Where Do You See Yourself In The Next 10 Years?
Where do you see yourself in the next 10 years?
Do we have to breathe tomorrow?
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why is it so hard to forget?
In your absence, I grasp desperately for anything, hoping it speaks to my soul as you once did, but it never does.
When the day comes when I meet someone who not only speaks to my soul but feels my soul, inhales like it is the best brand of oxygen to exist and who wouldn't mind being the Icarus to my Sun, I might believe in love again.
Until then I will spend my existence trying to forget yours.
I cannot send to this him, I can't lower my self-respect anymore it already in the ground (It's been 6 months of no contact after he rejected me and I blocked him)
I am really anxious. Can you talk like you did that day. Anxious like my bones are shaking. I am about to do something crazy and super important but I don't think I possess the guts to do it. So before that I am going something crazier so that the thing I will do next will seem pretty normal compared to this. Dude I miss you. You have no idea how many times I have dreamt of you. It's like you have left my life but still with me almost every night. I promised myself never to say your name again but it is your name that I see everywhere. Like it's impossible to forget you. There are times I suddenly miss you a lot like my brain is only capable so saying your name and then it appears that you posted something on social media or changed your profile pic. Like I get this intuitive hit that you have posted and I need to give my brain my dose of dopamine by seeing that picture. You said you were never interested in me. OK fine maybe not in this lifetime but maybe in the next. Or maybe after that one. I don't care. Just stay with me for one life out of the many you and I are going to have. And I don't need us to be humans also. You can be a monkey and I can be your favourite stone that you keep with forever till the day you die for all I care. I just mean that in any life we meet again, do not ever dare leave me again once you come in my zone of awareness. It will take me half a lifetime to forget you and I don't want to go through this agony again
My heart beats for a future not possible
My heart gnaws to bite you, to consume raw
You ask me for whom do I hold so much desire?
How do I say your name without scaring you away?
You're my muse but aren't muses supposed to unattainable?
Then why does my heart beat only in the desire to attain you?
a you-shaped hole in the universe Celia Paul, Ocean Vuong, Owen Gent, Alejandra Pizarnik (trans. Yvette Siegert), Karman Verdi, Edna St Vincent Millay