rock figure in her life. Clem has an endless pit of emotional needs that no man ever can satisfy.    

Notice how Joel says “I met this girl Clementine, she is amazing”, “I thought you were nuts but you were exciting", “I love you", “How cool I am attracted to someone’s back”, “and then you just took it without waiting for an answer. It was like we were already lovers", "you are lucky you have Clementice. She is cool". These are not the words of Joel. I repeat. These are not the words of Joel. Clementine is doing maladaptive daydreaming. She has MDD disorder. She is thinking these words about herself from Joel's POV because she can only see herself in relation to someone else. She has no self identity at all. She feels invisible, like a void unless she is being seen by someone else like an audience. Clem is thinking these things about herself in her daydream. She wants to be praised. She wants to be seen and appreciated.

This whole movie might just be her Maladaptive Daydreaming episode. Perhaps this whole movie is just an MDD thing. This is why they add science to it because Clem is daydreaming the whole movie and making things up. MDD coexists with BPD. The person cannot distinguish between real life and fantasy. They are so engrossed in it. They repeat the same scene until perfection. They especially repeat the “good" scenes many times because it gives them kick and rush.

Notice how the same scene is repeated many times in the end? This is because Clementine is doing maladaptive daydreaming. A maladaptive daydreamer repeats the same story in her head 100 times again and again like mad. It gives her dopamine. This is a compulsion. She is addicted to it. The “science" involved in this movie is not real. Clem is daydreaming everything and making things up.  

Clem also has a drinking problem.

This whole movie is a MDD episode of a person with BPD. I have daydreamed similar love stories in my head throughout my childhood, teenage and early 20s and then I went through a similar situationship. Then I was diagnosed with BPD. After which I found out I am gifted in astrology, occult. I have calmed down now and have done deep soul searching and have a self concept. I have treated my BPD to a large extent.  

Notice how every guy in the movie has had some relationship with Clementine? Clem idealizes men. She is daydreaming that all these men desire her, want her, everybody loves her, she is so cool and different. She wants to be loved and fucked by every man because they gives her security, validation, safety, self confidence.

Notice how Joel is already in relationship with Naomi? The other girl in the movie who is receptionist is in love with Howard who is married? This proves that not only Clem but even the receptionist also has BPD. Girls with BPD are intensely attracted to committed men because it gives them a sense of stability, caregiver, protection, father figure, rock figure. When I was 5 or so, I used to fancy marrying/dating men who were 50+

Notice how Clem and Joel are near the sea and Clem is jumping like a child while Joel walks beside her like a father figure? This is a fantasy in Clem's mind. She sees herself as a little girl. She has not grown up. This is why she is so exciting because she is literally a child mentally. This is why they also show them going to Joel's childhood because both of them are stuck in their childhood trauma and never grew up past it. Childhood traumas are signs of 8th house. Both of them are doing shadow work. They hate each other by the end of relationship because this is a karmic relationship to reveal their shadows to them.

When these people erase Joel's memory, Clem is daydreaming it all happening. Notice how the receptionist girl only talks about Howard? Because she is obsessed with him. She also has BPD. But she flirts and has sex with this computer guy because she wants validation, attention but she idealized Howard in her mind. While Howard has a messed up married life, she cannot see that because she only thinks in all perfect/all bad worldview.

Clem has an emotional meltdown where she feels like her skin is coming off and she is getting old. Nothing makes any sense. She cannot distinguish between feelings and facts.

Clem gets offended whenever Joel says something against her. She gets extremely defensive and insults him. She fears rejection and criticism. She also makes double braids because she is a child emotionally. She is impulsive and takes decision without thinking anything.

I can go on and on. But this is it for now.

1. During my Ketu Antardasha from July 2021 onwards, I slept a lot. I used to sleep around 12 to 15 hours a day. I have slept so much that I have constant fatigue and headache.

2. I isolated myself and lived in loneliness. I only talked to my family and that too very less.

3. I studied astrology a lot.

4. My mania ended. It cured my BPD symptoms.

5. I feel like a part of me died psychologically.

6. I probably healed my intergenerational emotional issues.

7. I dont know how many mental illnesses I had, but it probably cured most of them.

8. I am calmer, self aware, stable, self secure and spiritual/Philosophical.

9. My libido didnt change but I can control it. I am not obsessed with sex anymore.