And Then They Will Leave You ..

And then they will leave you ..

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring peace you haven’t found anywhere else. They support your effort. They water your growth.”

— Unknown

I don‘t know what went wrong with me a few years ago. But since then I feel a neverending emptiness in my heart.

After surviving year for year and beeing on the right way to focus on myself and get a litte bit happier and confidence with the emptiness, you came into my life.

You fixed all in me which was broken in the past and you had teared down the walls I had built up to protect myself. It was okay for me, you have showed me how beautiful the life can be with someone who is loving you.

But after I found myself again, you left without a reason. You forgot about me and immediately looked for someone new.

You left an even bigger emptiness inside me that can never be filled again. You made me more broken than I could ever have imagined.

But I have no choice, I have to move on and I am afraid I‘ll never be happy again.

I only make mistakes, fall in love too quickly. I fall to pieces a little more everyday.

staring at the "I think it's best if we stop talking" text I sent as I'm crying my eyes out knowing damn well I don't wanna live without him but it's for the best..

I'm not sure if l've ever loved in my life.

I only know that I was completely satisfied with you for the first time and I felt safe. Near you, I wasn't afraid of the future because I knew I had you by my side forever. It has never been so calm in my head.

And now you're gone and I'm learning to fear again. The fear of never being happy again and having to face the horror of this world alone.

Where did we go wrong?