"Aaron Isn't Even My Type" [confused Faces All Around] Neil Is Demisexual, Whats Not To Get??? Neil Didn't

"Aaron isn't even my type" [confused faces all around] Neil is demisexual, whats not to get??? Neil didn't fall cus he thought Andrew was hot!!! In FACT Neil only began to think Andrew was hot AFTER HE FALLS FOR HIM!!! Neil's 'type' has nothing to do with looks and everything to do with vibes and character!!

Aaron isn't Neil's type cus his fuckin vibes are off!!!

Something you really need to know about me is that I really love saying "your honor you don't understand" when going insane about a lil fictional silly guy

It immediately paints the picture of me, tiny chaos gremnlin, screaming in the face of a poor judge that couldn't care less, while two very serious very buff bodyguards drag me out of the court room kicking and screaming BECAUSE THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND

ALRIGHT BESTIES I AM PART OF THE MADNESS NOW

It's 1 am, I just finished binge-watching the entirety of Helluva boss ( except full moon, I ain't in the right headspace for that kind of angst ) AND OH BOY AM I FEELING FEELINGS

I literally just finished ep 7 of season 2 and OH MY GOD fizz and Ozzie are just so fucking cute and wholesome like the love the devotion the way they hold each other that part in the song where Ozzie says he makes his heart do froggy little jumps and fizz fucking ribbits and THEY GIGGLE SOMEBODY SEDATE ME and then in the episode before that where post being kidnapped fizz apologizes for the mess and ozzie reassures him while fixing him up and fizz's "I guess I'm not used to this " OH GOD INJECT THIS INTO MY VEINS. He's had such a shitty life , he had always been insecure and then he fucking blew up and got a toxic manipulative boss that basically made him believe he had to work extra hard if he wanted to be enogh and now here's ozzie, always telling him that he doesn't need to be perfect, that he's good , that he's not a burden and FIZZ IS BROKEN AND CROOKED AND MESSY AND YET OZZIE ALWAYS PROTECTS HIM WITH ALL HE'S GOT AND PHYSICALLY PUTS HIMSELF BETWEEN HIM AND ANY KIND OF DANGER AS IF FIZZ WERE THE MOST PRECIOUS THING IN HELL. BECAUSE HE IS TO OZZIE. Can you imagine what that must be like for fizz? NO WONDER HE'S DISGUSTINGLY SOFT WITH OZZIE ALL THE TIME SKKDKSKNSKZKSKSKS AAAHHHH LUIGI FIRENZE BUCATINIIIII

I just made myself cry I'm not okay expect more posts on helluva boss in the future but right now I need to calm down and go the fuck to sleep

Btw I recently went to a funeral for the first time in my life and it was a lot , specifically it showed me an aspect of religion that I really never think about but we're not here for that.

You know that moment when the casket is in the earth but hasn't been buried yet? When the closest ones to that person throw roses down as a final goodbye? Well that broke me into a million pieces if you care. There were these three people , all different ages, with different stories, different lives, but also in that moment they were simply that woman's kids, brought together by an unberable pain. One at a time they took a rose and oh it hurt so bad because that gesture seemed to mean " hey, I'm really sorry you are gone , I love you, I miss you so much , you're going on a journey now and I can't follow you yet, I'm sorry, for now take this rose with you okay? Take this rose and remeber me and I'll remember you and one day we'll be together again. I love you "

I don't think I'll ever forget that

Okay so we need to talk about helluva boss actually. More specifically I'm going insane over one or two certain characters.

I have been staring at the ceiling for awhile trying to make sense of blitzø. He is a badass , a mastermind and a skilled killer . He is a fucking loser , he loves his friends so much his apartment is filled with pictures of them. He adopted a bloodhound because she seemed as alone and hopeless as he was. He would do anything for her. He was so alone he started to adopt everyone in sight and make them part of his team. He's a selfish bitch. But is he really? He thinks he can't be loved. He yearns so much for a connection that he lives vicariously through his friends' love life. He doesn't care about anyone except he remembered about stolas after years. He could have left him tied on that bed and taken the book but he stopped and stayed because stolas called him his first friend. He hates stolas and doesn't care about their relationship. "he can get hurt?". He has a picture of stolas asleep. He refers to his co-workers as his family. He's terrified to die alone. I'm actually not okay you guys he's so complex but also just a wet little meow meow I'm in shambles actually

Then there's stolas and I like him so much it's embarrassing to be honest. He's a royal. He never acts entitled and accepts no as an answer. He saw some clown when he was a child and fell in love with him. He saw him again years after and his first response was " yes , this man clearly wants to fuck me ". And then got shy when blitz played along. He's such a loser. His whole flirty filthy persona exists only because he thinks that's what blitzø is into. He suffered years in a toxic relationship just for his beloved daughter. He's the biggest nerd and adores books. He is a badass and extremely powerful. He crammed his big owl ass in blitz's van instead of using a portal because he wanted to spend more time with him. He loves him, he loves him not.

Yeah I'm done for now but I haven't seen full moon yet so expect even more rambling in the immediate future

shoutout to the "foolproof" bread recipe I fucked up entirely for inspiring this