I'll Just Pass The Driving Exam And I'll Be Able To Go For Long Night Drives

I'll just pass the driving exam and I'll be able to go for long night drives

Just let me pass that shit

I no longer think I want to be anyone's friend...

I lost the joy of it, if it ever had

I am just done with them

I don't want their burden anymore

Question to people whose mother tongue/language (two options not because I don't know which one is right...I heard two forms so choose whichever you want) is not English!

When you write in English, do you have a 'need' or so to make sentences in your language's way ?

I don't know if it makes sense but I can't explain it other way.... I can't even find any example

(I'm a writer (more like self-choosen) and when I read what people write I wish I could do that this way)

Beginning of 2023 in numbers

Age: Will be 20

Height: 166cm

How long with adoptive parents: 14 years

Horse riding: 14 years

English learning: 14 years

Selfharming: 10 years

In kpop: 8 years

Headache: 4 years

Attempts: 2

Even though I don't like touch I would let someone hug me because I don't want them to feel bad or pushed away

The life of a people pleaser

When you tell people to message you whenever they need it but deep inside you want to be left alone

You look at their status to see if they're online or not and if so then you wait for them to leave

You want them to either message you as quickly as possible and be done with it or not to message you at all...

But you said "message me when you need me"