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Psychiatry Department :)
I can't believe it's been 4 weeks since the first day I got here in the Psychiatry department, and it's finally the last day I'm gonna have at this department as a co-assistant.
Psychiatry department is totally different than any other department that I have been. It was thrilling, yet so fun. And I got a lot of story to tell, but I'm just going to write how I think and feel about this department.
After these 4 weeks I have been through, I must admit that Psychiatry is now officially my favorite department in med school. I can't believe I'm writing this on my tumblr page, but I can't help it. I just love it so much that I think I should write about this.
My first impression about Psychiatry department was not so good. I used to think that it was not interesting and too complicated for my taste. I didn't like it. I mean I used to think that dealing with people with mental problem was going to give me so much trouble. I mean why dealing with other people's problem when you already got a lot yourself? And why trying to solve people's problem when you can't even solve one of your own?
But then, I have a very strict teacher here, whom I respect a lot and who push everyone to study hard enough so that every med students know Psychiatry as well as they know another branch of medicine. The same thing happened to me too - I was pushed pretty hard enough to make me hit the books and get to know Psychiatry better. At first I was just motivated to study and pass all the tests here, but then I realize that the more I get to know about it, the more it gets interesting. And then yeah, suddenly I find myself being in love again - not with a person - but with all the stuffs about Psychiatry. It was unexpected and spontaneous. It was like falling in love with a boy that you once knew for sure you would never fall in love with. xD
Now it's done. I have passed all the tests, and I am thankful for that. It was such an unforgettable experience here at Psychiatry. I had my difficult times here, but I also had fun. I guess going through the difficult times and reaching the finish line pretty well is what makes it a lot more fun. It's kind of sad leaving this department, but it's okay. I have to move on, so I that I can finally become a doctor. Even though this is a goodbye - I have a good feeling that this goodbye will someday bring me back to another hello to this department.
So, wish me luck. :)
Keep on dreaming and believing.
What To Consider In Order To Become A Successful Student: #11
Prepare for class. As one of my professors said, “If you don’t know enough about a subject already, lectures are a pretty poor way to learn.” You have to read the material eventually, so you may as well read it before class. It’s amazing how much more meaningful the material is the second time you are exposed to it.
In the second year of medical schooling, we are posted to a particular specialization at the hospital for some number of weeks. When my gen med postings were in the pen ultimate week, I went home because the sight of patients suffering made me feel emotionally down and home sick.
I once dreamt of being a surgeon. I used to think of it as a mechanic who works on the body. But now, I'm not sure if I ever want to be a surgeon. Agreed its a highly difficult course to do gen sur. But what's even more difficult is to stop getting emotional over patients. Maybe it's the way things are done around here, but the sight of a conscious female patient just about to be anaesthesised on the operation bed, completely naked under the gaze of several medicine practioners made me realize how much of a tough and brave decision it is to go under the knife.
Maybe it's it's pms of my delayed period that's yet to come (xd) that's making me over emotional. But while I'm having hard time to just stand without blanking out in the ot hall seeing all the blood around and my cramps hitting me worse than they did the day before, I can't help but be amazed by the young female surgeon who's so precise, calm, composed and skilled with her hands. What would happen if she were pms-ing or maybe on her period. She needs to stand up straight, focus on work, think, reconnect the dots of signs and symptoms with whats happening inside and put her hands still.
Maybe I surely do have a long way to go. If I have to make my future in the field of healing that is.
Another doubt I had on the way is that do doctors even refer to a psych consult here? (In some parts of India)
I mean I've seen a case of bathroom cleaner ingestion by a 19 year old girl who was so done with her husband that night and missed her parents badly while her in laws didn't let her go home.
They say there are 3 treatments
1. Symptomatic
2. Causative
3. Prophylactic
Merely giving emetics (and helping the girl vomit out the poison) isn't the solution is it? Or am I being too naive watching cast of Grey's getting too much into their hearts.
While there are docs who only do this to full their stomach and fill their desires, there also are some who work to heal the hearts by going a step or two beyond their paychecks. And I wanna be like the latter.
🥂 here's to trying to survive in this bull shit while trying to live in the world of your paraclinical textbooks.
I lost an inch around my waist!!
Here's to another week of squatting and working out 🥂
Hopefully my period comes after that week and not any later (unlike previous months) 🌷
Play The Real Slim Shady _ by eminem 👀
its okay to live a life. its okay to play badminton, watch anime, play games, sing, read fictions and write. its okay if you didnt study too much everyday. its okay if you spoke and made memories with family and friends ofcourse!
its okay.. we can still make studying a habit. so that i can still get a good nights sleep before finals.
That's what I should do. Force studying into my life slowly by taking breaks.
I swore to myself that I will not journal multiple times or as frequently as I did the past few months. Although therapeutic, journaling has solidified some memories for me that I shouod be forgetting and they push me further into the loop of overthinking. Moreover, I've journaled as if I was venting out my anger in the past few months. So now, I'm trying to redeem.
But I cant stop myself from journaling one time on tumblr. Cause it's been so long.
Firstly, I've moved on from my first crush. (Or atleast, I'm beginning to move on from him)
This is a milestone in itself because I realised that I do not want to be a secret admirer for someone I talk to very frequently that too,in a filter-free manner.
Although pretty late to join the other end of the sea called "first crushes and hormonal rushes", I've realised that it's either -
You stay a secret admirer while keeping your interactions minimal
Or
You let them know how you feel a little early in the relationship
So that you don't let the guilt of becoming a delusional take over whatever friendship you've really established enroute that's actually needed for the 2 of you but, you're too guilty when he needs you as a friend.
Learnt the lesson a really tough way, but we both have our lives moving in different paces in our unis so "it is what it is"
(I really wish we could hang out sometime soon. But I swore to not get ahead anytime soon, so)
Secondly, I began coloring in the penup app of my new tab and doodling a little albeit rarely. This got me into training my mind into being a little patient. Maybe right now I'm patient by 4% more than I was before on an average
Thirdly, I'm chronically having headaches.
It could be me stressing out or overthinking subtle things when I let my emotions and silliness take over the rationale. Also because although im not entirely a people pleaser, i have a hard time saying no and even taking it (should seriously work on better communication)
Or inadequate sleep mostly due to my inefficiency in planning things for the day or night if I'm being specific.
I should be sleeping now so I get sufficient rest for tomorrow, but I'm typing away anyways :p
Or me studying under stress! Panicking. Worrying about my future.
Or missing home and worrying about family
Or under-hydration
Or micro nutrition deficiency cause I get fatigued after I'm out in the sun, pretty easily.
So to sum everything up, my health is getting fucked up. Mental health and physical one too.
Hence the pms and pcos.
Fourthly, I read a lot than I studied in the past few months.
Be it solo leveling to begin with.
Or subtle art of not giving a fuck.
Then recently I've read It ends with us and It starts with us.
While rn I'm binging on Omniscient reader and Eaternal Nocturnal.
Even anime wise
I've watched too many it seems
Kaguya Sama
Suzume (in theatres ✨️)
Your name (rewatch, in theatres 💫, and re-rewatch in my new tab)
Your lie in april
Garden of words
Horimiya (S1)
Demon slayer (rehabilitation arc and mugen train)
I've watched many movies too
Jailer (in theatres)
Happy days
Anand
Gharshana
Good night
(Okay not too many but yeah more than my average in the recent times)
Now it makes sense why I get all panicky before exams. I almost never touched my books because I know, I know how the next 3 and the next 3 years of my life are gonna be like, academically
Lastly, yoongi's lines from magic shop are making so much sense to me right now that I want to turn back time and just live happily with my family but this time around - Imma take care of my parents more and show my brother I love him more and not think about growing up or idolize growing up. Cause adulting is so damn not easy! And I'm not even 21 yet (will be in a few months though)
It's tiring
Taxing
Exhausting
Exasperating
You can't even blame your parents anymore (that feels morally wrong!)
R.E.S.P.E.C.T.
Shingeki no kyojin
The anime that helped change the way I view the world. The anime that made me realise that dreams are dynamic too. The anime that made me learn, that forever is never. The anime that made me think about seeing change in a different light, as a possibility of becoming something new. The anime that made me rethink the way I judge people based on how little I know about them. The anime that made me see the very people I share my life and meals with in a different way. The anime that taught me what friendship is meant to be. The anime that I feel is the epitome of what workmanship and dedication should be. The anime that I'm so glad didn't end in one volume like isayama first wanted it to. The anime that made me appreciate anime music. My 2nd anime but 1st to ever make me fall in love with the process of making an anime. The voice actors who do a marvellous job. The musicians, vocalists and composers who do an irreplaceable job. The animators who only keep the story interesting. The first anime (probably because I watched it early on in my anime journey) that I am attached to.
I can see how much I've grown in the past 3 years. Definitely aot has something to do.
Infact it had many things to do.
I have many instances when I spoke wisely thanks to aot.
I can't thank aot enough for being my icebreaker and getting me a good friend.
Aot made me appreciate japanese music and culture.
The night I watched the lyrics of season 1 ending:
"Ustsukushiki zankokuna sekai"
That's when I cried and felt some emotions I never could verbally explain until that point.
I watched it while I was 17 maybe?
The summer of 2021 is ❤️🔥
I can't believe aot is ending sooner than my mbbs 😭😭😭😭😭
Then again, didn't it begin in 2013? Guess this is my fate and just like the scouts have it, I have to respect my fate and do the best I can.
Shinzou sasageyo ❤️🔥
Why does it just seem like yesterday that i was singing shogeki, red swan and akuma no ko?
Aot became my ritual and religion (religion especially when life gets too much for me)
I will miss you scouts 😭😭😭
(We've come a long way kiddos)
(I'm almost 21 and I've grown up with aot in a way)
Thank you Hajime isayama 🙏
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