I... I Can't With This Episode. Even If I Get Past The Extreme Cas 'n' Sam Whump, I Still Can't.

I... I can't with this episode. Even if I get past the extreme Cas 'n' Sam whump, I still can't.

I'm not sure what I expected to see the next time we saw Cas after breaking free from Naomi's mind control, after that devastating scene with Dean in the crypt, after touching the actual Word of God and getting all glowy.

Cas looking exhausted and sickly but retaining enough good grace to chat pleasantly with the waitress while drinking endless cups of coffee, politely ordering food he doesn't need to eat, hiding in plain sight in a neverending series of cookie-cutter fast-food restaurants he chose to confuse the birdsyeye gaze of Heaven was not it.

Naomi slaughtering a restaurant full of humans to make him stop running was not it.

Cas saying "Bite me" to Naomi without messing up the delivery was not it.

Cas sticking that huge lump of rock inside his own body to conceal and protect it (then getting it ripped out again) was not it.

Cas hardcore digging an angel-killing bullet out of his gut with his fingertips while being interrogated, then manually shoving it in his brother angel's eye was not it.

Cas ending up asking Dean and Sam to help him because he was so badly injured by the end was not it.

I watched this about a month ago now and I still can't even thoughts. Nope. And don't even get me started on hermit!Metatron and his stories and the Sam hurt/comfort fever crazies, or Crowley being singlehandedly smarter than the combined forces of Heaven.

"Uh, been on the road a long time, huh?" ↳ 8.21 - THE GREAT ESCAPIST

🩸Bloody Dean Every Episode🩸 ↳ 6x05 || Live Free or Twihard Part 1

I'm mostly reblogging Supernatural gifsets with dialogue captions as a memory aid, but this one...

Dean and Cas are at a rock-bottom point in their relationship in this episode - Cas is deceiving him and doing awful things behind his back, the full extent of which won't be revealed until towards the end of the season; Dean is frustrated with Cas's new evasiveness and unavailability while, as yet, refusing to doubt his motives for a second because they're... Well, what are they? Neither of them could tell you at this point. Neither of them would want to try.

Then they do this - this moment of absolute connection that stills and grounds them both for a moment in the middle of that ugly, unfolding storyline and all its conflict. It briefly cancels out Dean's anger and Cas's impatience with him. They each stand in awe of the other's ability to affect them so deeply by doing and saying so little - they both wish things were better between them but do they get that they miss each other? They both resent the other's lack of understanding about the separate difficulties they're facing. But they pause and have this conversation, quietly, and Cas chooses to refill Dean's glass like a peace offering to dilute Dean's hostility. It works - the gesture, the unexpected approach. This is intimacy and raw chemistry between two characters who don't know the first thing about how to handle it.

Slash fanwriters used to dream about shows giving us raw material like this to work with, while we were creating epic love stories out of a vague sense of incompleteness combined with that one, weird half-glance between character Y and character Z in episode nineteen of season four. We built on what wasn't said or shown - on something that was missing from the emotional landscape of the canon. Now I'm watching a show do this in HD and leave it complicated and messy and open to every interpretation. Holy COW.

DESTIEL IN EVERY EPISODE → 6x06 you can't handle the truth

you asked me to be here, and i came

Eric brings out Muriel’s inner goose.

Hi, I'm Nym

She/her. Old-skool fangirl. Fanfiction writer on AO3.

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About Nym

Lifelong fannish for sci/fantasy media, mainly TV. Fanfiction is my main passion, so I'm into character analysis and meta. My fanfiction tends to be introspective, angsty, and smutty/'shippy in a character-rich sort of way.

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Back on Tumblr after a long break, because I finally got my act together and watched Supernatural, so I can't get spoilered for it any more!

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I'm currently giddy/blogging about Doctor Who, the Good Omens TV adaptation, Supernatural, which I just watched for the first time, the Marvel MCU, and Once Upon a Time. I never stop loving my older fandoms, though.

Earlier fandoms: Robin of Sherwood, Beauty and the Beast (TV series), Blake's 7, Quantum Leap, Back to the Future, Harry Potter, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Hercules: The Legendary Journeys, Highlander: The Series, VR.5, Petshop of Horrors, The Tomorrow People, Star Wars, Star Trek(s), Stargate(s), more Doctor Who.

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Will your GO story get a happy ending? Please!

Absolutely! They love each other. Everything else is just pesky details.