Question To People Whose Mother Tongue/language (two Options Not Because I Don't Know Which One Is Right...I

Question to people whose mother tongue/language (two options not because I don't know which one is right...I heard two forms so choose whichever you want) is not English!

When you write in English, do you have a 'need' or so to make sentences in your language's way ?

I don't know if it makes sense but I can't explain it other way.... I can't even find any example

(I'm a writer (more like self-choosen) and when I read what people write I wish I could do that this way)

I'll just pass the driving exam and I'll be able to go for long night drives

Just let me pass that shit

Fuck this

I can't even pass the stupid driving exam

Why am I so stupid?

Why?

I can't do anything properly

I just finished "basic psychiatry" at the university (it's one of my subjects)

And I fucking want to be diagnosed so badly

I want to know exactly what's wrong with me

I want to know every fucking thing

Maybe then I'll know who I am...

I no longer think I want to be anyone's friend...

I lost the joy of it, if it ever had

I am just done with them

I don't want their burden anymore

This time when I'm just lying in bed with my music and do nothing is back

Not because I want to do nothing

No

I just don't have a motivation to do so

I feel sick

I feel bad

I feel sad

I don't feel like myself

I feel crazy