I Dont Know What Went Wrong With Me A Few Years Ago. But Since Then I Feel A Neverending Emptiness In

I don‘t know what went wrong with me a few years ago. But since then I feel a neverending emptiness in my heart.

After surviving year for year and beeing on the right way to focus on myself and get a litte bit happier and confidence with the emptiness, you came into my life.

You fixed all in me which was broken in the past and you had teared down the walls I had built up to protect myself. It was okay for me, you have showed me how beautiful the life can be with someone who is loving you.

But after I found myself again, you left without a reason. You forgot about me and immediately looked for someone new.

You left an even bigger emptiness inside me that can never be filled again. You made me more broken than I could ever have imagined.

But I have no choice, I have to move on and I am afraid I‘ll never be happy again.

staring at the "I think it's best if we stop talking" text I sent as I'm crying my eyes out knowing damn well I don't wanna live without him but it's for the best..

Whenever you reach for me, I will do everything I can to further distance myself from you.

I don't know what you took from me when you disappeared from my life for no reason.

Since then, I feel an emptiness in me that gets bigger with every day and every breath.

When there was a We, you made me complete, I have never felt so strong and happy. And now I only consist of a pile full of rubble and ash that can no longer be repaired..

And then they will leave you ..

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring peace you haven’t found anywhere else. They support your effort. They water your growth.”

— Unknown

“That’s the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink. If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen.”

— Charles Bukowski, Women