My Soul Haruchiyo Sanzu X Reader (Angst)

My Soul Haruchiyo Sanzu X reader (Angst)

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The concept of death never really mattered to Sanzu Haruchiyo. For the mad dog of Bonten, killing was the same as breathing. Yet, why? why was he shivering? In his line of work, weaknesses are to be discarded. But why did he feel like the world has come to a stop when Mikey ordered him to get rid of you. The love of his life who he knew he never truly deserved. 

Memories of innocence invaded his mind. Every chapter of his life she was there, as his savior, his lover, his queen. Times where she cupped his face in her palms and told him how deep her love flows for him. How he deserved love. She accepted the broken him with no qualms. Always giving him the world. 

Never in a million years had he thought he had to choose between his King or his Muse. Mikey never had a problem with her before but why now? Did Sanzu show vulnerability? Did he portray weakness? Was he not ruthless enough in the eyes of his subordinates? Why did Mikey come to the conclusion that the death of his love will be the answer?

He had to choose. Bonten was his kingdom and his king's word is the law. 

His way back to his safe space didn't feel safe anymore. He felt cold after a long time. He told himself, that it was simply his intoxication or the weather. His hands made their way to the doorknob, wondering how he can make this easy for the both of them. He bit his bottom lip hard hoping that this was just a bad dream. 

She stood there her back facing Sanzu as she was cooking. With the smell of it, it was his favorite. She heard footsteps get closer to her, she smiled softly inside knowing that her lover is right behind her and in a few seconds will wrap his hands around her waist and bury his face in her neck grinning like the lovesick fool he is. 

 "Haru," She called as she turned her head only to meet with her lover with his sadistic smile and a gun pointing straight at her. 

Sanzu watched her eyes widen for a brief second before they went back to their original position. With no fear in her eyes. She softly smiled as she looked at him as if he was the most precious thing in the world. She knew him like the back of her hand. That sadistic smile he wore was nothing but a facade. Sanzu could feel his resolve crumbling. He had to do something quickly before the ache in his heart turns unbearable. 

"Let's go to the roof," She said as she made her way toward the stairs and Sanzu followed right behind her. Sanzu felt his legs go heavy, every step he took felt painful. No amount of drugs will help numb his pain. The devil lurking on his shoulder telling him to get rid of her right this moment. A mere minute felt like a century when they met with the stars. She twirled around gently to meet with his eyes, still smiling.

"Hold me Haru," She said as she made her way right in front of him. Sanzu didn't even waste a breath as he wrapped his hands around her, his gun long discarded and laying on the ground. He never held her this tight almost suffocating but she didn't mind. Tears threatened to fall from his lash line as she caress his hair and held him as if he was made of glass. She gently pulled away from him and placed a hand on his cheek. 

"Don't look at me like that!" He yelled painfully, gripping her blouse tight. She moved her lips towards his scar and placed a small kiss on it. Sanzu felt his knees go weak as he unintentionally let go of her. 

 "Let's run away," He ought to say. He wanted to say but... 'Do you really think Mikey will let you get away with it?' The voice in him said. He feared Mikey more than anything in the world. He knew what he was capable of. He was Mikey's slave and Mikey was his king. Betrayal was a lost concept for someone who only knew loyalty.

Why couldn't he choose you?

"Haruchiyo, "She called as he broke free from his thoughts. He found her in a circumstance he knew he never wanted. She stood there on the railing of the roof just a light push will end in death. His eyes were going blurry with the number of tears clouding his vision, yet he never blinked his eyes. 

 "Haruchiyo, I told you whatever your decision is I'll stand by you. Please don't blame yourself, this is something I decided on my own" She said as he paused hoping that he would meet her eyes. She wanted to burn his face in her memory so she can take it to the other world. 

"Compared to your pain mine will be over in an instant." She said as she looked him in the eye internally cursing Mikey for giving her love so much pain.

"Please remember, I love you. In this life in our next life, I will find you. I forever belong to you," She said. her soothing words always gave him courage. His breath hitched as he hoped that he could run to her and simply hope that this was just a nightmare. 

"Don't cry. I'm not going to die. As long as you think of me I'll always be alive inside of you. My soul is always watching over you." She said. She had always been the one to hold both of them, she was the stronger one of the both of them. Even her parting words gave him the strength to move on. 

"Smile Haruchiyo," She said as he did so. That was the least he could do for her. As much as it hurt, she knew this was the end as she leaned back losing her footing and as the wind swayed her hair she looked at the stars silently praying for him to be safe as she met with her end, Haruchiyo yelled. 

He knew that he would never be the same at least not without her.

Strong Love (Kurokawa Izana x Reader)

Fantasy Au

Angst with happy ending

Word count: 2.05K

"My queen, is there something bothering you?" He always called her that when they were alone. The word sometimes made her heart throb in happiness, other times it made her cry because she believed that she wasn't worthy enough to be called that. Irony indeed, where a mere word can cause a great rift in one's heart. She was just a commoner, a believer in fate, and someone who the King fancied.  

"No, your highness, it is nothing to be concerned about," She replied as she flashed him a closed-eye smile. 

"You don't have to call me that when we are by ourselves," He said, the king was a beautiful man, his long white hair that fall on his face naturally enhancing his beauty. His purple eyes resembled rare gemstones which makes any living being stop their tracks only to have another look at them. 

"I shall be mindful of that," She replied as she held his hand and leaned her frame to him as he wrapped his hands around her pulling her close to him. 

The empire of Tenjiku, the most powerful region of the continent. They were well-known for their refined army and brutal training. The king of the empire, Kurokawa Izana had kept the legacy of the empire alive. After the death of his parents and his beloved brother of another kingdom, he sought to become someone of great value and would strive to make the world a better place. 

He and his loyal disciples were seated at a round table, discussing the agenda of the month. These sessions were usually of great value, the members of the board along with the king never were to miss this meeting under any circumstances. 

"Your highness, Valhalla and Toman have merged, "Kakucho, the most loyal knight of the king spoke. Toman was a rival nation to Tenjiku, the sole reason why none of them declare war is because of the respect they pose for Sano Shinichiro, the king of Black Dragon.

Alas, that treaty had become history when Kisaki Tetta, the dark mage of the evil cult "Hanmas" had poisoned king Shinichiro and spread the rumor that Toman's ruler Manjirou had assassinated him for power. 

Safe to say that both nations were on bad terms when Black Dragon became a subsidiary to Tenjiku, as per King Shinichiro's will. 

"Toman is getting bigger, they are threatening our borders, we must do something or they might declare war," Ran Haitani, the older lord of the Noble Haitani family who had been serving under the Kurokawa family as their advisers spoke. 

"What can we even do in this situation?" Shion, the acting ruler of Black Dragons questioned. He was known as the most trusted mate to the Izana after Kakucho. 

"We are surrounded by allies, they won't side with Toman, "Mochi, the leader of the special arms unit gave his input. 

"I wouldn't be so sure of that, we need something concrete," King Izana made a valid point. 

"What about the Akashi family? They seem to be planning something" Mucho, a spy under Tenjiiku. His main purpose was to get information about Toman and their allies and report them to Izana.

"I am good friends with the 2nd prince, Haruchiyo, he has promised to stay neutral." Lord Rindou said. Lord Rindou and 2nd Prince Haruchiyo, met on several occasions. They had been planning an assassination of the 1st prince Takeomi and 1st princess Senju, in order for Haruchiyo to become the Lord of the Akashi family and expand the Haitani territory. 

"Yea, good friends," Shion mocked, only to receive a threatening glare from the older Haitani. Legally, Shion held more power than the Haitanis but somehow was submissive to them. 

"It has come to my notice that the nation of Moebius had cut ties with Toman and has become a free nation," Kakucho said. Moebius's King 'Osanai' was working with the Hanmas, Manjirou suspected that Mobius was responsible for Shinichiro's death but he didn't have any evidence so he broke ties with Osanai instead of war.

"In order to guarantee our complete authority over Moebius, We have to ask for their 1st Princess's hand, An arranged marriage between the house of Kurokawa and Moebius". (Just imagine Osanai having a sister or something).

"No, I have (Y/N), I do not need another woman in my life," King Izana blurt out without any hesitation leaving no room for argument. 

"That's all for today, Dismiss," The king announced. The moment Izana gave his word, the members of the board bowed down in respect and went to attend their respective agenda, except for one. 

"Shion? was there something you needed to address to me personally?" Izana asked, Unknowing to him and Shion that another presence was listening to their conversation, unintentionally. 

"Please reconsider, your highness, power is what the kingdom needs right now, agree to the marriage with the Moebius nation," Shion said as he looked deep into the eyes of Izana. Izana was a great ruler but he isn't going to be young forever. 

"You can have lady (Y/n) as your mistress, she is a smart woman, she knows the kingdom's dynamics. Surely, she will come to terms with it," Shion continued, knowing that the king has her in his mind. He had always thought that it was a pity that (Y/n) wasn't born to a lord. Otherwise, she would be a great queen. 

"Alright, I'll think about it,"Izana said as he sighed. Shion though more about the empire and Izana was thankful for that. He wasn't going to agree to the marriage but he had to do some thinking. In order for the empire to continue, he needed a heir.  

'Figures,' She thought to herself dishearten, as she made her way back to the King's room. On her way back she heard a few maids gossiping among themselves. Sad to say, they held a higher status when compared to her. 

'That commoner? I wonder what the king saw in her.'

'Maybe she is a spy for Toman.'

'What a Harlot. She seduced the King.'

'The King would be better off with someone else.'

Rumors formed a dark cloud around her. She knew that she was not the one to be by the king's side. All these years she had been surrounded by riches and fortune. The king had spoiled her rotten. She was possessive of the King, she loved him with all her heart. Perhaps, she was being greedy. What is she? The King's lover? A commoner? and...? Who?

She decided that she would leave, she wrote a letter before walking away from the place that she never belonged to. 

My Love, 

If you find this letter, it means that I no longer wish to be found. I have come to realize that; all these years I had been deluding myself into thinking that I am someone of great importance because I am loved by the king. I kept on believing that what the king and I have will be eternal. I must thank you for everything you have done for me. 

I have come to know how beautiful and giving love is because of you. I am truly blessed. I wish happiness and good fortune for you and your queen. My King is an honorable man, the best ruler of the continent. Someone like you should deserve the best and I do not believe that I am the one to hold the spot. 

Do you remember the time when we first met? It was raining that day too. I still feel embarrassed that I spoke to you with malice when you jumped in my garden. I was ignorant of the fact that you were the king. You laughed at my outburst and spoke to me like a friend. You told me about how you dreamed to make the nation a better place with such passion. I hope that you still have the same determination as before. 

For I will go on a journey to find out who I was before I was blinded by greed. Before I lived in luxury before I was blessed by your love. 

I am no royalty, I am not worthy of staying by your side as your significant other. Perhaps, this is god's will. Please respect my wishes. I do not think I will be able to live with the fact that your highness will be a laughing stock because of my presence. Take care of yourself. 

(Y/N)(L/N)

"Kakucho!! Find (Y/n) and bring her here this instant," A worried King called for his most loyal knight. He crumbled the letter in anger. 

"Yes, your highness," Kakucho replied as he summoned Mochi to assemble couple of search parties for Izana's most prized possession. 

'SHIT!! How can I be so stupid,' Izana thought as he strolled the corridor, snapping at anyone who approaches him. He mentally cursed his stupidity. He knew that she was aware about the possible interview, he saw her silhouette when he was speaking to Shion. Yet, he did nothing to ease her worries. He didn't care about Moebius or Toman. The only thing he doesn't want to let go is her. 

After sending a dozen of search parties, his lover was yet to be found. Izana thought for a while, any clue that would help reunite his lover to him. Think! Think!. 'The river near the west forest'. It was a place she would often go to ease her mind. She would always visit the place at least twice a month. That's the only clue he got. 

He took the nearest horse and rode towards the river. After a few minutes, he found someone, it was no doubt her, any beauty in the world cannot surpass hers. 

"I knew I would find you here," A smooth voice said. She knew that voice all too well. The king was standing right in front of her. How he knew her more than she did herself. 

"Your Highness," She called as she lowered her head in respect. Holding her gown tight and biting down her lower lip to avoid bursting down in tears. 

"I believe I told you not to call me that," Izana said as he took another step towards her to close the distance. With every step he took towards her, she took one backwards. Eventually leading to him caging her to the nearest tree.

"You mustn't be here. It's rude to the future Queen of the empire." She said, trying to find an escape route, to have a tough exterior only to gently pick up what's left of her in loneliness. 

"The only Queen I want to keep by my side is you," He said as he placed his forehead on hers, holding her close. Again, just a few words and he already made his way inside her heart. 

"I cannot be your mistress, I will not. You can call me selfish but I cannot bear to see the man I love in the arms of another," She cried out, placing her hands in front of her face in an attempt to cover her teary face. 

"I promise you. It will never happen. I agree that traditions are important and in order to continue the legacy of our kingdom. Don't forget, this is my kingdom, I am free to do what I want. The only thing I want is you," He spoke out his deepest thoughts leaving no room for doubt. Still, there was a dark cloud lurking around her telling her that this is wrong and the king will never be happy with her. 

"My love, my heart only beats for you," He said as he held both his hands in hers pulling her closer, with their chests barely touching. All her previous determination of running away to find herself vanished in thin air. 

"Will you marry me?" He continues. The four words he said with a slight blush on his face was just enough to make her heart skip a beat. She realized that she was the best version of herself when she was with him and it was the same for him. 

"Yes" She replied as he leaned down to capture her lips with his own.

r u the person who wrote that itoshi rin x reader au on ao3

Sorry for the late reply!! I don't think I have written an Itoshi Rin fic. If it is good, I hope that you wouldn't mind sharing the link of the story with me :)

Do you think you’ll ever add a part 2 to I can't say, 'I Love You' story 👀

I was thinking about writing a part 2 but couldn't think of anything. Poly for a second crossed my mind but didnt like the idea much. Thank you for reading my post. :)

Inspired by the current obey me event!