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Simone de Beauvoir, from "Inseraparable: A Never Before Published Novel,"

I have tried, tried to find serenity in this melancholy

-Patricia Njeri, I have tried

I have tried, tried to find poetry in all this pain.

-Patricia Njeri, I have tried

I decided to learn and study my enemy. And unknowingly, I was slowly learning about myself.

- Patricia Njeri

Leila Chatti, from "Questions Directed Toward the Idea of Mary"

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“But in that moment I understood what they say about nostalgia, that no matter if you’re thinking of something good or bad, it always leaves you a little emptier afterwards.”

— John Corey Whaley; Noggin

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.”

— Unknown

the stages of writing:

amazing idea

doubt

despair

snacks

somehow, a finished story.

But nothing destroys me utterly and breaks me greatly than this recurring thought that I am nothing but a hypocrite.

Patricia Njeri- Hypocrite

Fractured and fragmented that is the state of my soul. And I've been searching and collecting these fragments for what seems like ages.

I haven't been whole for a long time.

And when I find them, I have no idea on what to do with them but carry them along bearing the burden of it all.

-Patricia Njeri, Fragments of my soul.

Never have I dealt with anything as difficult as my own soul.

Imam Al-Ghazali

“Life is inherently risky. There is only one big risk you should avoid at all costs, and that is the risk of doing nothing.”

— Denis Waitley

Sergei Efron, from a letter to Max Voloshin, referring to Marina Tsvetaeva, featured in Earthly Signs, Moscow Diaries

Exhausting. It's exhausting to be devoid of dreams acutely miserable, bleak and void

-Patricia Njeri

I lose myself in order to find myself, and that is my chaos that is my chaos.

-Patricia Njeri, My Chaos

“I’ve got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts - you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn’t do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing.”

— D.D. Barant

So then, I shall fall but I mustn't allow myself to stay down. I shall crawl, drag myself on the ground but I mustn't allow myself to stop.

- Patricia Njeri

But I shouldn't allow this state of hopelessness and worry overwhelm me.

- Patricia Njeri

And it takes a toll on you, on your sanity once you realise you are your biggest enemy.

- Patricia Njeri, Freedom