Moonythemoose - That One Newbie Writing Blog

I’ve lost it all.

Forfeited my life for a break from pain,

Cried out into nothingness and jumped headfirst into hate

I shuddered away from mirrors, afraid of my own reflection

Because the hideous creature that peered back at me

Was something I used to cherish.

But now that I’ve been stripped of everything,

Everything secondary to who I am,

And I’ve fallen into every pit of despair and explored the worst person that I can be,

Questioned everything and hated every single fibre of my being,

I can finally try to accept all of me.

I can move forward and let go,

Breathe deeply and remember that I am a whole, flawed, beautiful person.

And I can forget all of my plans and my discontentment

Because even without everything,

I can still love me.

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Big Warning

If you see a police car or a cop with a speaker looking thing on it, FUCKING RUN. It's known as an LRAD (Long Range Acoustic Device), a device that, when activated, can permanently damage your hearing and cause serious harm. If you're too close, you'll be left in a lot of pain and squirming on the ground permanently deaf. Ear plugs do not work. Unless you have one of those shooting range headphones, you do not stand a chance against them. Again, if you see them pull up, RUN. This is what they look like.

Stay safe.

I’ve been working through a labyrinth.

Large stone walls,

Shrouds of darkness,

Sharp turns and endless paths,

Sometimes the walls narrow and squeeze the air out of my lungs,

Sometimes they’re so far away that I don’t know where I’m wandering; a void...

Fears creep up on me,

Tears blur my vision,

My darkest shadows seem to bleed into every crevice,

I scream and shriek,

Paralysed by my own mind,

I run down the same paths,

Loop around myself,

Over and over I get lost,

Anxiety cripples me until

I can’t move.

But sometimes after waves of miserable failure,

I take the right turn

And I find it.