I Feel You In My Heart And I Dont Even Know You

☾  i feel you in my heart and i don’t even know you 

☼ min yoongi x reader (ft. jungkook x reader)

✰ genres: drama, angst, romance, second chance

✰ warnings: explicit language, mentions of blood, infidelity, smut, mentions of depression, trauma, miscarriage, anxiety

✰ soundtrack: nineteen by hayley williams (the con x covers for tegan & sara)

summary: nearly 2 months after their divorce, yoongi and y/n wade through the aftermath of the fallout by themselves. yoongi is moving on with someone else while y/n finds herself stuck in waves of anxiety and depression. soon enough, they are brought together again by an unfortunate accident.

note: hi guys! a new social media au from me, this might be a long one! It’s actually based off a original work I was trying to write but never finished lol

1. profiles

2. it feels like you left a long time ago

3. phone in my hand and heart in my throat, it was my gift for the night

4. what do you mean?

5. i don’t want you to hurt me anymore

5.1. interlude: the news

5.5. interlude: september 10 to 22

6. these echoes of laughter fade into a distant memory

bonus ✰ soundtrack

6.5 interlude: july 11, 2020 (before things really fell apart)

7. i loved you. i’m sorry.

8. seeing you is like a dream

bonus ✰ yn’s apartment

9. stuck in emotions and i don’t know what they mean

9.5 interlude: august 4 to august 10

10. he said that’s how he still remembers me

11. no pretenses, no masks

12. time goes by and i can’t control my mind

13. never doubted myself so much (flashback)

14. crestfallen on the landing

redraw of that one bessatsu cover

R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

Shingeki no kyojin

The anime that helped change the way I view the world. The anime that made me realise that dreams are dynamic too. The anime that made me learn, that forever is never. The anime that made me think about seeing change in a different light, as a possibility of becoming something new. The anime that made me rethink the way I judge people based on how little I know about them. The anime that made me see the very people I share my life and meals with in a different way. The anime that taught me what friendship is meant to be. The anime that I feel is the epitome of what workmanship and dedication should be. The anime that I'm so glad didn't end in one volume like isayama first wanted it to. The anime that made me appreciate anime music. My 2nd anime but 1st to ever make me fall in love with the process of making an anime. The voice actors who do a marvellous job. The musicians, vocalists and composers who do an irreplaceable job. The animators who only keep the story interesting. The first anime (probably because I watched it early on in my anime journey) that I am attached to.

I can see how much I've grown in the past 3 years. Definitely aot has something to do.

Infact it had many things to do.

I have many instances when I spoke wisely thanks to aot.

I can't thank aot enough for being my icebreaker and getting me a good friend.

Aot made me appreciate japanese music and culture.

The night I watched the lyrics of season 1 ending:

"Ustsukushiki zankokuna sekai"

That's when I cried and felt some emotions I never could verbally explain until that point.

I watched it while I was 17 maybe?

The summer of 2021 is ❤️‍🔥

I can't believe aot is ending sooner than my mbbs 😭😭😭😭😭

Then again, didn't it begin in 2013? Guess this is my fate and just like the scouts have it, I have to respect my fate and do the best I can.

Shinzou sasageyo ❤️‍🔥

Why does it just seem like yesterday that i was singing shogeki, red swan and akuma no ko?

Aot became my ritual and religion (religion especially when life gets too much for me)

I will miss you scouts 😭😭😭

(We've come a long way kiddos)

(I'm almost 21 and I've grown up with aot in a way)

Thank you Hajime isayama 🙏

now that i rmb it, I love how Jinwoo's character reasoning for doing his job is mainly for his family. Like everyone else was second thought.

Im just so used to every mc having "I want to be number 1 hero, hokage—"(no i love these series actually lol they raised me But GOD ITS SO REPETITIVE)

The money? Its for his mom and his sister.

He risks his life for his family, he needs the quick cash to pay for sht.

"Family first" Its just so good, i love new found family plots but mngh,... It was just so new with Jinwoo's motivation and I live for it. Like yes there are other series where mcs arent motivated to be the best. But idk, Jinwoo's motivation just touches the heart.

And when he finally gets what he needs to have to provide with his family? He goes to save everyone else.

And I bet my goddamn ass that that mtf put in his insurance of billions of usd directed to Park Kyung-hye and Sung Jin-ah before he fled off for war. Jinwoo is ready to leave his family because he left them with the resources they need, his duty with them is mostly 'done' and now he needs to protect others because they need him too.

I just love his character in a genuine way not just because he's hot daddy step on me fuck yes morally-grey chaotic petty mtf that scams the living sht out of you nO—(well mostly yes but u get what I mean)

I just love Sung Jinwoo as a character

how is yoongi's aftercare? 👁👁

Nonexistent. Jk don't worry haha

He's holding you, close, tightly, with arms all around you and your head held close to his chest. You're trembling, shivering not from the cold but simply exhaustion, and he knows exactly what you need right now.

"There you go.." he hums towards you. "Absolutely perfect.." he praises, never loosens his hold, knows how sensitive you are right in this moment. He's still inside you, and you're still clenching occasionally, his cum already leaking down his own thigh. But he doesn't mind. "You're my baby, aren't you?" He asks, tests, and you only nod, frantically so, clinging closer. "You are." He reassures because of that, doesn't move yet.

He doesn't mind you taking your time right now. He's taken his sweet time as well, after all.

It's when you slowly lessen your tension on him that he actually manages to get up, his workout fruitful as he's able to carry you with him, to set you down on the toilet so you can half-consciously do your post-sex business while he runs the bath, and sets out towels for after.

Anyone else might go change the sheets, or shower, maybe- but he knows from experience that you shouldn't be alone right now. Not yet.

Inside the warm tub, he carefully cleans your skin, uses the vanilla scented body scrub you love because it makes your skin soft and smooth- and he has to agree, that it does indeed. He loves your skin. Not just because it's nice, looks good, but because..

He loves your soul, most of all. But that, he can't touch. Your skin, however, he can. That's why he loves it, that's why he takes such good care of it- of your body, in general.

His hands run over the cleaned skin in slow movements, a kiss placed on the tip of your shoulder, and you smile, leaning into him. "Yoongi?" You wonder, and now he knows, you're back.

"Hm?" He wonders, snakes his arms around you, leans his head on your shoulder- the tips of his hair wet.

"I love you." You tell him, and he smiles, nodding, relaxing, enjoying this moment of softness and warmth for a little while.

"So do I." He says to you just a breath later, not because that's what you say in moments like these-

But because he means it, with his whole heart.