The Fact That Misha Feels Terrible About Us Being Sad Makes Me Sick. It's Digusting That The Cw Isn't

the fact that misha feels terrible about us being sad makes me sick. it's digusting that the cw isn't owning up to their mistakes, making an actor say something about the spanish dub, and then feeling terrible about how he couldn't help the fans get the recognition we deserve. censorship is fucked i've had my last fucking straw pulled. misha is one of my favorite actors, and often is my inspiration for wanting to follow into the acting business. but when i see shit like this happening? someone needs to fucking own up and say some shit. an actor who poured everything into the confession, giving the queer fans something we really needed, should not feel sorry for what has happened.

sometimes i forget i can use social media to let out what's on my mind because i think these are things people want to hear then i remember that no one will see it so i just continue to bottle it up inside anyways here's this photo of my minecraft dogs i took a few weeks back

okay i will write the fanfiction but i honestly did not expect someone to see the post so i'm freaking out a lite

hello i'm just here to say i love din djarin thank you send tweet

tw: transphobia, homophobia

as someone who is trans i've always felt very close to castiel's character. he's an angelic being who doesn't fit in with the other angels, but isn't necessarily normal in team free will either. i've always connected my experience with coming out as how chuck and the angels treated him. i was forced back into the closet. my parents did not agree with hormones, constantly misgender me and all that. but i still love them, just as castiel constantly tried to show his worth to the rest of his tribe. however, dean and sam and all of the other humans accepted cas. dean once said “sorry cas, i'd rather have you. broken or not,” and it really resonated with me. tomorrow marks one year since i came out to my friends (tho i was already out to my parents for a few months before) and they're the ones i can openly be myself with. they use my current name, they use my pronouns, and we act like nothings changed. but upon seeing castiel's character being thrown out the window as soon as he confesses his love to dean, a man he's loved for 12 fucking years. it hurts. it really does. a show i only started watching before season 15 started. i spent my entire summer break watching and falling in love with characters i could connect with. actors i know who accept my kind. people who consider me family. normally i wouldn't care because i know there's never representation for people like me. but a few minutes of castiel crying and telling this man he loves him, only to die and only get mentioned once. to never have dean fully understand what happened. still beautiful, still dean winchester. for what? nothing. it makes me sick. and i bottle it up because i know they don't want to hurt their cishet viewers feelings. it makes me feel like castiel when he first arrived. an outsider, simply following orders blindly without any idea of what is actually going on.

so thank you, cw, for reminding me fanfiction is the only way i can ever get representation. because it's not only supernatural that you've ruined for me. you've ruined the flash, the arrow, swamp thing, batwoman, constantine, and every other dc hero you've picked up.

i made my username when i was an early teenager but now i'm 15 and i really don't know what i'm gonna do when i'm a legal adult. because somefanadult just doesn't sound as cool

and i suck at usernames so ig i'll just ride this train as long as i can